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Unlucky seventeen, already handed plans for the future
Glamour obsessed, told how to dress, and shown how to think And I don't have a job, but I can show you how to be a slob So many days, wasted and glazed Sometimes I laugh aloud as I think about, You asking me "Please can you help?" Can't help my self I'm not your savior, I'm not who you want me to be A cowardly mistake I've made so many times before, refusing to break Cut my losses ties them with you, like a good boy I'll pretend And promise not to do it again Do you remember when, life was so simple and permanent? Everyone's changed, "Everyone's cool", Everyone sucks But I can't seem to complain, Exciting and new is just not there You're getting scared I'm not your savior, never thought I was anyway I'm a void with empty promises that backs out late Never said I'd change, taking back the words that we spoke Like a fuel tank running dry, you'll believe it when I choke |
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| 2. |
| 3:10 |
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She was done before the start, always mending broken hearts Making others miserable not knowing who she's hurting Father said, "This day will be, one for everyone to see" Is it true you'll follow suit and have you learned a thing? It's just a selfish way to go, it's safe to say she'll never know For every person there's a whole life story waiting to be told When she is happy it's OK, but then these people start to fade Then we'll just watch her self-destruct as she gets old She put up defensive shields, to walk through all of life's minefields All defined by make-up and a car behind she's hiding "Father do you have to go, left me questions I dont know" Any answers or even close the life time lie was true She's gonna move on with her life, and take it one heart at a time And watch the little girl inside her wait behind as she goes on But with this black heart she decides, who she'll take in and shove aside Until the day she sees that everyone is gone Getting used to people leaving, thinking true love is deceiving Soon she'll know how lonely it can be Now was it really worth the pain? A couple pills make her feel sane While she lives out the story written for the part she is to play With so much shame for her to hide, there's no more dignity, no pride Then there will only be dark in her light of day And she will only see a reflection, of her father's rejection Nothing will change until she breaks this life, this life-size mirror |
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| 3. |
| 2:49 |
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Just heard the news today, let yourself down once again
Trusted your feelings in a place that no one goes Will you do anything, to satisfy your so-called friend? There's something you ought to know, before you explode All I want to do is make sure you stop chasing rainbows Trusting those around you is an easy thing to do I'm not saying don't believe in someone that you don't know Just don't go on thinking that the whole world tells the truth It's all fucked up, being reserved and quiet She doesn't understand the message that you send Don't give it all away somewhere, sometimes there's someone Who can replace that state of mind, you never give it time (never) All I want to do is make sure you stop chasing rainbows Letting everybody crawl inside your heart and mine Kicking you is easy when you're down that's where the weak go To release their anger on someone who will not try To stand up, and give them a fight |
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| 4. |
| 2:48 |
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I received your letter in the mail
Sounds like times are hard for you again You said that you'd be nineteen in September of this year And you're breaking up with your first girlfriend "My dad and I got in a fight, he told me to leave" When everything was fine There isn't much that I can do to help you tes it's true But I promise that the hurt will heal in time... And you don't deserve this Lies can't pretend, just another way of thinking People can change when it seems they're not there for you Truth cannot lie, never heard a better word that trust Yes it's in you, know that it's true and right Let me count the ways that I feel so sorry When it rains it drains the spirit dry We all have our mishaps, misfortunes, misopportunities And the strength to carry on consider yourself free... And you don't deserve this |
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| 5. |
| 3:08 |
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Maybe you don't understand it, what keeps them awake at night
What goes through their little minds when you turn off the light? Always having to say sorry tears are stained on the pillow Like the light of the moon they can't be one Can't exist without the son Let's think clearly for a while Can he shine without a smile? Why am I alone with no one to be found? Looks like they know what's best for me Why doesn't anybody like me, I don't understand? Guess I'll have to crawl inside and I don't know why I'm sitting by myself, when the problem isn't mine Been around the block a few times, been beat up by all his friends Learing life is like a maze that never seems to end Like an open book, blank pages left for only him to write Life is short this chapter takes so long Can't tell the right from the wrong It's so hard for you to place An expression on his face Why am I alone with no one to be found? Looks like they know what's best for me Why doesn't anybody like me, I don't understand? Guess I'll have to crawl inside and I don't know why I'm sitting by myself, when the problem isn't mine Why doesn't anybody like me, I don't understand Why my friends and family left me At six years old he won't be taught a meaning to this mess He'll just have to take a guess, and make his own plan And we'll never see the child that was forced to be a man |
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| 3:04 |
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Packing up the pictures in an old shoe box
It's so silent I can almost hear you walk Down the hall standing in front of that window If heaven is so high, then why are you so low? Does it feel, that you're taking back the love that made him real In the darkness you will always see his face And I could never take the place of him Today I'm sleeping in Woke up it's too late and I should be in school There's always something wrong when you ignore the rules Never want to see myself in front of that window Sucking up your tears, didn't want to let me know too much Reaching out your hand for one last touch Take me with you, everybody here is fake And I don't wanna feel the same when you give in In a lifetime, time will always take our place But I will lay here shielded from the pain This is a long time from today You gave me all that I could take And gave me strength to carry on In the darkness, you will always see his face And I don't wanna be there when you do, give in In a lifetime, time will always take our place And I will lay here shielded from the pain I do whatever I want, you never let me down I always know when lost somehow you're found Although life has all thse consequences now And that's OK, and that's OK |
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| 4:04 |
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It was Christmas Eve babe
In the drunk tank An old man said to me, won't see another one And then he sang a song The Rare Old Mountain Dew I turned my face away And dreamed about you Got on a lucky one Came in eighteen to one I've got a feeling This year's for me and you So happy Christmas I love you baby I can see a better time When all our dreams come true They've got cars big as bars They've got rivers of gold But the wind goes right through you It's no place for the old When you first took my hand On a cold Christmas Eve You promised me Broadway was waiting for me You were handsome You were pretty Queen of New York City When the band finished playing They howled out for more Sinatra was swinging, All the drunks they were singing We kissed on a corner Then danced through the night The boys of the NYPD choir Were singing "Galway Bay" And the bells were ringing out For Christmas day You're a bum You're a punk You're an old slut on junk Lying there almost dead on a drip in that bed You scumbag, you maggot You cheap lousy faggot Happy Christmas your arse I pray God it's our last I could have been someone Well so could anyone You took my dreams from me When I first found you I kept them with me babe I put them with my own Can't make it all alone I've built my dreams around you |
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| 8. |
| 3:06 |
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I see you clinging, stereotyping just to feel comfort, just to belong
Desperate for meaning to make sense of your life Let me try to make you understand... You got it wrong You're not gonna catch me waving flags over my head Looking straight and standing tall I refuse to build the wall by adding my own bricks That separate us all I'd rather die than be a part of your pride This ain't the homeland they've written books on Never have been there, how would you know Following footsteps that will get you nowhere And living by some rules that were made up one hundred years ago You're not gonna find me digging through my family tree Just to find out who I am I don't need to know that I'm linked to some murderer To live on the same land I'd rather die than be a part of your pride So it looks like I'll be here for a long time now Some things are better left mysteries Can't change the future when living in the past So do what you want and I'll decide my own history |
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| 2:46 |
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When I'm awake at night, sometimes I picture you
And hear those words again you said, "I'm leaving" I couldn't hold you down and not expect that you would drown I'm a clown, but no one's laughing Maybe you're from another planet, one I want to invade It's all been said (it's all been said) To me you're dead (to me you're dead) And it's time you turn your page I'm not sure what it was that led us down a dead-end road Some of those signs can be quite deceiving I knew your favorite things, didn't know that one of them was someone else I'm done believing Someday there will be understanding Everyday is a tragedy It's me you blame (it's me you blame) But it's the shame (but it's the shame) That you will always carrie, that wou will always carrie That you will always carrie |
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| 2:15 |
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I spent a day or nine then finally realized There's really nothing going on So why should I try to shake leaves When there's no one in my tree that I should care about Let it fall, let it rise Let it be and let it slide Let tomorrow come and take my time away I see the world get by And watch my friends get high I really don't care who's to blame They love to point fingers at you Cause there's nothing else to do but waste away my time Let it fall, let it rise Let it be and let it slide Let tomorrow come and take my time away Let it fall, let it rise Let it be and let it slide Let tomorrow come and take my time away Let tomorrow come and take my time away |
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| 2:39 |
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When you were little she sold you out
Out be the ounce the drugs and alcohol was free Or maybe it was your imagination Friend of the family but now the foe She gets inside your mind with everything you smoke That's why your conspiracy comes from some words she spoke The rain is controlled by misty Who's one but feels like three She always has to be behind every little problem I face I'd drive to Ireland but there's a lake between the land She hired private eyes to follow me Maybe I'll go to Paris and France And meet the Pope and someone to be with for life A place far away where she could never find us here Everything bad is a "misty" She's hiding in that tree I'm swimming at the beach and she's got submarines and high technology She runs my life and in my dreams at night And everywhere I go I'm always six degress, from misty |
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| 12. |
| 3:18 |
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There was a time when you would come and go
Now there's no time left to react Just as it starts to heal in comes a bitter end Well you were already to leave my side and then... You're coming too close and I can't pretend That I'll pick you up or let you come in again We've been through this before, so please understand That nothing in this heart can save you from the pain you seek If you pick up the phone please don't call on me No one can save you from the undertow Nobody can blame you for the past Just as I started thinking "Everything's alright" You showed us surely that your tenth time was your last You're coming too close and I can't pretend That I'll pick you up or let you come in again We've been through this before, so please understand That nothing in this heart can save you from the pain you seek If you pick up the phone please don't call on me Yesterday I saw you falling to the ground Seems like things get worse when no one is around It's not OK You're coming too close and I can't pretend That I'll pick you up or let you come in again We've been through this before, so please understand That nothing in this heart can save you from the pain you seek If you pick up the phone please don't call on me |
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| 13. |
| 4:00 |
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What's wrong with everyone? There's a panic in their eyes
Like others getting close are aliens, in disguise They smell conspiracy on the lips of dearest friends Reminds me of a time long ago, They think it's the end Of what we all created, used to love but now we hate it Life is as simple as the mind it lives in The truth is a waste of time, when we're conditioned to understand Lies are the right was as we watch the blind leading the blind Everything that we see is another's suffering Learn to enjoy the message the TV is delivering You're safe being the glass like being at the zoo The face of guilty thoughts turns around and looks just like you Don't want be another, victim but you watch them suffer Organized, de-sensitized and trained To wake up at 6 AM, go to work come home and in bed by ten When the feeling is safe and warm Horrified by any change, living by consensus destroys us Paints pretty pictures at the same time will do us more harm |
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| 3:18 |
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It's been so long since you've been here, and I'm dying Is there something you would like to say? Just drop the present on the shelf, by the flowers And make the feeling go away Looking back I can't recall, who was listening When I used to walk the streets at night Like a bird that used to sing, I was flying I was happy all the time, and it's hard to look back Better days and different ways I can't explain Another song to sing it all was simplified Don't know what it's about, what have I learned to live without? It takes a day to live a life I can't believe the way the world is so different Look what the lines in my face have made Living in my bed I'm right next to the road The one that goes the other way, takes me to a different place Did you know, that I was just as young as you I had a job, a home, a family, and a car Did you say that yesterday or just right now? You'll never know the feeling of my bleeding heart Did you say that yesterday or just right now? You'll never know the feeling of my bleeding heart |
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