John Popper

I use love like fuel
The pain it drives my engine
It's a source without renewal
Without environmental protection

I said I'll strip mine into your heart
I drill deep and sap you dry
Break you down and sell the parts
For what money just can't buy

Because I use love like fuel
The pain it drives my engine
I use love like fuel
I use love like fuel

I need to feel rejection
To feel anything at all
It grants me worldwide connection
With all things great and small

The anguish gives me vision
I can't say how long it lasts
But the more I have collisions
The more I want to drive fast

Because I use love like fuel
The pain it drives my engine
I use love like fuel
I use love like fuel

Send me up for murder
And I'd feel like I was free
Because I never wanted to hurt her
But it came so easily

Unaware of what I'm taking
I can effortlessly crush
It's only when our hearts are breaking
That I'm nourished by the rush

'Cause I use love like fuel
The pain it drives my engine
I use love like fuel
I use love like fuel
Oooh love like fuel
I use love like fuel

And what about the times
Now I'm grabbing out at breaking glass
An attempt to find a memory
That makes it seem glorious or at least okay

But all I have is me
In a razor caught off guard as you brush by
The alarm wakes me out of bed
And the dream I was just having simply fades away

And blindly do I see
At the sunlight I am freezing
And as I start to come around, I want to fall back to the ground
Roll over and make sense again

But it's too late I am awake
And it's sensation, I can't fake as I try my best to pretend
But once you wake up
You just can't fall back asleep anymore

I know it isn't fair
But once you're aware
You can back track all you want
You can mourn for what's gone
But you're up either way
You better deal with your day

I remember I was tired
In fact I still have some sleep in my eyes
So I got all warm and safe and numb
Figured I'd lie down and rest a while

Next thing came the morning
And you're shaking me and telling me to rise
And I would tell you anything
To stall and make you think or smile or cry

You see all I need is you
And then I start to understand what love does
Now there's so much that I can give
And I finally want to live

You know before I just didn't really ever care
And I'll do more than hold on
I want to celebrate the dawn
I don't ever want to go back to sleep I swear
But once you wake up
You can't just fall back to sleep anymore

I know it isn't fair
But once you're aware
You can backtrack all you want
You can mourn for what's gone
But you're up either way
You better deal with your day

I am corruptible by name
And I basically know how to master any simple game
And I shall twist in the wind
And like a blade of grass I'll survive and I'll win

And grow in dirt
And it can hurt
To grow in dirt
Sometimes it hurts

I nourish by my labor and pain
I burn up in the sun and I drown in the rain
And I'm told that its good to grow
But its not like there's a choice
Because didn't you know

We grow in dirt
And it can hurt
To grow in dirt
Sometimes it hurts

By every reprieve that I choose to believe
With every code that I stand by
I'm just a man with a stick in my hand
And I helplessly jab at the sky
Its my nature to try
Helps the time pass by

And I have this real need to talk loud
For I'm so meek and humble
It makes me arrogant and proud
And I won't be afraid to die
For I shall live forever
And here's my reason why

I grow in dirt
And its gonna hurt
To grow in dirt
Sometimes it hurts
To grow in dirt
Sometimes it hurts

A man can't dance without the chance

Before you stands the man you see
But that man don't mean shit to me
Nothing more than a parody
Just peeking over a steep wall to see

And he's in love with his own ideas
Yeah, he's in love with his own ideas
Good and evil just a way to choose
And some he'll remember and some others he'll lose
He's in love with his own ideas

Jack be nimble, Jack be quick
Leap the candle, pull off your trick
He burns himself up upon the wick
The lesson learned, but it just won't stick

And he's in love with his own ideas
Yeah, he's in love with his own ideas
Good and evil just a way to choose
And some he'll remember and some others he'll lose
He's in love
With his own ideas

The cloth is sharp and it cuts both ways
Goes off whenever a banjo plays
The sinner rejoice as the wise man prays
Two groups of alley cats taking in strays
And each in love
With his own ideas

Before you beats a fearful heart
Fearful you'll tear it apart
But don't you rush and now don't you start
'Cause he's a little bit shy and a little bit smart

And he's in love with his own ideas
Yeah, he's in love with his own ideas
Good and evil just a way to choose
And some he'll remember and some others he'll lose
He's in love with his own ideas

What if I could tell the world I see you?
What if I could make them understand?
And if I could show those fools they need you
It wouldn't change the fact that you need them

And if you find yourself in great transition
And you think perhaps you lost your way
On the edge and fragile, your position
Then there's only one thing I can say

Welcome home
Yeah, 'cause it's your home

If a tree falls and nobody's listening
If a party's thrown and no one shows
And you dream about what you are missing
When the wind in February blows

Welcome home
'Cause it's your home

If you hide amongst the darkness
Let me offer you a light
And if you stay, by the light of day
Fearful when the sun goes down
Come out with me tonight

What if I could make the world beseech you?
What if I could make you understand?
That from the highest branch no one could reach you
But should the bough break, you can take my hand

(Looking for the signs that April's coming)
I know that really letting go
In spite of falling to and fro
It's not no simple thing
Not no ordinary stunt to try

(Can hurt worse than any ache you feel)
But I can see it's on your mind
And whatever you will find
Whatever hope will bring
I can see it in your eye

(Forcing words into that tune you're humming)
Will bring release
Perhaps a modicum of peace
Perchance to dream
Perchance to bust out at the seam

(Which did I make up and which were real?)
And the mere chance
Sustains as bravely I advance
But it don't matter what I do
Without someone to bring it to

Welcome home, come home
Make it home, go home
Leave home, find a home
Build a home and feel at home
'Cause it's your home

Goodbye to you, goodbye
I'll never love anyone more
I may never love at all anymore
But if I could let you go

Then I have loved you well
And I mean to love you the best that I can
With all that I am, so go
With everything I am, so go

Have I loved so well, I can't really tell?
But if you can't love for free
The second star to the right you don't see
Hail and farewell to thee
'Cause you can try but you can't love me

I hope that you'll remember why
I hope that you'll remember me
Meet me in subconscious memory
But if I could let you know

I don't think it's so bad
I just don't know how to and I don't want to leave
I've made too much believe to go
I've made far too much believe to go

I don't think it's so bad but still it makes me sad
But if you can't love for free
The second star to the right you don't see
Hail and farewell to thee
You can try but you can't love me

I don't think it's so bad but still it makes me sad
But if you can't love for free
And the second star to the right you don't see
Hail and farewell to thee
'Cause you can try but you can't love me

And if you can't love for free
And the second star to the right you don't see
Hail and farewell to thee
'Cause you can try but it just won't be

You can try, but you'll never see
You can try to be hopeful
You can try to think you're free
But if you're trying then you can't love me

If you were Audrey Hepburn
And gracefully you set about your scene
And the moral of the story
Successfully adapted to the screen

Would it make any difference
Could I be in your movie somehow
Will I have to wait till then
If not when, how about now

Well if I could conjure demons
To let you know how desperately I feel
Or entice you with my deepest hope
That your love for me was real

I don't need some kind of story
I don't need to take a bow
I just need to ask you once again
If not when, how about now

How about now
How about now
How about now

Maybe you could look at me and see the questions
All the times I swore your eyes had answered me
Keep me wondering what it would be like
And if your wildest dreams came true

Yeah, if you finally got your way
Is there anything that I could do
You see I want to play an active role
And I could give you my solemn vow
If your story needs a happy end
If not when, how about now

How about now
How about now
How about now
How about now
How about now

Yeah, there's evil in my chair
Yeah, there's evil in my chair
There's evil in my chair
He's simply sitting over there

There's evil in my chair
He's simply staring back at me
And he is watching my TV
Yeah, he is staring back at me

He wants to keep me company
Yeah, there's evil in my house
And he needs a ride downtown
Yeah, I got to give him a ride downtown

Yeah, I'm driving him downtown
Because he wants to hang around
And there's evil in my car
He's flicking ashes on my floor

He's flicking ashes on my floor
He's putting butts out on my floor
Because he knows just what I'm looking for
And there's evil in my car

And he keeps to the down low
But he don't like driving slow
He knows just where to go
Because he's always in the know

And evil's gonna drive a while
And I'm reeling from the fix
And a whiff can make me sick
At the time it did the trick

Now I don't care if the time ticks
And evil's gonna try to get me home
I get lost along the way
And there's nothing I can say

Yeah, I get lost along the way
A little farther every day
And evil won't admit a god damned thing
Yeah, evil got me home

And he thinks I shouldn't be alone
Until I'm better he'll be there
It's like he really seems to care
There's evil in my chair

Yeah, it doesn't matter where
I will find him waiting there
There's evil in my chair
Evil in my chair

Evil, evil in my chair, in my house
Evil in my house
Evil in my house
Evil in my house

Evil, evil gonna live in my house
Oh babe, evil, evil in my house
Sit in my chair, watch my TV
It doesn't bother me

Move on
And shuffle off
Winter's gift is a burning cough

Once a stranger
Always a friend
To the cold and the odd stare
And the danger
Should he ever open his mouth

And so he bides his time
Yes, he bides his time
Yes, he bides his time

Some day he thinks he may fool everyone
And they'll give and let him live in the bright hot sun

And so he bides his time
Yes, he bides his time
Yes, he bides his time

Doorways and hope keep him warm
Strangely calm before the storm
Quite sure that he will be free
To speak of voices he can't quite see
They tell him more than he'd ever wished to know

And so he bides his time
Yes, he bides his time
Yes, he bides his time

And when the bugle sound
Knocks the mountains down
His work will be done
Whispers in his ear he keeps him clear
For the angels when they come

So he bides his time
Yes, he bides his time
Yes, he bides his time

Till he assumes his place
Then he'll see the face of God, of God
The ruthless King of Kings
Who keeps telling him things
That still seem odd

So he bides his time
Yes, he bides his time
Move on

Tell me your will and it shall be done
Because you need a disciple and I am one
And I believe because I do
Before I learned a thing, I knew you
A disciple's role is hard because
Though he may never know for sure

He gives his faith and risks the danger
But then he's not alone anymore
But tell me please, I am down upon my knees
When they assign you rules
Is this wisdom made for fools
You're with me when I start to play

I will gladly pray if you preferred
If given the sacred word
'Till then I'll keep loving you in the way
I do when I see your face in her, then I know for sure
For every miracle that you have made me

She's the one that makes them real
I have to love what is beyond me
I'll never learn as much as I feel
But for a time I can understand
When she and I, I am at your command
You're with me when I start to play

I will gladly pray if you preferred
If given the sacred word
'Till then I'll keep loving you in the way
I do when I see your face in her then I know for sure

By every faith that I've invested
By every lightning bolt and scar
By every name that you've been contested
You are the sum of what we are

When she's with me, we both can see
And the world is love, I can't drink in enough
You're with me when I start to play

I will gladly pray if you preferred
You give me the sacred word
'Till then I'll keep loving you in the way
I do when I see your face in her then I know for sure
You're with me when I start to play

I will gladly pray if you preferred
You give me the sacred word
'Till then I'll keep loving you in the way
I do when I see your face in her then I know for sure
Tell me you have again, she's a miracle, Amen