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| 7:35 | 
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Turning the page, write to cease new ideas
Thoughts - all duly recorded Maybe someday, all the rhymes, given time Would get justly rewarded So long ago, you don't even know how it started So there you go Stashing the sketches and drafts of what has become an Encyclopedia of all the things you've done Expect the media to bother when you're gone Hours and hours of sacrifice, no compromise Forced as if under orders Planning to take land sea and skies, but can't decide When to cross the borders Encyclopedia of all there is to know Encyclopedia - but what is there to show The piles just seem to grow Is this ambitions one man show There's only one man watching you, John Doe He's both on stage and in the front row Encyclopedia - your one and only friend Encyclopedia - will pay off in the end Turning around, the objective of the way you lived Hypothetical fortune, suddenly found You're at the gate - it's too late Psychological torture So long ago, since you should have put it all out there So now you go Leaving for us to discover the paths you have tread Encyclopedia - all written by his hand Encyclopedia - will we ever understand Now he will never know Swept away by the undertow The world is listening now, John Doe Come back and reap what you have sown |
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| 2. |
| 5:43 |
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I could have pushed you out that day
That would have been the easy way Watch you fly down that hundred meter fall I wouldn't care at all Falling, falling, drowning Inhaling and you're screaming Screaming... Pleading don't go Mirages - as I hurt you in my mind As the memories unwind Mirages - as you led me to believe In things that only you conceive Why do you play that vicious game I ask myself most every day So high, that hundred meter fall I turn around and there you are Falling, falling, drowning Inhaling and I'm screaming Screaming... Pleading... Bleeding Victoria falls were much too real It's beauty false though now I see Please try to explain What was the aim, what was the gain No matter how I try to wash it off The stains remain (We are gathered here today To say our last farewells We fell so hard down that hundred meter fall Now - only stains of us remain) Mirages - as you twisted with my mind As you told me I was blind Mirages - well constructed to deceive The trusty and naive Mirages - as you offered no reprieve From the hell you had achieved Mirages - as I finally could see That there was nothing to conceive |
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| 3. |
| 4:50 |
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I can turn away and hold my breath a day
But I can't escape the stench of the lie That's haunting my mind I won't be free even if I'm deaf, dumb and blind All those weary eyes with their wicked smiles They come to my dreams, they're watching us now They're after my head, they're after my life Why can't they stay dead? [Chorus:] I confess to my sin, reaching deep within It comes straight from my heart, where should I start In revealing my thoughts, reaching deep within I'm just letting it out and letting you in Reaching within It was so long ago, or was it yesterday I can't seem to find a thread in my mind A needle that's sharp that will make me whole That's mending my soul It's hard for me to plead, for your empathy When hatred persists, whom can I persuade? To forgive and forget I threw the stone but I stand alone [Chorus] Dig in my head and you'll find what is on my mind Take it all out, I insist that it won't be missed Wake up the slumbering man, Give him time to adapt to your world, I just know he can [Chorus] |
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| 4. |
| 10:09 |
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Living alone
Is not the way for me Words on the phone They fade and die as I put it down Feel like a stone Emotionless, hard and cold All on my own I just can't find the way (Chorus:) So tell me I'm dreaming Please wake me up Pinch my arm as hard as you want 'Cause all of this madness Makes sense when you're here One and one is two, but not when two is one Tired and slow Time crawls by us now Distance's a foe Far, far too strong for my weary mind Opening the door The world lies endless, there below Don't know where to go I just can't find the way (Chorus) What good are numbers anyway They put perspective on the game But we're playing off the board Oh the rules do not apply I feel it, the energy Keeping contact intravenously Floating chemistry Protones, electrones, forming atoms, molecules Into complex lifeforms So in perspective of the game What good are numbers anyway When we're playing off the board Oh the rules do not apply Tears from the ceiling That's how I'm feeling Falling - forgiving Call of the living Tell me I'm dreaming Please wake me up Pinch my arm as hard as you want Tears from the ceiling Tell me I'm dreaming Water fulfilling Life - a new meaning So tell me I'm dreaming Please wake me up Pinch my arm as hard as you want 'Cause all of this madness Makes sense when you're here One & one is two, but not when two is one But if you count you lose the point So in perspective of the game What good are numbers anyway When we're playing off the board Oh the rules do not apply |
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| 5. |
| 7:35 | 
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| 6. |
| 6:17 |
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At the time I left land and sailed away
Never knew I would end up a castaway Wind went hard and the sky had tears for me The sea was all that I saw, my enemy There are days that I wake up and strongly believe There are ways to escape, I myself might deceive In the bottles I've sent, I reached out for a hand But as sure as I'm here, they have never seen land [Chorus:] Castaway, your clouds are in the way of light I am stumbling blind Castaway, your thoughts, remembered by the prints That I left behind I know, but it's so hard to show Myself a way, to a better day I know that I am destined to live A life in memory, companion to my misery I've seen ships passing by, but they've never seen me And for each day that pass without being free I will moulder within with nothing to win I will gamble my soul to pay any toll Isolation I face every day, every night What is real what is not, I keep losing my sight Who's to care who's to not, I just never might know For the son God forgot, maybe someday, I hope someday they'll show I used to love the snow Can I reach it now Beyond my dreams somehow Only the stars look the same How I'd love to know their names [Chorus] I know, but it's so hard to show Myself a way, to a better day I know that I am destined to live Trapped by the sea, living in your memory |
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| 7. |
| 6:55 |
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I sit in darkness cold and wait
Searching in my mind My watch has stopped at half past eight And I can't recall a thing I won't accept this divided state Where two are trapped in one I'd ask them to communicate If I knew how (I am the one of your fears In your head, in your bed, in your dreams - or so it seems Am I too much I have no fears, have no tears And might I add, like I said; Am I too much) They're starting to interrogate, looking for a sign Trying to intimidate, "we know you were there that night" It seems it's getting far too late to find an easy out But how am I to indicate that it was eye (I am the one of your fears In your head, in your bed, in your dreams - or so it seems Am I too much I have no fears, have no tears And once again, little friend; Am I too much) I wake before the curtains fall, just in time to see His devastating work of art, acknowledged and signed by me And you... you just... just cry I... I, oh I got so much I wanna say Yeah, so many things I've kept away All the lying, all denying, all the little bricks in his game So clear to me, yet so obscured If anyone could help me out, if anyone just anyone But if anyone would find me out I couldn't bear, I wouldn't dare... So I play |
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| 8. |
| 10:01 |
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The time has come to contemplate
My dearest parasite You take me to a state of hate Where reason just don't apply This secret curse can't be my fate Or something I've deserved My mind is set to liberate Itself from you I look into your eye, I let go of my pride I confess to the lie, I look straight into your ... I am the one, one in my head I have no fears, I have no tears I am the one, one in my head I have no fears, I have no tears I banged my head against the wall Ran around in circles Scratched my itchy skin until I bled Crossed my bloody fingers Kneeled down and prayed Oh father are you in heaven What is in my defense I've committed sins, all seven Is there time to make amends Eight nine ten eleven Escalating fast Could I have changed the past or present And for how long will it last It's like I'm being cursed I just can't quench this thirst But now I'm ready to burst You know, I was in here first I am the one, one in my head I have no fears, I have no tears I am the one, one that you dread I have no fears, I have no tears |
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| 9. |
| 8:05 |
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I open up my eye and I, I open as my eye
I stare and let it read my mind, eye open as am I Scanning through that tangled maze I lose myself again Who am I whose eye defines the thoughts run through my head And soon I find there's no way out, my eye is my guide again Showing me around, these pathways so profound Shining like the sun, I pretend it's just for fun As he forces me to run again Asking would you like to be my friend Eye look into eye and I try to draw the line Fight that lie and hide my fright, keep it out of mind Far away I hear a voice that shouts and demands Syllables and letters forming words of command Closer now, then from inside, I think that I understand Showing you around, these pathways so profound Shining like the sun, I pretend it's just for fun As I force you with a gun - run, run Asking would you like to be my friend I look into your eye, I pretend it's all fine I keep living the lie, I look into your eye (This fragile surface may hold the weight of all that's locked inside But will it help you clean your slate, or do you just run and hide You can run...) This fragile surface white and blue if studied will reveal There's something in the depths below that I cannot conceal Through years and years of acting and the practice of my stare Has made it easy to escape if you didn't already know it was there This fragile mirror of the soul reflects both fake and real But before you see too much of me I'll turn or keep it sealed So I face the ground and hurry on, I run from how I feel To tell you 'bout my self-inflicted wounds that will never heal |
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