Sheila Nicholls

You're a ghost in the snow now
And the light in my red mood
You flow across me in waves of
I hope to see you soon
Your anchor drags behind me
I feel your imprint on my thumbs
And everywhere I go I hear you in the words that I use
In my theories algebra and sums

*Chorus*
I've kicked myself for months now
It's bread and water without you
Bread and water
It's bread and water without you

So you stare at me through keyholes
Like I'm some religion in the rain
Your defenses highlight my weaknesses now
When before you loved me all the same
Yeah you loved me all the same

*Bridge*
And I wonder what you're doing
And I think of what I've done
And I wonder what you're doing
And I think of what I've done

*Chorus*
I've kicked myself for months now
It's bread and water without you
Bread and water
It's bread and water without you

Verse 1
We talked about loss and the patterns of past and the pieces of ourselves
we'd killed over time
We thought then of love, and surrendered our eyes and I looked for myself
through your dissolving disguise.

Chorus
My breath in is your breath out, we begin and for a moment lifting this
deception of being separate from you
My breath in is your breath out, we walk in, into the ocean, shifting my
perception of being one drop of dew

Verse 2
We talked about god and the limbs on the floor, and the legalization of
deviance
We thought then of sense and how often its veiled, and how the machines and
their components have already failed

It's been years and I'm still here longing for what has always been true, life

and death, us and them are two parts of one whole just misconstrued.

Baby I must leave you soon
It's all I know how to protect myself
Oh you say you wanted more
And I reveal and then I shout
OH Oh, I'm the fool
If I can't find you anywhere
And I am left here on this beach
With these fruits of ours, they are rotting in the sun

Come, Come to me, again
This time I will give you mine
Come to me, again
This time...

I've been quizzing all the trees
One by one
What they know of your alchemy, please
Cause you reveal myself to me
In my darkest place, you've unlocked and left my cells
And disappear without a trace

Come to me, again
This time I will give you mine now
Come to me, again
This time...

It's all I know how to protect myself
How to protect myself

Something rumbling underneath my skin
I could not define it or invite it in
Though
To let it in would be to liberate
To keep it in darkness is to propagate
Why

It's all about
Believing through something that you always doubt

When you have faith
You will be willing to wait
When you have faith
Through all that logic and haste
It's never too late
So try to create
'Cause the last thing that breaks
The last thing that breaks
The last thing that breaks
Is your faith

Something shouting from behind my eyes
I'm looking too closely to recognize
To gain perspective think it would be wise
Would you please listen while it testifies
Now

It's all about
Believing through something that you always doubt

When you have faith
You will be willing to wait
When you have faith
Through all that logic and haste
Its never too late
So try to create
'Cause the last thing that breaks
The last thing that breaks
The last thing that breaks
Is your faith

And I surrender to this storm
And taste the raindrops sweet and wet and warm
And may I never loose this faith I've found
It keeps me anchored on to solid ground
So let lightening flash and wind swirl around

When you have faith
You will be willing to wait
When you have faith
Through all that logic and haste
It's never too late
So try to create
'Cause the last thing that breaks
The last thing that breaks
The last thing that breaks
Is your faith

You have faith
(You have faith)
(You have faith)
(You have faith)

You have faith
(You have faith)
(You have faith)
(You have faith)

You have faith
(You have faith)

Faith

There's a nature we innately understand that we rarely listen to

How strong am I,
I know the legacies I live within,
how strong am I
to use what I've learned with discipline
How strong am I
to take this resistance and make it free
how strong are we

Can you still hear me thro' all these distractions
and can you still see me tho all this smoke,
And do you have purpose or you just paying off mortgage
and do you take rich drugs or poor drugs
to hide your ache for something more

How strong are we,
we know the legacies we live within,
how strong are we
to meet each other thro' this division.
How strong are we
to rise beyond these blinded leaders
how strong are we

Who spent the money, and who pays the price
to not be responsible must be so nice.
Did you hear about karma, and how it comes back,
too late to wear glasses when your sky turns black.

How strong are we we know the legacies we live within,
how strong are we
to meet each other thro' this division
How strong are we to take this resistance and make it free
How strong are we

There's a nature we innately understand that we rarely listen to

The words I have to say may well be simple but they're true
until you give your love there's nothing more that we can do

Love is the opening door
love is what we came here for
no one can offer you more
do you know what I mean,
have your eyes really seen

you say its very hard to leave behind the life we knew,
but there's no other way and now its really up to you

love is the key we must turn
truth is the flame we must burn
freedom the lesson we must learn
do you know what I mean
have your eyes really seen

When I was born, my confidence was unmatched by anyone,
and I could have sworn,
my soul came from the sun.
When I was born I looked again one more time,
back to the light, I waved goodbye then I boldly stepped into this night.

In(to) this maze of conditioning
no choice in my positioning,
into this thicket with no return ticket,
till I get to the other side

Well, I passed a church, they were crying on the floor
and I passed some children, they were eager playing war,
my eyes grew sore, and how do I save myself from this disease and how do I keep my soul pure please

I was lost now just like tears in the rain
and I felt angry with this burden of pain
with no refrain,
so I decided that even love was a lie and all I had left was me alone

I knew I was treading water,
And your baggage floated all around.
There were no life rafts,
Should I grab a suitcase?
It was sink or swim to higher ground.

An' I stretch between, telling you everything
and nothing at all.

Delilah saw the yellow flowers before us,
Just in case you didn't know.
They rooted for me 'cause I wore their colors,
Told me not to linger, just grow.

And I'm glad us girls could get over Salem,
And not divide each other and not watch each other fall.

And I deliver what I want you to see,
Just like you have always done for me,
But his can never be a war.
The object of this game is to leave with equal score.

And the moth and the streetlight were in their infinite tease,
And Icarus shouted down from the clouds and the trees,
Well, he tried to warn them both.
Be careful of the fire,
Be careful of the air,
For he will never tire and she is rarely fair.
Love's not the illusion of desire,
Still he tried to break their stare,
What choices will you make he said with failure in his smile.
I'm sure this beauty's fake, and I'm sure this love is vile.

But the moth just saw the fire, beautiful fire,
Kept her warm and was fuel for her dance.
The lamp marveled as she swam through the air.
Is that something, was the something,
maybe something there.

Ruby's smiling
not because she's happy,
but cause she's planning her escape,
Ruby's smiling to make sure you feel comfortable
inside you smiling world,
behind your smiling tape

Ruby take us to the Promised Land,
Ruby you are Moses with a different band
Speak the truth girl so all the slaves will understand
We'll find our real smiles hidden in the desert

No one suspects her
no one can see a difference
because she smiles the way you taught her, candy coated
And she can play you
better than you ever could play her
but it's boring, she's kind of bloated;
And sometimes she finds she will play herself,
now that is dangerous, that is lying
So she is leaving
She is taking everything, she's not coming back, no
she's not coming back

We've seen this smile before,
on Lillith's face as she slammed the door
Left Adam standing in the Garden of Eden
He had a hard-on and was ready for breeding,
She didn't want to but he couldn't hear
She said 'cook your own meals and have a wank my dear!'

Verse 1
Seven fat Englishmen sit around you on bar stools
Blood red faces unaware that they're dying fast,
And as this blood squeezes through their blocked arteries
These farming men, drinking gin, pickling their livers
It's normal here

Chorus
And I reach into this circle
To fetch you out
and I reach into this circle to fetch you out of this sticky mess of gin and
blood and soil but you can't leave,
gin and blood and soil but you can't leave.
And as the spice girls prostitute girl power in the background
On tinny speakers you smile and desperation seeps through your teeth
as you laugh with them
Agree with them, make business with them
Cos this is you're life

Verse 1
I have nowhere to take you and you have nowhere to go an I think its just too

painful for you to think there's any better

I won't get lost in you however my will wants me to
and I will feel you more if I walk now and close this door
But that is not to say, that it will end that way,
although I know it's out of my hands.
Forever reasoning mind, knows it will never find
a way to foretell how the pennies land, how the pennies land...

Chorus:
So I'll attempt to entertain the idea we're just not the same,
I'm pushing hard against this door your breeze keeps whispering to explore
There is no logic here, I'm lost in every tear
and swirl with every wave that's breaking.
The knots that reason weaves, unravel when your sleeves,
are holding warm and soft around me.... around me (just memories now)

Its not as if I can't remove you from my brain
It's gonna be a surgical procedure but I, I can do it I can do it again, and again, and again...
But I won't get lost in you however my will wants me to
And I will feel you more if I walk now and close this door.

But I won't get lost in you...
But I won't get lost in you...

Fallen for you
Did you ever see me
Watching from periphery
I was playing another game
Hoped you catch on
all the same
Fallen from view
Did you ever touch me
Floating through
your potpourri
I thought I felt
your fingers once
After waiting
all these months
But I was wrong so wrong
That was just
another song you wrote
for another girl
And I hoped a day could be
When you'd write
a song for me
But it never came
I thank you all the same
But I'll go now
so you won't know
how much I've
Fallen for you
Boy who's trying to be a man
Boy you don't know
if you can
I thought I knew
you well enough
But your walls are
still too tough

But I was wrong so wrong
That was just
another song you wrote
for another girl
And I hoped the day could be
When you'd write
a song for me
But it never came
I thank you all the same
But I'll go now
so you won't know how much I
Thought about you all the time
Walking round the Guggenheim
Like a rhyme in my mind
There you are in my car
But we don't drive very far
To the beach out of reach
Next to me my fantasy
Falling for you
Did you ever see me
Watching from periphery
I was playing another game
I hoped you catch on
all the same