I'm so lonely You're so beautiful Not the only One who's pitiful Stretched and torn I lay here in Pieces Craving all of your deadly vices Like to think I'm not addicted But I guess I wear it well
And I crawl, while you spit And I crawl, through your shit
Here I am now Not a lot has changed Nothing better Everything's the same Late at night I can hear your voices Talking shit about my choices You would think that you've known me forever just because you know my name
And I crawl, while you spit And I crawl, through your shit
Everything falls apart Everything falls apart
And I crawl, while you spit And I crawl, through your shit
And you Bring me to my knees Again All the times That I could beg you please In vain All the times That I felt insecure For you But I leave My burdens at the door
But I'm on the outside And I'm looking in I can see through you I can see your true colors 'Cause inside you're ugly Ugly like me I can see through you See to the real you
All the times That I felt like this won't end Was for you And I taste What I could never have It's from you All the times That I've tried My intentions Full of pride But I waste More time than anyone
But I'm on the outside And I'm looking in I can see through you See your true colors 'Cause inside you're ugly Ugly like me I can see through you See to the real you
All the times That I've cried All this wasted It's all inside And I feel All this pain Stuffed it down It's back again And I lie Here in bed All alone I can't mend But I feel Tomorrow will be OK
But I'm on the outside And I'm looking in I can see through you See your true colors 'Cause inside you're ugly Ugly like me I can see through you See to the real you
I'm still scared Afraid of failing Anticipating The ride to end Before the wheels begin to move
Run away So I can hide Run away I've mastered feeling nothing Run Away I'm dead inside Run away Why don't I care
Waste my time Commiserating self medicating It's my design Although I know you don't approve
Run away So I can hide Run away I've mastered feeling nothing Run Away I'm dead inside Run away Why don't I care
The truth Is that I’m not so good At showing how I feel Or keeping my mouth shut When there's something to conceal Or knowing how to love Love's not in my memories How can I rise above All my insecurities
Run away So I can hide Run away I've mastered feeling nothing Run Away I'm dead inside Run away Why don't I care Run away I fight the tide Run Away The ebb and flow consuming Run away Still by my side Run Away why should you care
I know I've been mistaken, but just give me a break and see the changes that I've made. I've got some imperfections, But how can you collect them all And throw them in my face?
[Chorus] But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting
I hope you're not intending To be so condescending, it's as much as I can take. And you're so independent, you just refuse to bend So I keep bending 'till I break
[Chorus] But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting
I've made a commitment, I'm willing to bleed for you I needed fulfillment I found what I need in you
Why can't you just forgive me? I don't want to relive all the mistakes I've made along the way...
But I always find a way to keep you right here waiting I always find the words to say to keep you right here waiting
[Chorus - Altered] But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting And if I chose to walk away, would you be right here waiting?
Searching for the things to say to keep me right here wating
You take this all for granted All the things they choose to feed you By keeping you distracted Just long enough to bleed you...dry
A reason for your anger It's what I need It's what I need To recognize the truth It's what I need It's what I need So burn your paper Jesus It's what I need It's what I need And own the things you do It's what I need It's what I need
Question what they sell you All the lies that they are teaching And they've made a corporation Out of desperate people's feelings...of fear
A reason for your anger It's what I need It's what I need To recognize the truth It's what I need It's what I need So burn your paper Jesus It's what I need It's what I need And own the things you do It's what I need It's what I need
Somebody chose these words for you Interpretations of the truth Somewhere behind your fear they hide To fill the holes inside
A reason for your anger It's what I need It's what I need To recognize the truth It's what I need It's what I need So burn your paper Jesus It's what I need It's what I need And own the things you do It's what I need It's what I need....x2
Are you afraid Afraid of the truth In mirror staring back at you The image is cracked But so is the view here And the strength of a tree Begins in the roots That I tend to bury into you At least now the storm Can't blow me away
So crawl inside My head with me I'll show you how It feels to be To blame like me
Should I be afraid Of this face that I see In the mirror staring back at me So cold were the days When I listened to you And you say that I'm weak So show me the proof Because I still exist inspite of you But I won't compete With you every day
So crawl inside My head with me I'll show you how It feels to be To blame like me
Schizophrenic conversations that I'm always having with myself I hear these Voices in my head competing, maybe I could use a little help I still have Schizophrenic conversations when there's no one else around to hear I long for Solitude and peace within me, void of all the anger and the fear
So crawl inside My head with me And I'll show you how it feels to be Fucked up like me I'll show you how it feels to be To blame like me Ashamed like me
You In your shell Are you waiting for someone to rescue you From yourself Don't be disappointed when no one comes Don't blame me you didn't get it Don't blame me you didn't get it Don't blame me you didn't get it I already told you that falling is easy It's getting back up that becomes the problem Becomes the problem If you don't believe you can find a way out You've become the problem Become the problem You All alone Are you waiting for someone to make you whole? Can't you see? Aren't you tired of this dysfunctional routine? Don't blame me you didn't get it Don't blame me you didn't get it Don't blame me you didn't get it I already told you that falling is easy It's getting back up that becomes the problem Becomes the problem If you don't believe you can find a way out You've become the problem Become the problem I already told you that falling is easy It's getting back up that becomes the problem Becomes the problem If you don't believe you can find a way out You've become the problem Become the problem Falling is easy It's getting back up that becomes the problem Becomes the problem And if you believe you can find a way out Then you've solved the problem You've solved your problem
Twisting Turning Crashing Burning All this Just to Break me Down
You dont know me You dont see me You dont own me cause I don't care But I'm still here Patiently waiting for you to disappear Is this my cross to bear
Faceless Faking Pushing Taking All this Just to Bring me Down
You dont know me You dont see me You dont own me cause I don't care But I'm still here Patiently waiting for you to disappear Is this my cross to bear
You don't know me You don't own me 'cause I'm aware And I'm still here Patiently waiting for you to disappear Is this my cross to bear I'm still here Reluctantly waiting for you to interfere This is my cross to bear
She sits alone again and tries her best not to pretend that all she used to live for was the love that wasn’t there And every time she needs to do the things that she believes will fill the void inside of her cuz he was never there
And she says, ‘I swear I’m not the devil though you think I am. I swear I’m not the devil.’ And she says, ‘I swear I’m not the devil Though you think I am. I swear I’m not the devil.’
He tries to sleep again and wonders when the pain will end the cuts they may run deeper than his cracking outer shell He looks with tired eyes at all the people hypnotized and wonders what can save him from a self-created hell
And he says, ‘I swear I’m not the devil though you think I am. I swear I’m not the devil.’ And he says, ‘I swear I’m not the devil Though you think I am. I swear I’m not the devil.’
I always fail to see the little things in front of me the things that mean so much to you, a way to let you know That I appreciate the way you always tolerate but sometimes when I medicate frustration in you shows me how you feel
But I swear I’m not the devil Though you think I am I swear I’m not the devil And I scream I swear I’m not the devil Though you think I am I swear I’m not the devil
Can't you see that I'm sick of this? Chances are you're oblivious To how I feel Sitting on your throne And I'm sure that I'm not alone Not alone Not alone
Tell me please Who the fuck did you want me to be? Was it something that I couldn't see? Never knew this would be so political And please I'm still wearing this miserable skin And it's starting to tear from within But it's obvious that doesn't bother you So please
I didn't think that you'd sell me out Now I know what you're all about You might feel in control of things But you're not holding all the strings All the strings All the strings
Tell me please Who the fuck did you want me to be? Was it something that I couldn't see? Never knew this would be so political And please I'm still wearing this miserable skin And it's starting to tear from within But it's obvious that doesn't matter to you
I swallowed all your answers I've swallowed all my pride You've used up all your chances Can't keep this all inside
Tell me please Who the fuck did you want me to be? Was it something that I couldn't see? Never knew this would be so political And please I'm still wearing this miserable skin And it's starting to tear from within But it's obvious that doesn't bother you So please Don't keep telling me that it's okay I don't buy all the shit that you say And quite honestly I'm fucking sick of it So please If I cut off this nose from my face Then I wouldn't feel so out of place But it still wouldn't be quite enough for you So please
If you just walked away What could I really say? Would it matter anyway? Would it change how you feel?
I am the mess you chose The closet you cannot close The devil in you I suppose 'Cause the wounds never heal
But everything changes If I could Turn back the years If you could Learn to forgive me Then I could learn to feel
Sometimes the things I say In moments of disarray Succumbing to the games we play To make sure that it's real
But everything changes If I could Turn back the years If you could Learn to forgive me Then I could learn to feel
When it's just me and you Who knows what we could do If we can just make it through The toughest part of the day
But everything changes If I could Turn back the years If you could Learn to forgive me Then I could Learn how to feel Then we could Stay here together And we could Conquer the world If we could Say that forever Is more than just a word
If you just walked away What could I really say? And would it matter anyway? It wouldn't change how you feel
can't believe How far I've come Now watch me stumble And come undone If you take away These memories Then all that's left Is just me 'Cause I don't want this And I don't need this And I don't feel this It seems that even though she's with me I can't shake this And I can't fake this And I won't take this Anymore So you choose To break my heart Should have seen this From the start I'm haunted by Your apathy All that's left Is killing me 'Cause I don't want this And I don't need this And I don't feel this It seems that even though she's with me I can't shake this And I can't fake this And I won't take this Anymore Do you believe That the way you choose to be I've always had to see The brighter side of this so I don't lose my faith Now the sun has gone away It's getting colder every day So before I freeze to death There's something I should say I don't want this And I don't need this And I don't feel this It seems that even though she's with me I can't shake this And I can't fake this And I won't take this Though you say you understand You still won't face this Can't erase this I won't embrace this Anymore
You I trusted your intentions, a trust you took advantage of Now you Are sitting in the hole that you dug around yourself
You've lied so much you think it's true Do you know what the truth is? How does someone get to be like you? The king of all excuses
Is she Your partner in deception or caught inside the web you’ve spun? Did you Forget that you were family, the damage you have done
You've lied so much you think it's true Do you know what the truth is? How does someone get to be like you? The king of all excuses
I trusted you I trusted in you
This time You're gonna get it All the things you've done coming back to you This time You're gonna feel it You're conscience slowly suffocating you In time You will regret it Say goodbye to all the things you've gotten used to Life will find a way to bring this karma to you Life will find a way to bring this karma to you
You've lied so much you think it's true Do you know what the truth is? How does someone get to be like you? The king of all excuses
Everything must come full circle It kills me that I feel this hurtful I wonder what your children think of you The king of all excuses
I have seen Too many sad eyes look at me The eyes that set me free All the places that I've been
Thank you for The letters that you thought you wrote in vain And for The times you chose to stand out in the rain And wait For me For me
Your words Your words help me to see A little honesty In a world that doesn't share And your eyes Tell the story of your pain Severity of your disdain In a world that doesn't care
So thank you for The letters that you thought you wrote in vain And for The times you chose to stand out in the rain And wait
You You understand my pain From this I gather strength In that we are the same
So thank you for The letters that you thought you wrote in vain And for The times you chose to stand out in the rain And wait The life I live would never be the same Without you here You here You here Without you here
You push yourself on me Force yourself on me Free yourself through me You better save yourself from me Every time you want me to be Something I could never be Guess you'll have to wait and see Till the next time that you have to COME AGAIN! I hate myself for you I break myself for you I'd kill myself for you I'd better save myself from you Everytime you want me to be Something I could never be Guess you'll have to wait and see Till the next time that you have to COME AGAIN! If you have to walk my way Have somethingto say Get the fuck away Can't take one more day I cannot conform COME AGAIN!
You take away I feel the same All the promises you made to me you made in vain I lost myself inside your tainted smile again
Cause you can't feel my ANGER You can't feel my pain You can't feel my torment Driving me insane I can't fight these feelings they will bring me pain You can't take away Make me whole again
I feel betrayed Stuck in your ways And you rip me apart With the brutal things you say I can't deal with this shit anymore I just look away
Cause you can't feel my ANGER You can't feel my pain You can't feel my torment Driving me insane I can't fight these feelings they bring only pain You can't take away Make me whole again
Mudshovel
You take away I feel the same All these promises You promised only pain If you take away And leave me with nothing again
'Cause you can't feel my ANGER You can't feel my pain You can't feel my torment Driving me insane I can't fight these feelings they will bring me pain You can't take away Make me whole again
You will feel my anger You will feel my pain You will feel my torment Driving you insane I can't fight these feelings they will bring you pain You won't take away I'll be whole again
And it`s been a while since I could hold my head up high And it`s been a while since I first saw you And it`s been awhile since I could stand on my own two feet again And it`s been a while since I could call you And everything I can`t remember It`s fked up as it always seems The consequences that are rendered I`ve stretched myself beyond my means And it`s been a while since I can say that I wasn`t addicted, and, And it`s been a while since I can say I love myself as well and It`s been a while since I`ve gone and fed things up just like I always do, And it`s been a while but all that st seems to disappear when I`m with you And everything I can`t remember, It`s fked up as it always seems, The consequences that I`ve rendered, I`ve gone and fked things up again, yeah Why must I feel this way, Just make this go away, Just one more peaceful day And it`s been a while since I could look at myself straight, And it`s been a while since I said I`m sorry, And it`s been a while since I`ve seen way the candles light your face, And it`s been a while but I can still remember just the way you taste And everything I can`t remember, It`s fked up as it always seems, to be (I know it`s me) I cannot blame this on my father He did the best he could for me And it`s been a while since I could hold my head up high, And it`s been a while since I said I`m sorry
Your words to me just a whisper Your faces so unclear I try to pay attention Your words just disappear 'Cause it's always raining in my head So I speak to you in riddles because My words get in my way. I smoke the whole thing to my head and feel it Wash away 'Cause I can't take anymore Of this, I want to come apart, or dig myself a little hole inside your precious heart 'Cause it's always raining in my head Forget all the things I should have said I am nothing more than a little boy inside That cries out for attention, though I always try to hide And I talk to you like children, but I don't know I'll do the right thing If the right thing is revealed But it's always raining in my head Forget all the things I should have said
To my Mother To my Father It`s your son or It`s your daughter Are my screams Loud enough for You to hear me Should I turn this up for you I sit here locked inside my head Remembering everything you`ve said The silence get`s us no where Get`s us no where way too fast The silence Is what kills me I need someone Here to help me But you don`t know How to listen And let me make My decisions I sit here locked inside my head Remembering everything you`ve said The silence get`s us no where Get`s us no where way too fast All your insults And your curses Make me feel like I`m not a person And I feel like I am nothing But you make me So do something Cause I`m fked up Because you are Need attention Attention you couldn`t give I sit here locked inside my head Remembering everything you`ve said The silence get`s us no where Get`s us no where way too fast I sit here locked inside my head Remembering everything you`ve said The silence get`s us no where Get`s us no where way too fast
