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These symptoms suggested that our evolution, I suppose, from the
Animal kingdom Into the human kingdom itself was catalyzed, or triggered by our Encounter with These hallucinogenics, and Yes, we are an ape with a symbiotic relationship to a mushroom, And that has Given us self reflection, language, religion and all the Spectrum of effects That flow from these things. And one can only wonder how these hallucinogens might effect our Future Evolution as well They have brought us to this point, and as we make our Relationship to them Conscious, we may be able to take control of our future Evolutionary path. |
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| 2. |
| 2:42 |
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Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I am rearranging Dig bury me underneath Everything that I was slowly changing I would love to beat the face, Of any mother fucker that's thinkin' they can change me, White knuckles grip pushing through for the gold, If you're wantin' a piece of me I broke the mother fuckin' mold, Shit rubbed in my face Teething on concrete I'm drowning in your wake Gums bleeding Dig bury me underneath Everything that I am rearranging Dig bury me underneath Everything that I was slowly changing Sell out motherfuckers in the biz that try to fuck me, I struggle in violated space, I ain't sellin' my soul when there's nothing to buy Hang from their T's rated P.G. insight, I'm livid in my space Fuck you while you try Pissing in my face To fuck me Dig bury me underneath Dig bury me underneath Everything that I am rearranging Everything that I was you ain't fuckin' changing me Let me help you tie the rope around your neck, Let me help to talk you the wrong way off the ledge, Let me help you hold the Glock against your head Let me help to talk you the wrong way off the ledge, Let me help you tie the rope around your neck, Let me help to chain the weights onto your legs Let me help you hold the Glock against your head, Get on the plank fuck Dig bury me underneath Dig bury me underneath Everything that I am rearranging Everything that I was slowly changing Wish you were committing Limbless in the middle of a channel bob awaySuicide suckin' on a mother fuckin' tailpipe Dead man dangling from a tight rope |
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| 3. |
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Jump
Jump Jump Jump Jump Jump Cop provisions Feed my addictions Mistakes I made then I opened up the holes and they got in Now when it's time for the feed they won't let me forget They ride upon my back and they'll fuck me with their need My invisible enemies All my monkeys They're coming They're coming They're coming They're coming They're coming They're coming to take me away Haha Disgusted With my position So submissive I am The only way we get away is give in Sharpen up the razors Stab the needles into pipes To kill cravings So sick of this In me can't stand The want to need Can't get free Always got a grip on me There's no use to fight this wrenching tourniquet Of deprivation Obedience subservience Leads to substance Everything I've become now is everything I didn't want to be Give it to me Give it to me Leave my motivation to chemical dependency No room for patience Don't want it Need it Come on Right now Everything I've become now is everything I didn't want to be Every time I try to run away I fall on my face they drag me back They drag me back Every time I try to run away I fall on my face Help They won't leave me alone Help They won't leave me alone They won't leave me alone Yeah If I would have known back then what I know now I'd take it back I'd take it back If I would have known back then what I know now I'd take it back I'd take it back I'd take it all fuckin' back Stay away Stay away Hold Me I'm shaking violently Pull Me out of my covering Mold Me into a new man Lull Me into a deep sleep Stay away Stay away Hold Me I'm shaking violently Pull Me out of my covering Mold Me into a new man Lull Me into a deep sleep One Two There's no use to fight this wrenching tourniquet Of deprivation Obedience subservience Leads to substance Everything I've become now is everything I didn't want to be Even if you want you can't stop Even if you want you can't stop Even if you want you can't stop Even if you want you can't stop Internal Primates Forever Internal Primates Forever Internal Primates Forever Internal Primates Forever Internal Primates Forever Internal Primates Forever Internal Primates Forever Internal Primates Forever. |
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| 4. |
| 3:59 |
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Losses, losers and more, gain of life's pleasures cohorts listen behind the doors to a life meaningless less than 0 in me All my walls falling down pains aloft misery I'm sure that the lessons were learned I'm sure that the punishments went well deserved by the pawn in the plan Taste of shit bitterness walk from me everything systematically Come on you were the one, you were the one To dredge up shit inside of me In my pointless life of nothing Tell me what I'm supposed to be Tell me who I'm supposed to be Tell me what it takes to ascend Tell me what it takes to live Patience, pleasures and rewards, come in due time Stare at the sun I'm bored in a life meaningless Soaking up all of me like the cross you worship life is loss look at me I'm sure that some day we'll wake up I'm sure that some day we'll wake from the dream Of success and focus...tunneling to the light glowing Deep inside of me your taunting I wake up Come on you were the one you were the one To dredge up shit inside of me in my pointless life of nothing Tell me what I'm supposed to be Tell me who I'm supposed to be Tell me what it takes to ascend Tell me what it takes to live Tell me NOW! Tell me NOW! Pain, misery, distress, dismal, know where, depressed, idiot, failer In me...calling...loser...man I'm the... Loser...loser...loser In me...who I am...in me... Don't feel sorry don't feel sorry for me Don't need your sympathy or empathy Don't need your sympathy inside of me Don't need your sympathy or empathy Don't need your sympathy inside of me Don't feel sorry don't feel sorry for me Come on I know you were the one you were the one Numb to feelings inside of me why I've seized my vision Don't need you to tell me who to be Don't need you to tell me what to be Don't need you to tell me how to ascend Don't need you to tell me how to live |
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| 5. |
| 4:52 |
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Cold seems crippling
Lame meander through corridors Aroma's thick with age Mark off the day Reflections of my life are fading Pull me out your body Don't want it, don't want in Feeble frail and rotting Descending I'm lost in A structure that's collapsing Don't want it Cast into Maker take the body Don't want it It wants me Past has found it's place Salvation is no more Will God accept my peace Bleached will pardon me Reflections of my life are fading Pull me out your body Don't want it, don't want in, Feeble frail and rotting descending I'm lost in A structure that's collapsing Don't want it Cast into, Maker take the body Don't want it It wants me I just want to run around Fly kites Wrestle Jump and play Swim through waves that crash To shore Memories in me Cocooned in misery I'm sick... And tired... Of embracing reflections of past time Receive me or cast me away God please take me away Resistance... Futile... Suicidal ideas I will crucify my own being Satisfy selfish needs, fuck the deities Justify my own right to what's waiting for me On the other side of me The time has come Lock and load I'm coming I'm coming I'm coming I'm coming home Pull me out of the body Don't want it, don't want in, Pull me out of the body Don't want it, don't want in, Pull me out your body Don't want it, don't want in, Feeble frail and rotting Descending I'm lost in A structure that's collapsing Descending Don't want it, Maker take the body Don't want it, don't want in, Pull me out your body Don't want it, don't want in, Feeble frail and rotting Descending I'm lost in, A structure that's collapsing Descending Don't want it Maker take the body Don't want it It wants me I just want to run around Fly kites Wrestle Jump and play Swim through waves that crash To shore Memories in me Cocooned in misery The darkness overcomes Soul soars to the other plain Existence past The door I sail Through purgatory's bay I asked a god for poison cradle me Sown to my dreams Souls searching Death blossoms where clouds lie over me Held in God's hands Death blooming... Dark for fear of failure, An inner gloom as wide as an eye and fermenting, Roiling hate... Death gripped my veins, Unveiling rancid petals, Flowering forth foul nectar, The space between a blink and a tear... Death blooms. |
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| 6. |
| 0:54 |
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Ooms... (dings of bells and dna) and the beginng of cradle
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| 7. |
| 5:15 |
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Breathe
Breathe Breathe Breathe Push Push Push Push I lost you You were my God Thought what do I do now You were never there for me Never there to carry me 26 years looking back that time is gone It was you I believed in Look what you've done to me Realize what you've done to Me Oh, God please Oh, God please I wanna breathe Before my life just walks away from me I can't see going on In this darkness I'm blind Beneath my cradle, the bough has broke I exorcise my loss Your lies Punishment It takes time To try to mend the wounds of all the suffering What do I do now? And, all I'm asking from you please Send me a sign To guide me through the times that lie in front of me I'll get by Myself Look at me now, piece of shit like you Look at me now, you left me, so fuck you Look at me now, a piece of shit like you Look at me now, you left me, so fuck you 'Cause everybody leaves me Everybody's gone Watch my father leave me There's nobody left Feels like I've never been loved Everybody leaves me Never gave a shit about me Everybody's gone I'll rot in my head alone I don't give a fuck about you, go the fuck away I don't give a fuck about you, go the fuck away I don't give a fuck about you, go the fuck away I don't give a fuck about you, go the fuck away (I'll rot in my head all alone) Fucking cocksucker Me Fake being Inside of my heart you are the liar Innocence displaced Institutionalized in my own life Been left Here I stand now and I'm alone With no one to comfort me One set of footprints in the sand No one to take my hand, I'll I'll walk through as long as I need I'll drift through my life though I'm alone Outgrown the cradle that once housed me And I've found that all I need is Me Me Me Me Found I've never needed you To push through All the shit that stacks up Inside of my life Endless plight that circulates through my body I'll keep stumbling Beating Pummeling Teething on the rind and Renounce my being I can't see going on I can't see going on I can't see going on I can't see going on I can't see I'm to tired I can't see Well, I can't see going on I'm so tired Of trying to mend the wounds of all my suffering What do I do now And, all I'm asking from you please Send me a sign To guide me through the times that lie in front of me I'll get by Myself I can't see going on, fuck it I can't see going on, fuck it I can't see going on, fuck it I can't see going on, fuck it |
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| 8. |
| 5:29 |
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Cold and silent
Soiled face I will wash it all away With my love That's all she's ever needed From me It's my time To mother One of my own In my life I am so alone Left with no one In my life I'm so alone Life submissiveness Hypnotizing the ignorant A little boy's best friend's always his mother At least that's what she said Life Of a simple man Taught that everyone else is dirty And their love is meaningless I'm just a soiled dirty boy I'm just a soiled dirty boy Sheltered life Innocence Insulated memories Spark reflections of my head Duality in my consciousness Caught in the war of hemispheres Between the love lost in my head Mommy do you still live inside of me? I'm so lost in my life without any guiding Protected me my whole life from everything Nailed shut the doors to the shrine To screen your dead eyes from me and my sickness Mutilate and sew my new clothes for masquerading Aprons of flesh corpse scalped hair with skin upon my face Deliver the remains from her womb of Earth Prep the rack and tie up for new love's rebirth Covert understanding of novice surgery I'll focus concentration and only take Just what I need For sickness, I'm masticating Dancing and masturbating Celebrate in fields of night with skin upon my face Life submissiveness Hypnotizing the ignorant A little boy's best friend's always his mother At least that's what she said Life Of a simple man Taught that everyone else is dirty And their love is meaningless Life submissiveness Hypnotizing the ignorant A little boy's best friend's always his mother At least that's what she said Life Of a simple man Taught that everyone else is dirty And their love is meaningless I'm so soiled If I soak my hands in others blood Am I sick? If I wash my hands in others blood Am I sick? If I drench myself in others blood Am I sick? If I bathe myself in others blood For the sickness Mutilate and sew my new clothes for masquerading Aprons of flesh corpse scalped hair with skin upon my face Dance and masturbate in night light by myself Nothing Is left for me to gain They're coming to take me far away Nothing Is left for me to gain They're coming to take me far away Nothing Is left for me to gain They're coming to take me far away Nothing Is left for me to gain They're coming to take me far away Life submissiveness Hypnotizing the ignorant A little boy's best friend's always his mother At least that's what she said Life Of a simple man Taught that everyone else is dirty And their love is meaningless Life submissiveness Hypnotizing the ignorant A little boy's best friend's always his mother At least that's what she said Life Of a simple man Taught that everyone else is dirty And their love is meaningless I'm so soiled Life Of a simple man Taught that everyone else is dirty And their love is meaningless I'm so soiled Life Of a simple man Taught that everyone else is dirty And their love is meaningless I'm so soiled Soiled, Soiled, Soiled, Soiled, Soiled Soiled, Soiled, Soiled, Soiled, Soiled Soiled, Soiled, Soiled, Soiled, Soiled Soiled, Soiled. |
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| 1:44 |
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Soiled, soiled, soiled
Soiled, soiled, soiled Soiled, soiled Of ordinary, chemistry There is a suggestion there, that uh, manipulation of no Humal, compounds, brain-neuro transmitters And that sort of thing May in fact, open the door, to uh, untapped areas of Human contortion Lead us to our team |
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| 10. |
| 3:15 |
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We swallow the spit
Steal acceptance lend denial Telling me that my life is free and boundless Then I'm forced to stay between the lines They construct death to demolish life We plant the seeds to harvest loss Found empty truth is full of lies Lies lies lies We're hoping for despair Starvation's gluttony Subtle chaotic peace War divided unity Pro-life pro-choice blinded insight left wing right wing back white leaders following I am everything I am nothing I am everything I am nothing I am everything I am nothing I am everything I am nothing I Am Everything I am nothing I Am Everything I am nothing Stop fucking with me I'm the answer I'm not the enemy You're so confused No way you could enlighten me No freedom trapped in slavery Deceitful honesty muthafucking human not a machine Stop fucking with me I'm the answer I'm not the enemy You're so confused No way you could enlighten me No freedom trapped in slavery Deceitful honesty muthafucking human not a machine Lay your hands upon me In search of answers inviting Constant struggle inside me Guide me through this nothing that's everything It's all right to be afraid But sometimes that's what it takes for us to change, No power before the blacks and grays that shade our fate, They shape our lives in constrictive space, And hope prays we'll count the days, Then we play our life like it's some kind of fucking game, Point your finger at them and we'll be the ones to assert the blame, So sorry you'll be the one to absorb the tears, your fears, the loss is stacked up like you carried bricks for years, Once again you put your life on the line against the fate of time, Praying for the end of time … Praying for the end of time … Praying for the end of time … I am everything I am nothing I am everything I am nothing I am everything I am nothing I am everything I am nothing I Am Everything I am nothing I Am Everything I am nothing Stop fucking with me, I'm the answer I'm not the enemy You're so confused No way you could enlighten me, No freedom trapped in slavery, Deceitful honesty muthafucking human not a machine Stop fucking with me, I'm the answer I'm not the enemy You're so confused No way you could enlighten me, No freedom trapped in slavery, Deceitful honesty muthafucking human not a machine. |
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And we hide behind
Lies, Anger, Hate They shoo love away Build shells of ourselves outside It shelters body from cold reigns of reality Come on Step out Of your rind Assemble strength Focus Release And run to me You can never look back To the visions from my past They fade And wilt in time You've got to just trust me to hold your hand, through, Then I turn and walk away Eclipse you all Bleed you, cut you away Bleed you And strip you Of your states of Ain Soph Aur Eclipse you all Bleed you, cut you away I spit upon my plate And I push everything away From me And we sever all ties It creates disruption midst circle of friends I become the sacrifice Spare your life and leave me to my misery Get off the cross And save yourself Run away You'll be okay Run Now get away from me If I can get my grip I'll pull you down into the hell I call my head You'll never get away I sit down In my ugly place and build walls Of fragments from my past of all the people that I needed And loved That turned and walked away You've got to just trust me to hold your hand, through Then I'll turn and walk away I walk under the clouds of gray Sphere of storms in my head I'm trapped again in endless rain I divorce the thoughts of you in love with me I divorce your innocence and my guilt I divorce the lying sellout confidence I'm divorcing every muthafuckin' thing! I divorce the love bled meaningless! I divorce the makeshift harmony! I divorce the taunting acts of violence! I divorce the pastime of jealousy! I divorce control! I divorce the faith! I divorce the virtue! I divorce the rain! I divorce the excuse! I divorce the greed! I divorce the greed! I divorce iniquity! In this muthafuckin' bullshit life! Just want it all to go away! Just want to run away to die! Take it! Myself! My life! Text book fuckin' mental! Off me & pitch me in a hole! In this muthafuckin' bullshit! Life! In this fuckin' bullshit! Life! I'll always be your shadow And veil your eyes from states of Ain Soph Aur I can't be the hero Anymore I spit up on my plate And then I turn and walk away I spit up on my plate And I disrupt the family I spit up on my plate As I sever the entity And I feel your warm sun On my face Separate Separate Separate Separate Eclipse you all Bleed you, cut you away Bleed you And strip you Of your states of Ain Soph Aur Eclipse you all Bleed you, cut you away I spit upon my plate And I push everything away From me Eclipse you all Bleed you, cut you away Bleed you And strip you Of your states of Ain Soph Aur I hate you Bleed you, cut you away It's always been this way And I push everything away From me Eclipse you all Bleed you, cut you away Bleed you And strip you Of your states of Ain Soph Aur. |
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| 13. |
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Emotions inside us troubling
The hatred inside us escalating The sickness inside us keeps us weak The masses inside of us suffering they are bleeding The calling inside us sick with greed The voices calling to us deafening we're not listening Cannot receive the obvious Line up cattle and cut the necks Swat at the flies omit disgust The leaders inside us posturing The pollution inside of us suffocating me The science inside us menacing The will that's inside of us it's dyingend is coming Cannot receive the obvious Line up cattle and cut the necks Drain us of life and cleanse the mess Wash me off inside, wash me off inside We're killing ourselves Goddamn we fucked up the circumstance To late to save us from ourselves Callous minds against trust and confidence To late to give a damn now To late to save us from ourselves To late to make it all go away To late to beg pardons from the mother To late to give a damn Now we'll sit and wait Wait wait for the coming. of the end Wait for the coming the killing the ending the plight of man Deserving no mercy expelling by gods hand It's okay the ending it's over no more pain Emotion the hatred the sickness the calling |
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| 14. |
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does your god come in a capsule,
to sedate you tear the walls down, headless prison cannibals chew, to consume you bring the alien, halcium and morphine, 5-methoxy-n, n-dimethyltryptamine, brushite, darvaset, valium, caffeine, cannabis, and lsd, ayahuasca, harmine give it all to me i want it psilocybin, mescaline, aspirin, histomine, these are just a few of my favorite things x 2 trisolam and zanex, serotonin, mdma, ibogaine, dopeamine, tetra-hydro-chloride, atenolol, amanita muscaria, boric oxide, arrabinitol, psilocin, and flamizine, give it all to me i want it cylotec and harmaline does your god come in a capsule to sedate you, tear the walls down, headless prison, cannibals chew to consume you, bring the alien you can't kill me, inside my hole, i'm already dead inside my head, it's all about escaping, numb to me, we just beg for any way to be sedated, numb body from this hell, i can feel them holding, i can feel them moving, i can feel them pushing, i can feel them pulling i can feel them prying, i can feel them prodding, i can feel them living, i can feel it, i can feel them stabbing, i can feel them scoping, i can feel them breathing, i can feel them digging consume, take in, plunging, plumbing, instruments prying, aliens inside me, tooling the machine, intoxicating, feel it unfolding, riddles in me it's all about escaping, we just beg for any way to get away who do you bow down to, does your god come in a capsule or on a plate they're trying to sedate you, swallow self and bring on the alien i'm already dead to this world you tried to kill me, i'm already dead to this world |
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Nailed inside my head,
Fuck this I don't need your shit, All the lies deceit and arrogance, Talk your shit like my life is some kinda game, Like you fuckin' know me, Just go far away and be small, Run far away and be small, Go lie in a hole and be small, Thorns, splinters, pushing, Under my skin, They want in, If you really think you got what it takes to be me, Sharpened tongue to penetrate me, Then walk a mile in the skin of my head case mental being, So you want a piece of this life that belongs to me, Well make a cut on the line and take a deeper look inside of the freak, That is me, fucker, come on, To get in lance the core to penetrate me, Disturb, search me, prying up all my scales So you want inside of me, So you want a piece of this, So you want to tear me down, for your own selfish wants and needs To get in, lance the core to penetrate me, So you want inside of me Disturb, search me, prying, up all my scales, So you want a piece of me, So you want to drag me down, For your own selfish wants and needs You were there like a punk, Just to get in my face, Wanted in me wanted to be Till I gave you a taste Frontin' stress I'm superman motherfucker Don't need your goddamn pressure Without the "s" on my chest Hurricane fist full of Novocain for the pain Trying to step in my circle I'm leaving you purple and black On your back drop your ass like a heart attack Rippin' through your life like a motherfuckin' You're nothing in my life in my head You're nothing in my life in my land Nailed inside my head You're under my fuckin' skin! I have cleansed my life now of the people who pry Always in my scene always in my sight, And threaten place always in my face I think it's time for them to Go away always in my fuckin' space, You're dead to me punk ass fuck . Always in my way There's nothing left |
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| 16. |
| 7:06 |
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| 2:59 |
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I am the sin of man
I ..... so just let me out I'll be back again I see through the cracks To pollute the soil in which you stand I contaminate what you grow To be inside of you again Fertilizing your seed I've got a riddle for you I'f you're wise, you'll listen to me Listen to me Listen to me Again... |
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