Amanda Ghost

I didn't notice you. Didn't have a point of view.
All the things that mattered then only really hit me
when I saw that inside you were scared.
lying on a bed of nails build me up to watch me fail
all the ones that went before never really wanted
more than you were not willing to give. I'm falling down,
can't see the truth. I know the hell that you've been through.
I'm falling out of love with you but I'll find defenses,
I'll try to care less. Won't someone help me feel numb.
Felt the sting of acid rain. Sweet messiah come again
sitting on my pedestal. I never really felt at all that
I'm the same person as you. I'm falling down,
can't see the truth. I know the hell that you've been
through I'm walking side by side

I can see it
I can feel it
Rushing in my veins
I don't like it
I don't hide it
see it in my face
but I don't want to wait
for I have lost my faith

chorus:
Why can't I find myself an idol?
Somebody that I can look up to
Be big enough to hold me close in their arms
and never let me down
And all these stupid conversations
that always seem to lead to nowhere
thery're going round and round and round in my head
and they'll be back again.
they're coming back again

it's not fair
I still care now
we're always alone.
honesty and modesty
will never find my home
but I will never say
when I have lost my way

repeat chorus

You take it
You take it
and throw it away

I can see it
I can feel it
Rushing in my veins
I don't like it
I don't hide it
see it in my face
but I don't want to wait
for I have lost my faith

chorus:
Why can't I find myself an idol?
Somebody that I can look up to
Be big enough to hold me close in their arms
and never let me down
And all these stupid conversations
that always seem to lead to nowhere
thery're going round and round and round in my head
and they'll be back again.
they're coming back again

it's not fair
I still care now
we're always alone.
honesty and modesty
will never find my home
but I will never say
when I have lost my way

repeat chorus

You take it
You take it
and throw it away

I can see it
I can feel it
Rushing in my veins
I don't like it
I don't hide it
see it in my face
but I don't want to wait
for I have lost my faith

chorus:
Why can't I find myself an idol?
Somebody that I can look up to
Be big enough to hold me close in their arms
and never let me down
And all these stupid conversations
that always seem to lead to nowhere
thery're going round and round and round in my head
and they'll be back again.
they're coming back again

it's not fair
I still care now
we're always alone.
honesty and modesty
will never find my home
but I will never say
when I have lost my way

repeat chorus

You take it
You take it
and throw it away

I can see it
I can feel it
Rushing in my veins
I don't like it
I don't hide it
see it in my face
but I don't want to wait
for I have lost my faith

chorus:
Why can't I find myself an idol?
Somebody that I can look up to
Be big enough to hold me close in their arms
and never let me down
And all these stupid conversations
that always seem to lead to nowhere
thery're going round and round and round in my head
and they'll be back again.
they're coming back again

it's not fair
I still care now
we're always alone.
honesty and modesty
will never find my home
but I will never say
when I have lost my way

repeat chorus

You take it
You take it
and throw it away

I can see it
I can feel it
Rushing in my veins
I don't like it
I don't hide it
see it in my face
but I don't want to wait
for I have lost my faith

chorus:
Why can't I find myself an idol?
Somebody that I can look up to
Be big enough to hold me close in their arms
and never let me down
And all these stupid conversations
that always seem to lead to nowhere
thery're going round and round and round in my head
and they'll be back again.
they're coming back again

it's not fair
I still care now
we're always alone.
honesty and modesty
will never find my home
but I will never say
when I have lost my way

repeat chorus

You take it
You take it
and throw it away

I can see it
I can feel it
Rushing in my veins
I don't like it
I don't hide it
see it in my face
but I don't want to wait
for I have lost my faith

chorus:
Why can't I find myself an idol?
Somebody that I can look up to
Be big enough to hold me close in their arms
and never let me down
And all these stupid conversations
that always seem to lead to nowhere
thery're going round and round and round in my head
and they'll be back again.
they're coming back again

it's not fair
I still care now
we're always alone.
honesty and modesty
will never find my home
but I will never say
when I have lost my way

repeat chorus

You take it
You take it
and throw it away

I can see it
I can feel it
Rushing in my veins
I don't like it
I don't hide it
see it in my face
but I don't want to wait
for I have lost my faith

chorus:
Why can't I find myself an idol?
Somebody that I can look up to
Be big enough to hold me close in their arms
and never let me down
And all these stupid conversations
that always seem to lead to nowhere
thery're going round and round and round in my head
and they'll be back again.
they're coming back again

it's not fair
I still care now
we're always alone.
honesty and modesty
will never find my home
but I will never say
when I have lost my way

repeat chorus

You take it
You take it
and throw it away

Love is gone
My tv's on
I'm hanging with the boys
A life with fools
this world is cruel
We never dispense with toys
Could you make a suggestion
for an act I would enjoy
I'm drowning
So come inside
Welcome to my filthy mind
My fingers are burnt
Forgot what I learnt
I'll never be a satisfied
Become a recluse
Enjoy the abuse
It's better to just get high
Now I feel like a baby
who has just opened its eyes
I'm drowning
So come inside
Welcome to my filthy mind

Love is gone
My tv's on
I'm hanging with the boys
A life with fools
this world is cruel
We never dispense with toys
Could you make a suggestion
for an act I would enjoy
I'm drowning
So come inside
Welcome to my filthy mind
My fingers are burnt
Forgot what I learnt
I'll never be a satisfied
Become a recluse
Enjoy the abuse
It's better to just get high
Now I feel like a baby
who has just opened its eyes
I'm drowning
So come inside
Welcome to my filthy mind

Love is gone
My tv's on
I'm hanging with the boys
A life with fools
this world is cruel
We never dispense with toys
Could you make a suggestion
for an act I would enjoy
I'm drowning
So come inside
Welcome to my filthy mind
My fingers are burnt
Forgot what I learnt
I'll never be a satisfied
Become a recluse
Enjoy the abuse
It's better to just get high
Now I feel like a baby
who has just opened its eyes
I'm drowning
So come inside
Welcome to my filthy mind

Love is gone
My tv's on
I'm hanging with the boys
A life with fools
this world is cruel
We never dispense with toys
Could you make a suggestion
for an act I would enjoy
I'm drowning
So come inside
Welcome to my filthy mind
My fingers are burnt
Forgot what I learnt
I'll never be a satisfied
Become a recluse
Enjoy the abuse
It's better to just get high
Now I feel like a baby
who has just opened its eyes
I'm drowning
So come inside
Welcome to my filthy mind

Love is gone
My tv's on
I'm hanging with the boys
A life with fools
this world is cruel
We never dispense with toys
Could you make a suggestion
for an act I would enjoy
I'm drowning
So come inside
Welcome to my filthy mind
My fingers are burnt
Forgot what I learnt
I'll never be a satisfied
Become a recluse
Enjoy the abuse
It's better to just get high
Now I feel like a baby
who has just opened its eyes
I'm drowning
So come inside
Welcome to my filthy mind

Love is gone
My tv's on
I'm hanging with the boys
A life with fools
this world is cruel
We never dispense with toys
Could you make a suggestion
for an act I would enjoy
I'm drowning
So come inside
Welcome to my filthy mind
My fingers are burnt
Forgot what I learnt
I'll never be a satisfied
Become a recluse
Enjoy the abuse
It's better to just get high
Now I feel like a baby
who has just opened its eyes
I'm drowning
So come inside
Welcome to my filthy mind

I don't remember when I got cold
it was when he would lay into me
Told that your worthless from five years old
Is it part of your destiny
He's standing next to me
I cannot breath
When will I have the guts to leave?

chorus:
Run away
from all that is sacred
Escaping the shadows over me
Run away
You'll never make it
It's al that a child believes

I don't remember when I felt warm
I was never quite good enough
I only wanted the simple things
like being told you were loved
he's still supporing me but where's the faith
Looking in his eyes I sense his hate

repeat chorus

I never cry for sadness
I cut off from the pain
I won't forget your madness
but I'll forgive you anyway
but I'll forgive you anyway
He's standing next to me
I cannot breath
When will I have the guts to leave

repeat chorus

This shallow need to feel wanted.
Worshipped and adored and ever be ignored.
I give you love but you don't see it.
You never understand my world is in your hands.
I have this thought in my head and it's about being noticed.
I have this thought in my head and it's about being noticed
(we hid away) somebody stop me feeling empty
(we hide away) somebody stop me feeling empty.
You start this dance but I'm leading.
You act out the abused bewildered and confused.
Oh, tonight I'm yours but I don't feel it.
You say it's all a game but one can only play.

Drawn to the violence of change
Charmed by the sentimental brave
I hear the door slam, I look the other way
I hate the small talk and the empty days

Silver lining I bathe in your light
I'll always believe in your place in my life
Silver lining I know that I'm right
I'll always believe in your right to shine

Scared of the things that people say
knowing my confidence might fail
I feel the world's weight upon my breaking back
I see uncertainty and the visible cracks

Silver lining I bathe in your light
I'll always believe in your place in my life
Silver lining I know that I'm right
I'll always believe in your right to shine

This song is about music industry executives

It must be wonderful
To think you know it all
It must be beautiful
To really believe in you

Chorus
But I am constatly waiting
I'm looking for your soul
I am constantly praying
I've come looking for you, looking for you
Blind man
You do what you can


You do what you can to be superman
Blind man
I'll do what I can.
I'll do what I can
To make you believe

You must be thrilled to bits
The happy hypocrite
And when you're out of it
The whole world is with you too

Repeat chorus

Repeat chorus

(2x)and i try
and i try
and i try
and i try

Nobody moves me
I've been through this life with no place that I can call my own.
I'm thinking above me
I never seem to find anybody that can feel like home

and I try
and I try
and I try
and i try

Funny how it feels when there's nothing to say.
Trapped with my ideals
I can't contain
I'm wrapped in cellophane(3x)
and it knows my name

Nobody told me obsessive needs were always following me around
and you can't ignore me.
Look at my face and then tell me my place in town
and he's in and she's in
and he's in and she's in

Funny how it feels when there's nothing to say.
Trapped with my ideals
I can't contain
I'm wrapped in cellophane(3x)
and it knows my name

and I try
and I try and he's in and she's in
and he's in and she's in.

Perfect is tonight. It's opened up to find.
No matter what I say you're a substitute for my pride.
It's terrible to see a new accessory no matter what
I say you're just filling a void in me.
But it's better to know the girl inside.
You're always running towards the needs that you recognize.
But it's better to leave the love behind 'cause you're the wrong
man a the wrong time in my life. You don't. You don't.
You won't. You won't belong. Wasted is today.
Another pill to take.
I know the hate is equal to the love we make.
To you I don't belong when the trust has gone.
I know the games we play aren't fooling anyone you don't.
You don't. You won't. You won't belong.