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1. |
| 3:51 | ||||
I admit it. What's to say?
I'll relive it without pain. Back street lover on the side of the road. I got a bomb in my temple that is gonna explode. I got a sixteen gauge buried under my clothes. I play. Once upon a time I could control myself. Once upon a time I could lose myself. Oh, try and mimic what's insane. I am in it, where do I stand? Indian summer and I hate the heat. I got a back street lover on the passenger seat. I got my hand in my pocket, so determined, discreet. I pray. Once upon a time I could control myself. Once upon a time I could lose myself. You think I got my eyes closed but I've been looking at you the whole fucking time. Once upon a time I could control myself. Once upon a time I could lose myself. Once upon a time I could love myself. Once upon a time I could love you. |
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2. |
| 4:53 | ||||
Freezing. Rests his head on a pillow made of concrete.Again
Feeling maybe he'll see a little better set a days hand out faces that he sees time again ain't that familiar dark grin. He can't help when his happy looks insane Even flow. Thoughts arrive like butterflies He don't know so he chases them away-yeah someday yet he'll begin his life again Kneeling. Looking through the paper though he doesn't know to read praying now to something that has never showed him anything Feeling understands the weather of the winters on its way Ceilings few and far between all the legal halls of shame Even flow. Thoughts arrive like butterflies He don't know so he chases them away Someday yet he'll begin his life again Whispering hands gently lead him away Fuck your money Even flow. Thoughts arrive like butterflies He don't know so he chases them away A-someday yet he'll begin his life again Whispering hands gently lead him away |
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3. |
| 5:41 | ||||
Son, she said, "Have I got a little story for you.
What you thought was your daddy was nothing but a... While you were sitting home alone at age thirteen your real daddy was dying. Sorry you didn't see him but I'm glad we talked." I'm still alive. she walks slowly across a young man's room. She said, "I'm ready for you." Why I can't remember anything to this very day? 'Cept the look. The look. Oh, you know where. Now I can't see I just stare. I'm still alive. Is something wrong? She said. Of course there is. You're still alive. She said. Oh, and do I deserve to be? Is that the question? And if so, if so, who answers? Who answers! I'm still alive. |
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4. |
| 3:20 | ||||
She scratches a letter into a wall made of stone
Maybe someday another child won't feel as alone as she does It's been two years and counting since they put her in this place She's been diagnosed by some stupid fuck and mommy agrees Why go home? She seems to be stronger but what they want her to be is weak She could play pretend She could join the game, boy She could be another clone Why go home? What you taught me put me here. Don't come visit. Mother, sing me Why go home? What you taught me put me here. Don't come visit. Mother, mother Why go home? |
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5. |
| 5:19 | ||||
At home drawing pictures of mountain tops with him on top
Lemon yellow sun Arms raised in a V And the dead lay in pools of maroon below Daddy didn't give attention, oh, to the fact that mommy didn't care King Jeremy the wicked, oh, ruled his world Jeremy spoke in class today Clearly how I remember picking on the boy Seemed a harmless little fuck Ooh, but we unleashed a lion Gnashed his teeth and bit the recess lady's breast How could I forget. And he hit me with a surprise left My jaw left hurting. Ooh, dropped wide open Just like the day, Oh, like the day I heard Daddy didn't give affection, no, and the boy was something mommy wouldn't wear King Jeremy the wicked, oh, ruled his world Jeremy spoke in class today Try to forget this Try to erase this From the blackboard Jeremy spoke in class today |
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6. |
| 2:42 | ||||
Hold on to the thread
The currents will shift glide me towards know something's left And we're all allowed to dream of the next of the next time we touch. Oooh You don't have to stray the oceans away Waves roll in my thoughts Hold tight the ring The sea will rise please stand by the shore Oh. Oh. Oh I will be I will be there once more. Oooh |
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7. |
| 3:30 | ||||
What the fuck is this world
running to? You didn't leave a message at least I coulda' learned your voice one last time Daily minefield this could be my time by you Would you hit me? All the bills go by and initiatives are taken up By the middle. There ain't gonna be any middle any more And the cross I'm bearing home ain't indicative of my place Left the porch Hear my name. Take a good look This could be the day Hold my hand. Walk beside me I just need to say Hear my name. Take a good look This could be the day Hold my hand. Lie beside me I just need to say I could not take a-just one day I know when I would not ever touch you, hold you, feel you in my arms Never again. Yeah |
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8. |
| 4:59 | ||||
She don't wander in here
Don't wander in here She, she don't wander in here Don't wander in here The direction of the eye So misleading The defection of the soul Nauseously quick I don't question our existence I just question our modern needs She don't wander in here Don't wander in here She, she don't wander in here I will walk with my hands bound I will walk with my face blood I will walk with my shadow flag into your garden Garden of stone After all is done and we're still alone I won't be taken I'll go with my hands bound I will walk with my face blood I will walk with my shadow flag into your garden Garden of stone I don't show I don't share I don't need what you have to give I will walk with my hands bound I will walk with my face blood I will walk with my shadow flag into your garden, garden I will walk with my hands bound I will walk into your garden Garden of stone I don't know I don't care I don't need for me to live |
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9. |
| 4:18 | ||||
Ahha-yea. On the edge a windowsill.
Ponders his maker ponders his will. To the street below he just ain't nothing. But he's got a great view and he sinks the needle deep. Can't touch the bottom. In too deep Can't touch the bottom. Ooh, on the edge of a know-nothing town. Feeling quite superior the age had come. To the sky above he just ain't nothing. But he's got a great view and he sinks the burning mask deep. Can't touch the bottom. In too deep Can't touch the bottom. In too deep On the edge of a Christmas clean love. Young virgin down from heaven, visiting hell. To the man above her she just ain't nothing. And she doesn't like the view. She doesn't like the view. But he sinks himself deep. Can't touch the bottom. In too deep Can't touch the bottom. Can't touch the bottom. Deep the bottom |
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10. |
| 9:06 | ||||
I see the world
Feel the chill Which way to go? Windowsill I see the words on a rocking horse of time I see the verse in the rain Oh, dear dad can you see me now? I am myself like you somehow I'll ride the wave where it takes me I'll hold the pain Release me Oh, dear dad can you see me now? I am myself like you somehow I'll wait up in the dark for you to speak to me How I've opened up Release me Release me Release me dad Release me |
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11. |
| 3:49 | ||||