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1. |
| 3:51 | ||||
I admit it. What's to say?
I'll relive it without pain. Back street lover on the side of the road. I got a bomb in my temple that is gonna explode. I got a sixteen gauge buried under my clothes. I play. Once upon a time I could control myself. Once upon a time I could lose myself. Oh, try and mimic what's insane. I am in it, where do I stand? Indian summer and I hate the heat. I got a back street lover on the passenger seat. I got my hand in my pocket, so determined, discreet. I pray. Once upon a time I could control myself. Once upon a time I could lose myself. You think I got my eyes closed but I've been looking at you the whole fucking time. Once upon a time I could control myself. Once upon a time I could lose myself. Once upon a time I could love myself. Once upon a time I could love you. |
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2. |
| 4:53 | ||||
Freezing. Rests his head on a pillow made of concrete.Again
Feeling maybe he'll see a little better set a days hand out faces that he sees time again ain't that familiar dark grin. He can't help when his happy looks insane Even flow. Thoughts arrive like butterflies He don't know so he chases them away-yeah someday yet he'll begin his life again Kneeling. Looking through the paper though he doesn't know to read praying now to something that has never showed him anything Feeling understands the weather of the winters on its way Ceilings few and far between all the legal halls of shame Even flow. Thoughts arrive like butterflies He don't know so he chases them away Someday yet he'll begin his life again Whispering hands gently lead him away Fuck your money Even flow. Thoughts arrive like butterflies He don't know so he chases them away A-someday yet he'll begin his life again Whispering hands gently lead him away |
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3. |
| 5:41 | ||||
Son, she said, "Have I got a little story for you.
What you thought was your daddy was nothing but a... While you were sitting home alone at age thirteen your real daddy was dying. Sorry you didn't see him but I'm glad we talked." I'm still alive. she walks slowly across a young man's room. She said, "I'm ready for you." Why I can't remember anything to this very day? 'Cept the look. The look. Oh, you know where. Now I can't see I just stare. I'm still alive. Is something wrong? She said. Of course there is. You're still alive. She said. Oh, and do I deserve to be? Is that the question? And if so, if so, who answers? Who answers! I'm still alive. |
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4. |
| 3:20 | ||||
She scratches a letter into a wall made of stone
Maybe someday another child won't feel as alone as she does It's been two years and counting since they put her in this place She's been diagnosed by some stupid fuck and mommy agrees Why go home? She seems to be stronger but what they want her to be is weak She could play pretend She could join the game, boy She could be another clone Why go home? What you taught me put me here. Don't come visit. Mother, sing me Why go home? What you taught me put me here. Don't come visit. Mother, mother Why go home? |
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5. |
| 5:44 | ||||
Sheets of empty canvas
Untouched sheets of clay were laid spread out before me as her body once did All five horizons revolved around her soul As the earth to the sun Now the air I tasted and breathed has taken a turn And all I taught her was everything I know she gave me all that she wore And now my bitter hands shade beneath the clouds of what was everything All the pictures have all been washed in black Tattooed every day I take a walk outside I'm surrounded by some kids at play I can feel their laughter so why do I sear? And twisted thoughts that spin around my head I'm spinning.I'm spinning How quick the sun can drop away And now my bitter hands cradle broken glass of what was everything All the pictures have all been washed in black Tattooed everything All the love gone bad turned my world to black Tattooed all I see All that I am. All I'll be I know someday you'll have a beautiful life I know you'll be a star in somebody else's sky but why, why, why can't it be, oh, can't it be mine? |
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6. |
| 5:19 | ||||
At home drawing pictures of mountain tops with him on top
Lemon yellow sun Arms raised in a V And the dead lay in pools of maroon below Daddy didn't give attention, oh, to the fact that mommy didn't care King Jeremy the wicked, oh, ruled his world Jeremy spoke in class today Clearly how I remember picking on the boy Seemed a harmless little fuck Ooh, but we unleashed a lion Gnashed his teeth and bit the recess lady's breast How could I forget. And he hit me with a surprise left My jaw left hurting. Ooh, dropped wide open Just like the day, Oh, like the day I heard Daddy didn't give affection, no, and the boy was something mommy wouldn't wear King Jeremy the wicked, oh, ruled his world Jeremy spoke in class today Try to forget this Try to erase this From the blackboard Jeremy spoke in class today |
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7. |
| 2:42 | ||||
Hold on to the thread
The currents will shift glide me towards know something's left And we're all allowed to dream of the next of the next time we touch. Oooh You don't have to stray the oceans away Waves roll in my thoughts Hold tight the ring The sea will rise please stand by the shore Oh. Oh. Oh I will be I will be there once more. Oooh |
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8. |
| 3:30 | ||||
What the fuck is this world
running to? You didn't leave a message at least I coulda' learned your voice one last time Daily minefield this could be my time by you Would you hit me? All the bills go by and initiatives are taken up By the middle. There ain't gonna be any middle any more And the cross I'm bearing home ain't indicative of my place Left the porch Hear my name. Take a good look This could be the day Hold my hand. Walk beside me I just need to say Hear my name. Take a good look This could be the day Hold my hand. Lie beside me I just need to say I could not take a-just one day I know when I would not ever touch you, hold you, feel you in my arms Never again. Yeah |
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9. |
| 4:59 | ||||
She don't wander in here
Don't wander in here She, she don't wander in here Don't wander in here The direction of the eye So misleading The defection of the soul Nauseously quick I don't question our existence I just question our modern needs She don't wander in here Don't wander in here She, she don't wander in here I will walk with my hands bound I will walk with my face blood I will walk with my shadow flag into your garden Garden of stone After all is done and we're still alone I won't be taken I'll go with my hands bound I will walk with my face blood I will walk with my shadow flag into your garden Garden of stone I don't show I don't share I don't need what you have to give I will walk with my hands bound I will walk with my face blood I will walk with my shadow flag into your garden, garden I will walk with my hands bound I will walk into your garden Garden of stone I don't know I don't care I don't need for me to live |
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10. |
| 4:18 | ||||
Ahha-yea. On the edge a windowsill.
Ponders his maker ponders his will. To the street below he just ain't nothing. But he's got a great view and he sinks the needle deep. Can't touch the bottom. In too deep Can't touch the bottom. Ooh, on the edge of a know-nothing town. Feeling quite superior the age had come. To the sky above he just ain't nothing. But he's got a great view and he sinks the burning mask deep. Can't touch the bottom. In too deep Can't touch the bottom. In too deep On the edge of a Christmas clean love. Young virgin down from heaven, visiting hell. To the man above her she just ain't nothing. And she doesn't like the view. She doesn't like the view. But he sinks himself deep. Can't touch the bottom. In too deep Can't touch the bottom. Can't touch the bottom. Deep the bottom |
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11. |
| 9:06 | ||||
I see the world
Feel the chill Which way to go? Windowsill I see the words on a rocking horse of time I see the verse in the rain Oh, dear dad can you see me now? I am myself like you somehow I'll ride the wave where it takes me I'll hold the pain Release me Oh, dear dad can you see me now? I am myself like you somehow I'll wait up in the dark for you to speak to me How I've opened up Release me Release me Release me dad Release me |
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12. |
| 3:49 | ||||
Disc 2 | ||||||
1. |
| 3:52 | ||||
I admit it what's to say
I'll relive it without pain Backstreet lover on the side of the road I got a bomb in my temple that is gonna explode I got a sixteen gauge buried under my clothes I pray Once upon a time I could control myself Ooh once upon a time I could lose myself yeah Oh try and mimic what's insane I am in it where do I stand Indian summer and I hate the heat I got a backstreet lover on the passenger seat I got my hand in my pocket so determined discreet I pray Once upon a time I could control myself Ooh once upon a time I could lose myself yeah yeah You think I got my eyes closed But I'm lookin at you the whole fuckin time Ooh once upon a time I could control myself yeah Once upon a time I could lose myself yeah yeah yeah Once upon a time I could love myself yeah Once upon a time I could love you yeah yeah yeah Once once once once Yeah once once yeah yeah Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah oww |
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2. |
| 4:53 | ||||
Yeah
Freezing rests his head on a pillow made of concrete again Oh Feeling maybe he'll see a little better set a days ah yeah Oh hand out faces that he sees time again ain't that familiar ooh Oh dark grin he can't help when he's happy looks insane yeah Even flow thoughts arrive like butterflies yeah Oh he don't know so he chases them away Oohh Ah someday yet he'll begin his life again Life again life again Kneeling looking through the paper though he doesn't know to read aah yeah Oh praying now to something that has never showed him anything nothin' Oh feeling understands the weather of the winters on its way yea oh Oh ceilings few and far between all the legal halls of shame yeah Even flow thoughts arrive like butterflies yeah Oh he don't know, so he chases them away ooh Oh someday yet he'll begin his life again yeah Oh whispering hands gently lead him away Lead him away him away yea yea Yeah Woo ah-huh yea yea yea fuck it up man Even flow thoughts arrive like butterflies yeah ooh Oh he don't know so he chases them away ooh Ohh someday yet he'll begin his life again yeah Oh whispering hands gently lead him away Lead him away him away way way Yeah Woo uh huh yeah yeah we fuck it up again Ha Wooo |
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3. |
| 5:41 | ||||
Son she said have I got a
little story for you What you thought was your daddy was nothin' but a While you were sittin' home alone at age thirteen Your real daddy was dyin' sorry you didn't see him but I'm glad we talked Oh I oh I'm still alive Hey I I oh I'm still alive Hey I oh I'm still alive Heyoh Oh she walks slowly across a young man's room She said I'm readyfor you I can't remember anything to this very day 'Cept the look the look Oh you know where now I can't see I just stare I I'm still alive Hey I but I'm still alive Hey I boy I'm still alive Hey I I I I'm still alive yeah Is something wrong she said Well of course there is You're still alive she said Oh and do I deserve to be Is that the question And if soif sowho answerswho answers I oh I'm still alive Hey I oh I'm still alive Hey I but I'm still alive Yeah I ooh I'm still alive |
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4. |
| 3:19 | ||||
She scratches a letter into a wall made of stone
Maybe someday another child Won't feel as alone as she does It's been two years and counting Since they put her in this place She's been diagnosed by some stupid fuck And mommy agrees yeah Whoa yeah hey yeah Why go home (x3) She seems to be stronger But what they want her to be is weak She could play pretend she could join the game boy She could be another clone Ooh whoa ah yeah Ooh Why go home (x4) What you taught me put me here Don't come visit mother Sing it Why go home (x4) What you taught me put me here Don't come visit mother mother yeah Why go home (x7) Whoa |
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5. |
| 5:39 | ||||
Hey...oooh... Sheets of empty canvas, untouched sheets of clay Her lace spread out before me, as her body once did All five horizons revolved around her soul As the earth to the sun Now the air I tasted and breathed has taken a turn Ooh, and all I taught her was everything Ooh, I know she gave me all that she wore And now my bitter hands chafe beneath the clouds Of what was everything? Oh, the pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything... I take a walk outside I'm surrounded by some kids at play I can feel their laughter, so why do I sear Oh, and twisted thoughts that spin round my head I'm spinning, oh, I'm spinning How quick the sun can, drop away And now my bitter hands cradle broken glass Of what was everything? All the pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything... All the love gone bad turned my world to black Tattooed all I see, all that I am, all I'll ever be...yeah... Uh huh...uh huh...ooh... I know someday you'll have a beautiful life, I know you'll be a star In somebody else's sky, but why Why, why can't it be, why can't it be mine |
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6. |
| 5:16 | ||||
At home drawing pictures of mountain tops with him on top.
Lemon yellow sun. Arms raised in a V. And the dead lay in pools of maroon below. Daddy didn't give attention, oh, to the fact that mommy didn't care. King Jeremy the wicked, oh, ruled his world. |
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7. |
| 2:42 | ||||
Hold on to the thread The currents will shift Glide me towards... You know something's left And we're all allowed To dream of the next Oh, ohh the next, time we touch... Oooh... You don't have to stray Tho oceans away Waves roll in my thoughts Hol |
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8. |
| 3:30 | ||||
What the fuck is this world running to?
You didn't leave a message at least I coulda' learned your voice one last time. Daily minefield this could be my time by you. Would you hit me? Ohh. Whoa oww. All the bills go by and initiatives are taken up. |
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9. |
| 4:58 | ||||
She dOn't wander in here. Don't wander in here. She, she don't wander in here. Don't wander in here.
The direction of the eye. So misleading. The defection of the soul. Nauseously quick. I don't question our existence. I just question our modern needs. |
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10. |
| 4:18 | ||||
On the edge, windowsill Ponders his maker, ponders his will To the street below, he just ain't nothin' But he's got a great view, and he sinks the needle deep, yeah... Whoa, can't touch the bottom In too deep, yeah...oh, can't touch the bottom Oh, on th |
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11. |
| 8:58 | ||||
Father...ooh...oh...oh... I see the world, feel the chill Which way to go, windowsill I see the world's on a rocking horse of time I see the verse in the rain Ohh...ohh...ohh...ohh... Oh, dear dad, can you see me now I am myself, like you somehow I'll r |
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12. |
| 4:00 | ||||
You should be happy
with what you got... You should be hard to be a brother... You should be happy with what we give you... Hand over my face. I am related to my enemy. My house on fire, And my big brother come put the blame on me. He's a-pushin'...I'm being pushed from above. Oh, and a brother, back to back to back, Better back off of him. You should not questioh at all his authority... Use a flag as a bandage. Stick 'em up, show us your pocket hypocrisy. In the closet, my pleasures 'Cause my big brother don't want to just let me be. Oh, and I'm pushin'...oh if I could get above... Oh, and a brother back to back back, Keep your back off. Oh, and I'm pushin'...I'm being pushed from above. Oh, and a brother, back to back to back, Better back off of him... Face down...brother... Face down... [3X] In my mind there's a clearing. Black clouds flow through grey still skies. And the birds don't even whisper. I'm flying out...I'm flying... Back to back back, better back off... Back to back to back, a better, better, better... Back to back to back, back to back back... brother... Face down...brother... Face down... Face down...brother... Face down...almost...fired... Face down...I got a gun... Face down... I got a gun...I got a gun... Face down...I got a gun... Face down... Aah, fuck it, I'm just gonna go home, turn on the fuckin' TV... Watch the nightly news and drink a beer... Like I could even change the world, yeah right... |
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13. |
| 5:01 | ||||
Thieves in the window
Trouble down the hall The resin white ceiling Blood, dripping, flows Out on the front line Preachers sweep the earth Out on their backsides With nothing in common, with no problem She's just a girl... Just...just a girl, yeah... Just one time around She has little chance to make good Distance of her lie Decided in the woods Burning fires She's led to police This maid in progress Betrayin' your mother's need for a shelter Oh, just a girl Just...just a girl Just one time around She had little chance to make good Treats them now, she's young But it can be taken away Just one time around...can be taken away We all make mistakes Hush my baby...don't you cry... You're my little alibi Oh baby, please...I need some sleep Hmm, now be taking You with me Just a girl (5x) Just a kid, yeah... |
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14. |
| 5:59 | ||||
Oh, tonight began with anything... Candlelight, a warm breath and a scream. Oh, tamper if you like between the doors. Oh, can't expect to go out...to go out... With anything...anything more... Oh, reach the door...a breath and a scr...oh, reach the door.... Life ain't what it's worth...a breath and a scr...oh, reach the door... All these reaching hands out grabbin' things, grabbin' me... Day in, day out, accumulating... I suggest you step out on your porch. Run away my son, to see it all...oh, see the world. Oh, reach the door...a breath and a scr...oh, reach the door... Life ain't what it's worth...a breath and a scr...oh, reach the door... Come...here it comes...there it goes...when it comes... Where it goes...where it comes...can't see through the faith... Come...here it comes...there it goes, grasp what you can... Don't you know there's something inside your hand... If I knew where it was I would take you there... There's much more than this...much more than this. Oh, see the world...much more than... Much more than...Why? |
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15. |
| 4:48 | ||||
State of love and trust
as I busted down the pretext. Sin still plays and preaches, but to have an empty court And the signs are passin', grip the wheel, can't read it. Sacrifice receiving the smell that's on my hands. And I listen for the voice inside my head nothin'. I'll do this one myself. Lay her down as priest does. Should the Lord be countin'? Will be in my honor. Make it pain, painfully quick Promises are whispered in the age of darkness. Want to be enlightened like I want to be told the end. And the barrel shakes and directly at my head. Oh, help me, help me from myself. And I listen from both sides of a friend nothin'. I'll do this one myself. myself, myself Hey, na, na, na, na, hey, that's something Wanna back, back it away And I listen for the voice inside my head nothin'. I'll do this one myself. And the barrel waits, trigger shakes, aimed right at my head. Won't you help me? Help me from myself State of love and trust And a state of love and trust State of love and |
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| 1:30 | ||||
17. |
| 3:58 | ||||