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| 1. |
| 4:20 | 
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Are you ready?
This place inside my mind, a place I like to hide, you don't know the chances, what if I should die? A place inside my brain, another kind of pain you don't know the chances, I'm so blind. Another place I'll find, escape to pain inside, you don't know the chances, what if I should die? A place inside my brain, another kind of pain. You don't know the chances, I'm so blind. Deeper and deeper and deeper is all I'm turning to living a life that seems to be, a lost reality, I can never find a way to reach my inner self esteem is low, how deep can I go in the ground that I lay if I don't find a way to sleep in the grave I crowd my mind this time I looked to see what's between the lines. I can see, I can see I'm going blind. I'm blind. |
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| 2. |
| 4:28 |
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There you are alone,
with no hope of ever having something to be proud of, something earned without begging. Yes, I know you're a person, a person close to me. Who do think you are? You know that you won't fool me. Ball Tongue. Why are you at home buried in your self-pity? Why do you insist on making a mockery out of me? Yes, I know you're the person, the person that took time with me. Does it give you the right to expect your life revolves around me? Ball Tongue. You were my problem (Where does our friendship end?) You were my problem (Where does our friendship end?) You were my problem (Where does our friendship end?) You were my problem (I'm not gonna give in) How can you fucking doubt me? But not again |
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| 3. |
| 4:01 |
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I, I am confused, fighting myself
Wanting to give in, needing your help Skin cold with fear, fear lives when we touch Outside I don't know you, but inside I'm fucked Can you see it in me, skin cold from touch Each turn confronted with what I have done You pull me closer, I push you away You tell me it's okay, I can't help but feel the pain I hate you Why are you taken? I love you I feel so helpless Why is it you? ripping my insides each time I'm with you why do I cry/try? why do I really need to? Why! Fuck you, bitch! need to . . . fuck . . . slut |
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| 4. |
| 4:36 |
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Life is within my body
four clicks . . . alright go four I just said, you faggot piece of shit on the ground ahh! four? four. four? Noooo! Oh, hey, what are you talking about Ross? hey Ton Ton Ern!...Ern!...Ern!... hey, are you saying so there's no clicks hey, we're recording, now start Just fucking do it damn it! I wanna get a twist I wish we could put twist on a fucking tape . . . stupid Wanna hear it? Fuck you! Fuck you! Huh Heuh Goooo! Okay . . . piece of shit! Anger inside builds within my body Why do you hate me? What have I done? You tried to hit me! The pain will begin, if you like Throw your hate at me with all your might Hit me 'cause I'm strange, hit me! You tell me I'm a pussy and you're harder than me What's with you boy? Think hard. A tattooed body to hide how you are Scared to be honest, be yourself A cowardly man! I don't run around trying to be what's not within me Look into my eyes, I am free You're just a wanna-be To come out Hit me clown because I'm not from your town, now hit me clown Clown you ain't shit. Turn around and get your face split. I'm just too fucking little! I'm just a fucking mental! |
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| 5. |
| 2:50 |
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I hide, only to defy you
Take away the only love inside you I see the face through everyone Inside I've just begun! You think I'm out to scare you I'm only out to prepare you for when you stop and turn around Your body's going down! You're gonna waste your time, Your life will soon be mine, You're definitely one of a kind, You're suffering 'cause of me it's divine Tell me why you never liked me Tell me why it's you fight me Pull down and wait for the perfect time to take what's rightfully mine You think they're dumb to defy me You said you don't want to defy me You wait, to dumb run anyone Oh well . . . You know what, Fuck you! I'm fed up with you! I'm not as good as you?! Fuck no! I'm better than you! Did you really think you'd beat me at my own game?! You try to see what you got Me ripping at your brain! |
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| 6. |
| 5:49 |
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Him!
Here I am different in this normal world Why did you tease me? Made me feel upset Walking stereotypes feeding their heads I am ugly. Please just go away Him! I can see inside you fine This blessing in disguise Him! Why you treat me this way? Made to hate to stay A cell locked, I can never seem to escape all the laughing, all the pain If you were me, what would you do? Nothing, probably. You'd just go on your way Faget! I'm just a pretty boy, whatever you call it You wouldn't know a real man if you saw it It keeps going on day after day, son you fake, if we don't want none I'm sick and tired of people treating me this way everyday Who gives a fuck?! Right now I got something to say to all the people that think I'm strange and I should be out of here locked up in a cage You don't know what the hell is up now anyway You got this pretty-boy feeling like I'm enslaved to a world that never appreciated shit YOU CAN SUCK MY DICK AND FUCKING LIKE IT!!! He had my gun but he had to find the money any say He might come, but he has a body mighty anyway He had my gun but he had to find the money don't wanna say He might come, but he has a body mighty anyway This part is rumored to just be reggie gibberish, from the mouth of Jonathan I'm just a pretty boy, I'm not supposed to fuck a girl I'm just a pretty boy, living in this fucked up world All my life, who am? I'm just a faget! Faget! I'm a faget! Faget! I'm not a faget! What am I? Faget! I'm not a fucking queer! |
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| 7. |
| 5:22 |
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Ring-a-round-the-rosies.
Pocket full of posies. Ashes, ashes, we all fall down. *Nursery rhymes are said, verses in my head. Into my childhood,they're spoon fed. Hidden violence revealed, darkness that seems real. Look at the pages that cause all this evil. One, two - buckle my shoe. Three, four - shut the door. Five, Six - pick up sticks. Seven, Eight - lay them straight London Bridge is falling down, falling down, falling down. London Bridge is falling down my fair lady. *Repeat Knick-knack paddywhack, give a dog a bone. This old man came rolling home. Mary had a little lamb, it's fleece was white as snow. (Baa Baa Black have you any wool? Yes sir, yes sir, three bags full) Ring-a-round-the-rosies. Pocket full of posies. Ashes, ashes, we all fall down. *Repeat Knick-knack paddywhack, give a dog a bone. |
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| 8. |
| 4:32 |
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Go!
I can, in every way Distinct the pain I feel inside It comes to me Evil thoughts is creeping through my mind Who are you to see that I can't speak what's on my mind? It runs away It's so predictable I can, in every way Illustrate this thing that's left inside Too blind to see, emptiness and sorrow of their lie You run away to the cover of their pointless ties You ask me? It's so predictable I'm gonna try -Should I? fuck! (while Jonathan is speaking) I'm gonna die I'm gonna try -Another day Silence overwhelms my mind -Who is to say If I have the time, oh why -Should I pray for all the hate to go away -Another day I can never break free You wait for me I call out to you Another day I'll live forever! |
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| 9. |
| 4:51 |
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I can't stand the sight of you
I can't stand what you put me through Your life's a lie, but you hide Is it that terrible being you inside? I can't stand all the thought of you I can't stand all the things you do What do you try to justify? You were just too scared to be you inside Let! It all go I look at you, all I see, is a man too afraid to really be I look at you, all I see, is a man too afraid to ever be I can't stand what you put me through I can't stand even the thought of you Your secret lies that you hide Is it that terrible being you inside? You try so hard to be wanted False emotions tells you fronted I think being a person relies on one thing: Be yourself, let you come through You're too afraid to really be Someone who has the thoughts who doesn't care to be Be yourself, let you come through! Fake! You'll regret it, you'll regret it |
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| 10. |
| 3:22 |
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I would like to search inside for all
of the things that you will hide What's the problem? Can't you seem to search through these problems that haunt and taunt you I smile, while you're afraid You run, while you're so in pain Do you ever see outside you fears Thinking about your life Thinking about your inner fears I would like to search inside for all of the things that you will hide What's the problem? Can't you seem to open your body and let me touch you I want you to see the life you have disguised The world of things that hurt you Kept all these useless lies I want you to fear the you wound up inside Once I took you in, I'll throw you out next time I tried, you win My life is ripping your heart out and destroying my pain! Go |
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| 11. |
| 4:03 |
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Ello, esta Caco et eres Caco
Well, you know, you fuck'n call me the Caco, okay? I keep asking, what's your lie? It is disturbing This isn't mine Why Days keep passing A lot at a time me? I don't feel right Please God let me sleep tonight Everyday confronted sick of friends giving in I just wanna know why! Don't give it up Don't get my stiff I keep asking Well, again, please try [...can we please try] It is haunting This takes my mind Why Days keep passing Line after line me? I don't feel right Please God don't let me die tonight, die tonight, die tonight, die tonight Please God Please God help me Please God free me Please God help me from my painful situation Please God help me Please God free me Please God save me from my painful situation Please God don't let me slip in tonight, please God Oh, please God don't let me chip in tonight, please God Oh, please God don't let me slip in tonight, don't let me die Please God don't let me give in tonight, don't let me die |
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| 12. |
| 9:35 |
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Mother, please forgive me.
I just had to get out all my pain and suffering. Now that I am done, remember I will always love youI'm your son. Little child, looking so pretty. Come out and play, I'll be your Daddy. Innocent child, looking so sweet. Rape your mind, and now your flesh I reap You raped. I feel dirty. It hurt. As a child. Tied down. That's a good boy. And fuck. Your own child. I scream. No-one hears me. It hurt. Not a lot. My God. Saw you watching. Mommy, why? Your own child. Little child, looking so pretty. Come out and play, I'll be your Daddy You raped. I feel dirty. It hurt. As a child. Tied down. That's a good boy. And fuck. Your own child. I scream. No-one hears me. It hurt. Not a lot. My God. Saw you watching. Mommy, why? It's alright "I didn't touch you there." Mommy said she didn't care. "I didn't touch you there." That's why momma stopped and stared. Innocent child, looking so sweet. Rape your mind, and now your flesh I reap. You raped. I feel dirty. It hurt. As a child. Tied down. That's a good boy. And fuck. Your own child. I scream. No-one hears me. It hurt. Not a lot. My God. Saw you watching. Mommy, why? |
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