Toad The Wet Sprocket

to moonn6pence from shootingstar(papayeverte)





Nothing's so loud
As hearing when we lie

The truth is not kind
And you've said neither am I

But the air outside so soft
Is saying everything
Everything

All I want is to feel this way
To be this close, to feel the same

All I want is to feel this way
The evening speaks, hear it say



Nothing's so cold
As closing the heart when all we need

Is to free the soul
But we wouldn't be that brave I know

And the air outside so soft
Confessing everything
Everything

All I want is to feel this way
To be this close to feel the same

All I want is to feel this way
The evening speaks, I feel it say


And it won't matter now
Whatever happens will be

Though the air speaks of all we'll never be
It won't trouble me


All I want is to feel this way
To be this close to feel the same

All I want is to feel this way
The evening speaks, I feel it say

And it feels - so close
Let it take - me in
Let it hold - me so
I can feel - it say

how can it happen that every time
you ask us this question the answer seems like a lie
you know what we're saying and you know what it means
and it's always sincere god knows
but it never gets through to where you need
before you were born someone kicked in the door
there's no place for you here, stay back where you belong
before you were born someone kicked in the door
you are not wanted here, stay back where you belong
god damn the people who left you in pain
god damn the father without face, without name
and god damn the lovers who never showed up
and god damn the wounds that show how deep a word can cut
before you were born someone kicked in the door
there's no place for you here, stay back where you belong
before you were born someone kicked in the door
you are not wanted here, stay back where you belong
and how can it happen now that you know the cause
that nothing is changing and everything's wrong
but pain is the healing and the tears sting like alcohol
just keep on there breathing
we'll bring you down the long, long road back home

i find my brother in there
deep in my heart
i find my brother in there
hold in my arms
i love you
and if I seem too quiet now
there are no words
to tell you how
i love you
i often feel
like the prodigal son
take all I need
giving back none
our beauty shows
in such different ways
you're like the light behind the fog
so soft
but still you burn my eyes away
i find my brother in there
deep in my heart
i find my brother in there
hold in my arms
i love you
and if I seem too quiet now
there are no words to show you how
i love you
so much has changed
and so much has happened these years
but still I find that you
are waiting here
we have a bond
that nothing can change
and still I find
a peace of mind
whenever I hear your name
and if I seem too quiet now
there are no words to show you how
i love you

spoken]We saw something gigantic floating on the water
I asked my dad what it was
But he wouldn't tell me anything
In time I will collect the world
The eggs (I love) and wings (the wings)
Of butterflies
A man drove up in an ugly car
And he flashed his lights at everything he saw
And his eyes were red and his stereo was
So loud you couldn't hear the engine's roar
He yelled at everybody in the road
And did not notice all the moths he'd massacred
Spread across the open road
[spoken]His skin flashed open, and all of a sudden there it was,
And I still couldn't tell
And you know when you get so close to something that big
You can't see anything at all
In time I will collect the world You who fall on calvary
The eggs (I give) and wings (my children) Had you wings of
Butterflies
A moth had settled upon his arm and he looked at it with a lazy eye
And he lifted up a gigantic hand and he
Spread his fingers towards the sky
He nudged the moth to make it fly away
But moths are fragile things and
He just wiped its body (x3)
Down across his shoulder blade
He's a wonder, he's a little black-wing boy
Oh, my daughters, he'll fill you with joy
In time I will collect the world You who soar o'er calvary
The hearts (Oh father) and limbs (I offer) of Had you wings of
Butterflies

Be who you are
If it fits in the system
Say what you want
But you might die if they listen
They think in the politics
Of gasoline and torture

Please only talk to me in the dark
Please only talk to me in the dark

Write what you will
If you write it in a prison
Sing how you feel
But you might die if they listen
They think in the politics
Of rosaries and chains

And it's hard to tell the right from the wrong
When the right is protecting the wrong

Be who you are
But not where there are people
Reality is taught
Right and wrong, there is no middle
We think in politics
Of money and ourselves

And it's hard to tell the right from the wrong
When the right is protecting the wrong

And it's hard to know the right from the wrong
When the right is protecting the wrong

i've come here a thousand times, some things never change
"yes i will, anything you say"
i've quit this a million times, can't quite stay away
just one more time...i'll be ok
but i'm so damn tired

when i come back down
though i'm crazy to
anything you want from me i'll do

"hey joe, could you spare a buck
i could use some food"
what a laugh, one more fool
two hours and it's back again, lapping at my heels
stop yelling..i'll get through
but i'm so damn tired

i've come here a thousand time
some things never change
lay me down...take me away
god, i'm so d**n tired

Send "Fall Down" Ringtones to Cell


She said "I'm fine, I'm okay" cover up your trembling hands
There's indecision when you know you ain't got nothing left
When the good times never stay
And the cheap thrills always seem to fade away
When will we fall
When will we fall down

chorus:
Jump back, got to get out of here
Been too long this time
Jump back, got to get out of here
When will, when will we fall down

She hates her life, she hates her skin, she even hates all her friends
Tries to hold on to all the reputations she can't mend
And there's some chance we could fail
But the last time someone was always there for bail
When will we fall
When will we fall down

chorus
She said "I'm fine, I'm okay" cover up your trembling hands
There's indecision when you know you ain't got nothing left
For the last time conscience calls
For a good friend I was never there at all
When will we fall
When will we fall down

Take her arms and hold her down...
Until she stops moving
take her arms and hold her down...
until she she stops kicking

And they don't know her
But what the f**k
They got nothing else they can do
And there's no reason
But still they come

And I
Would have a hard time facing you
This crime
I've seen what a man can do

Take her arms and hold her down...
Until she stops screaming
Take her arms and hold her down...
Until she stops breathing

And they don't know her
But what the fuck
They got nothing else they can do
And there's no reason
But still they come

And I
Would have a hard time facing you
This crime
The shame of what a man can do
I would have died
From all the hell that you've been through

Take the night back
All they've stolen
All we took from you

Take the night back
All they've stolen
All we took from you

one part of me just wants to tell you everything
one part just needs the quiet
and if i'm lonely here, i'm lonely here
and on the telephone
you offer reassurance
i will not take these things for granted
how can i hold the part of me that only you can carry
it needs a strength i haven't found
but if it's frightening, i'll bear the cold
and on the telephone
you offer warm asylum
i'm listening
flowers in the garden
laughter in the hall
children in the park
i will not take these things for granted
anymore
to crawl inside the wire and feel something near me
to feel this accepting
that it is lonely here, but not alone
and on the telephone
you offer visions dancing
i'm listening
music in the bedroom
laughter in the hall
dive into the ocean
singing by the fire
running through the forest
and standing in the wind
in rolling canyons
i will not take these things for granted

bradley says it's haunted
the house upon the hill
and if we meet at four a.m.
then we would know for sure
we carry the ladders
and lean them against it
and climb them as we look
someone kicked a ladder
bradley took a spill
said his leg was broken
so we dragged him down the hill
and through the door
what do i see?
something is happening
is it for me?
mom found out the whole thing
mine was first to call
bradley's leg healed badly
at least he still can walk
we leave in the morning
and no one will hear us
and meet in the clearing
and i'll bring the sandwiches
david come quickly
you're missing the whole thing
now open your big eyes
and take in the sunrise
and through the door
what do i see?
something is happening
is it for me?

one more time he says good-night
turns out the door and off the light
cursing low as if she didn't know
one more time he'd comfort her
as if a word could break through her
she's so quiet and he's sick of it

too long, too late this time
too far, too great in my mind

one more time a run-around
nothing meant by anyone
fine with them, such a quite din
says he wants to leave a while
she just sits and tries to smile
"that's ok, it was boring anyway"

too long, too late this time
too far, too great in my mind

says she needs a worshiper
someone who'll do anything at all for her
wishful thinker
he don't need this schizo bull
each one misses by so far
they don't see it come, but who ever does...

Should I have believed I was still a boy
Naive and sane, protected wholly
Tongue-tied and restless
Breathing of futures
Know me; I am not a child
'Though you have age
You have not felt the pain...
Should I have remained obedient and docile
So far restrained
The hands that hold me back
Could break my bones
As each one snaps
I hate my home
Far on my way
I should know, I was born here
Know me
Am I just some fool? Am I far from ready?
Just let me fall and I'll believe you.
Chained up and pampered I strain until I crack
Know me before you kill what I want to be
And leave me cold
Bled white
And feeling old
Far on my way
I should know, I was born here
Know me--know all I am
Far on my way
I was cold then I exploded
Know me

we sing the nightingale song alive
streets never border further than my eyes
we sing the nightingale song alive
we might be different but our hearts won't lie

and little ever changes if anything at all
but the song rings loudly through these halls

we sing the nightingale song alive
we might be different but our hearts won't lie

and little ever changes when you view it from the sky
and the damage we encounter the earth just passes by
and little ever changes if anything at all
and we remind ourselves how small we are

One little girl
Told to know her place
Told she must believe
And do what he says
One little girl
Taught that she is small
Taught that she is less
And man's decree is law
One little boy who'd know her too well
But that one little boy could send her to hell
One little man who'd care if she cried
But that one little man would leave her
And then she'd die
One little girl
Is beaten 'till she faints
Told that this is love
Told that she will have to take it
One little girl
Is just a bit confused
Thought that she was human too

CHORUS

One little girl
Couldn't run away
Anywhere she'd go
The rules and men the same
One little girl
Couldn't take the pain
Numbed herself 'till none remained

CHORUS

High on a wire
Poised for an imminent fall
Clowns always smile
Greasepaint and lust in their pores
Start to sway and I hold your hand
Fall, the smile surrounds his head
Hot ashes, clay
Hot ashes fade
To lean, to err, too far along for me
To wait around, to smile is to accept
In center ring
Rolling in sawdust and hay
Covered in paint
Damn everything but the circus
Damn the men and the women who stare
At the freaks in the cages and snares
Hot ashes, clay
Hot ashes fade
To win, to err, to fall too far for safety
To lean, to wait a while is too easy
To lean towards, to fall too far for me
To wait a while around is too easy
To lean too long, to fall too far for safety
To seem to smile, to lie is to accept

don't give me answers for i would refuse
""yes"" is a word for which i have no use
and i wasn't looking for heaven or hell
just someone to listen to stories i tell
now what is a blessing and what is a dream
caught between portraits and none's what it seems
and why is it people expect there's a change
when i feel i'm a part of something i can't see
i feel the same
now don't ask me questions or i will retreat
fame is a cancer and ego its seed
now i wasn't looking for heaven or hell
just someone to listen to stories i tell
do we ever wonder?
and do you ever care...
subtle salvation in poems we know
hiding our heads in a shadow of home
now i wasn't looking for wreaths or for bells
just someone to listen to stories i tell
stories i tell

i fear nothing
besides myself
please don't touch me
love like an infant trying to stand up

am i two souls
one hard, one whole
am i real
i don't want to feel anything
anymore

i feel nothing
besides this pain
please don't watch me
love like an infant
scared and crawling

we spotted the ocean at the head of the trail
where are we going, so far away
and somebody told me that this is the place
where everything's better, everything's safe
walk on the ocean
step on the stones
flesh becomes water
wood becomes bone
half and hour later we packed up our things
we said we'd send letters and all those little things
and they knew we were lying but they smiled just the same
it seemed they'd already forgotten we'd came
walk on the ocean
step on the stones
flesh becomes water
wood becomes bone
now back at the homestead
where the air makes you choke
and people don't know you
and trust is a joke
we don't even have pictures
just memories to hold
that grow sweeter each season
as we slowly grow old

Line of people to pass you by
Posing sympathy with its whitewash eyes
With the ladies feigning their mourning cries
And the men shaking hands:
Weigh away
Way away
All the pictures in your mind
As you're passed the thousandth time
Thousandth photograph
Listen to sympathetic lies
As their reasons change under mourning guise
With the gentlemen feigning sorrowed sighs
And drinking champagne:
Weigh away
Way away
As all the people pass and pose
You hold back the tears
And hold onto memories
Small talk hangs like a dirty cloud
Saying nothing real but deafening loud
An urge to run away from the crowd
And mourn all alone:
Make a promise to no-one
Wondering if you'd been worthwhile
Turn away from the chatter
And the hungry smiles

Sheepdog
Standing in the rain,
Bullfrog
Doing it again
some kind of happiness is measured out in miles
what makes you think you're something special when you smile
Child-like
No one understands,
Jack knife
In your sweaty hands,
some kind of solitude is measured out in years
you don't know what it's like to listen to your fears
You can talk to me
you can talk to me
you can talk to me
if you're lonely you can talk to me

Big man
Walking in the park
Whigwam
Frightened of the dark
Some kind of innocence is measured out in you
You think you know me but you haven't got a clue
You can talk to me
if you're lonely you can talk to me

call me up when you need
strangers often deceive
and there's something so freeing
to call out a name
and someone's believing

i've been changing my mind
through with looking behind
it's a crash course in life
the best you can do is get by
no getting out alive
i'll hold a light for you to see
all things in time, all you'll ever need

something i can't explain
keeps me running, afraid
and every day
looks me in the face and says
"who'd you think you were, anyway?"
if you'll hold a light for me to see
all things in time, all we'll ever need
well, you told me so
that we'd seen all this before
so what is it that keeps us coming back for more?

i'll hold a light for you to see
all things in time, all you'll ever need
all things in time, all we'll ever need

here, i need your help
deliver me from myself
take me where i'm wanted
or make me someone else

never mind what they said
forget about the things you read
it was something you'll never know
never see, never understand
just leave it now if you can

tell me
when they come for you
who will there be to speak
and when they come for you
who will there be left to speak for you?

the final solution's back in style
we are the ones letting it ride
i never knew we were so blind
amnesia in comfort, so unkind

tell me
when they come for you
who will there be to speak
and when they come for you
who will there be left to speak for you?

open up and let me in
i was lucky to live, don't need to win
forgave myself and if that's a sin
it's not enough you'd even know it
you did right to call my bluff
'cause i won't say when i've had enough
and i worked so hard to need this stuff
and you tried so long to just ignore it

won't you come down where i am
words are hidden, understand

i won't repeat myself again
i will not repeat myself again
it's another promise d.o.a.
and despite my every hope there is no truth
behind my best intentioned oath

won't you come down where i am
words are hidden, understand
won't you come down
been away to long, i know i have

won't you come down, help me stand
there is healing in your hands
won't you come down where i am
words all leave me
been away too long
i know i've been away too long
i know i have

anyway now, it don't seem right
he is in there and you're on the outside
over pine ridge to wounded knee
there's blood on the ground as far as you see
crazy life

in the air i'm sensing a change in the weather
in the end the path is clear
does anyone remember here
did you all think he'd just disappear
crazy life
what have you done with Peltier
who did you think you'd taken away
crazy life

in the air i'm sensing a change in the weather
in the end the path is clear

burying won't stop it breathing forever
underground it takes to root

anyway, it don't seem right
he is in there and you're on the outside
what have you done with Peltier
who did you think you'd taken away
it's not over...

is it this place that makes me fall from you
forget the words that once rang so true
did we expect that life was ever fair, my god...
i sowed a field of rose and reaped a whipping rod
and everything i've held too tight inside
could make a part of me die
and if my lips could only speak the name
the dam would break

what is this ice that gathers round my heart
to stop the flood of warmth before it even starts
it would make me blind to what i thought would always be
the only constant in the world for me
and every hours of every day
i need to fight from pulling away
and if my mind could only lose the chain
the dam would break

for all the things i hid away
and all the words i could not say
the dam would break

i want to be clean, i want to be whole
i want revenge, i want control
i want to give up, i want to give in
destroy all i have been
i want to be cruel, i want to be cold
i want a chance to sell my soul
i want to break out, i want to dive in
to lose myself in sin
i don't need anything
i'm just wanting
just wanting
i don't need anything
i'm just wanting
just wanting
desire all desire is
desire feeds desire
desire all desire is
desire breeds desire
i want to scream, i want to shout
i want to have faith and never doubt
i want to bend, i want to break
to sleep and never wake
to break down walls and to escape
be alone and hide my face
i want to feel, i want to touch
want to stop wanting it so much
i don't need anything
i'm just wanting
just wanting
i don't need anything
i'm just wanting
just wanting
desire all desire is
desire feeds desire
desire all desire is
desire breeds desire

lead me well, don't clear my way
it's fascinating how the pallor can stay upon your face
when you are light like a little boy
flying kites and shouting to the world
you're shouting to the world your joy
don't fade, you're staying here with me
don't fade, i need to know that someone still believes

look around, see for yourself
he led us down and at the water's edge we knelt
petals in the lake and red upon my face
she's crying as we pray
and it all comes down to money, again
how could you forsake the love of god that way
don't fade, you're staying here with me
don't fade, i need to know that someone still believes.

life is suffering
tee-hee, ha-ha
life is suffering
tee-hee, ha-ha

cold and shuddering
tee-hee, ha-ha
cruel and pummeling
tee-hee, ha-ha
smile on little buddha, smile on
little buddha, smile on
it's only illusion then it's gone

lost and struggling
tee-hee, ha-ha
life is suffering
tee-hee, ha-ha
smile on little buddha, smile on
little buddha, smile on
it's only illusion then you're gone
maya

little man big man who came first
what is the measure of our worth
if there was a storm rolled in
who'd run inside
who'd go walking

little man big man what's inside
it's all in the places
where we find our pride
if there was a soul lost by the road
who'd pass by
who'd take it home

where is the beast lying
is there a beast hiding

little man big man who is who
it's all in the damage that our toys can do
if there was a rock and a window pane
who'd throw stones
who'd walk away

where is the beast lying
is there a beast hiding

are we learning
are we moving
little man big man fade away
it's all in the in the violence of the games we play
it's all in the in the violence of the games we play
it's all in the love we give today

are you the plane
that shapes the board
part of a history
smoothed and worn
and oh, the windy weather
dry spells, brushfire

isn't it strange
to see my life
you must cut me down
to look inside
and oh, the simple pleasures
this ring tells of rain
and this one summer
good years, nightmares

how is it i remember
knowing that i would live forever
isn't it strange
how truth can change
and oh, the windy weather
this ring tells of rain
this one, summers
dry spells, brushfire

take your cautionary tales
take your incremental gain
and all the sychophantic games
and throw 'em all away

burn your tv in your yard
and gather 'round it with your friends
and warm your hands upon the fire
and start again

take the story you've been told
the lies that justify the pain
the guilt the weighs upon your soul
and throw 'em all away

tear up the calendar you've bought
and throw the pieces to the sky
confetti falling down like rain
like a parade to usher in your life
take the dreams that should have died
the ones that kept you lying awake
when you should've been all right
and throw 'em all away

with the time i waste on the life i never had
i could've turned myself into a better man

'cause there ain't nothing you can buy
and there is nothing you can save
to fill the whole inside your heart
so throw it all away
won't fill the whole inside your heart

help me empty out this house
the wool i've gathered all these days
and thought i couldn't do without
and throw it all away

there's almost nothing left
you eat my kind for breakfast
what did i expect?
to come here and find anyone?
find open arms to greet me
and friends to feed me
i sicken myself so much
and you eat my kind for breakfast
you eat my kind

whatever i fear the most is whatever i see before me
whenever i let my guard down, whatever i was ignoring
whatever i fear the most is whatever i see before me
whatever i have been given, whatever i have been

seeing myself this way
i am a monster i believe
and seeing is believing
is there no doubt left
when i poison myself
and poison leaves no appetite
i sicken myself so much
i sicken myself so

whatever i fear the most is whatever i see before me
whenever i let my guard down, whatever i was ignoring
whatever i fear the most is whatever i see before me
whatever i have been given, whatever i have been

did we expect these things to change
by waking up and suddenly there they are
and all i need's a starting place
and nothing ever seemed so hard...

whatever i fear the most is whatever i see before me
whenever i let my guard down, whatever i was ignoring
whatever i fear the most is whatever i see before me
whatever i have been given, whatever i have been

Music by: Glen Phillips and Toad
Lyrics by: Glen Phillips

it's hard to rely on my good intentions
when my head's full of things that i can't mention
seems i usually get things right
but i can't understand what i did last night

it's hard to rely on my own good senses
when i miss so much that requires attention
have to laugh at myself sometimes
and i can see that i'm not blind

there's little relief
give us reprieve
for all the things i've left behind
i'm positive that i'm not blind

i'm not afraid things won't get better
but it feels like this has gone on forever
you have to cry with your own blue tears
have to laugh with your own good cheer

it's hard to rely on my good intentions
when my head's full of things that i can't mention
seems i usually get things right
but i can't understand what i did last night

there's little relief
give us reprieve
imagining the world outside
i'm positive that i'm not blind

i can't be hard on you
'cause you know i've been there too
learned a lot of things from you

but life gives little relief
give us reprieve
and when everyone is cold as ice
i clinch my fists and close my eyes
imagining the world outside
but i can see that i'm not blind

all in all it's just as well
water moves, earth is still
time is slower still
half an hour is 30 days
nothing moves at all this way
hold on, i can wait
life lies burning, i am only just as much as i can make myself
and i lie burning, life is only just a part of it
i can't help myself
all in all it's just the sun
catch the wind, hold it down
cold when evening comes
all in all it's just as well
catch the river, make it still
water turns the mill
life lies burning, i am only just as much as i can help myself
and i lie burning, life is only just a part of it
i can't help myself
all in all it's just as well
water moves and earth is still
time is slower still
half an hour is 30 days
nothing moves all this way
hold on, i can wait
but i can't wait
i can't wait
i can't help myself

Losing my aim losing time
And after
Ten in the morning I find
It matters
But it's all right this time
Pulls from the tether to rise
And shatters
Caught in the wind far and wide
It scatters
If I hear the call
Of the lorelei
No I will not fall
It's all right this time
Never patterns
But for the loss of things
Gaining
Catching up with me
And these ladders
Rising and endlessly
Leading
Nowhere I can see
If I hear them cry
That it's killing time
No I will not fight
It's all right this time

to mooon6pence from shootingstar



will my bride sleep tonight
softly
believe the words
as always lying
and she sleeps and dreams
lord knows what
but it's not for me to be there
and she knows she isn't there for me
it's just a way of protecting
and will my bride believe the lie
says it's all right; still together till we die
but she knows that words aren't always
always what we mean to say
but still she says she loves me anyway
that's all she said
one more word she speaks and says good night
she would believe enchanted lies
I wait for her but still inside
she's dreaming of Valentino's eyes
far away in someone else's night
it isn't wrong but still it isn't right
that's all she said

Wasn't it hard
And did we want penance
Summer's so long
Colder men when their ice prayer never came
Didn't we fight it
And weren't we hard
Holding back a friend of mine
All the way coming home
Aren't we the ones who never got tired?
Wasn't it magic
The flames rolled and I said OK
Were we just asking
For something to come our way
Are we another, were we afraid?
Is there a hope that we'll wait
To walk a time?
He's a long road...
And I feel like a newborn again
But the night holds on
Hello, I'm coming home
Don't we mind waiting
And are we ashamed
Coming here in the black dark night
And I don't feel so strange
Are we the lady?
Were we afraid?
Are we the summer...

i find my brother in there
deep in my heart
i find my brother in there
hold in my arms
i love you
and if I seem too quiet now
there are no words
to tell you how
i love you
i often feel
like the prodigal son
take all I need
giving back none
our beauty shows
in such different ways
you're like the light behind the fog
so soft
but still you burn my eyes away
i find my brother in there
deep in my heart
i find my brother in there
hold in my arms
i love you
and if I seem too quiet now
there are no words to show you how
i love you
so much has changed
and so much has happened these years
but still I find that you
are waiting here
we have a bond
that nothing can change
and still I find
a peace of mind
whenever I hear your name
and if I seem too quiet now
there are no words to show you how
i love you

Written by Toad The Wet Sprocket

He has many faces
Full moon cycle changes

Why leave the cages
Why question nature
How is it better
Not in the world and not wanting

He give any reason
Full moon turn of season

Why follow sages
Why ask for heaven
Why give up praying
Nothing is worse than not wanting to

A car in every garage
A chicken in every pot
he has...

Music by: Glen Phillips and Toad
Lyrics by: Glen Phillips

it's hard to rely on my good intentions
when my head's full of things that i can't mention
seems i usually get things right
but i can't understand what i did last night

it's hard to rely on my own good senses
when i miss so much that requires attention
have to laugh at myself sometimes
and i can see that i'm not blind

there's little relief
give us reprieve
for all the things i've left behind
i'm positive that i'm not blind

i'm not afraid things won't get better
but it feels like this has gone on forever
you have to cry with your own blue tears
have to laugh with your own good cheer

it's hard to rely on my good intentions
when my head's full of things that i can't mention
seems i usually get things right
but i can't understand what i did last night

there's little relief
give us reprieve
imagining the world outside
i'm positive that i'm not blind

i can't be hard on you
'cause you know i've been there too
learned a lot of things from you

but life gives little relief
give us reprieve
and when everyone is cold as ice
i clinch my fists and close my eyes
imagining the world outside
but i can see that i'm not blind

Music by: Glen Phillips and Toad
Lyrics by: Glen Phillips

There's an old Virginian vibraphone
With a calculated gait
And a man who thinks he's Al Capone
With a cumberbund and cape

Don't criticize what a vicar would prize in you
And talk to the man if you feel he needs talking to
And the hobbit on the rocks is crying
And the fish upon the docks are dying

There's an orchestra in rococo
and an insulated dwarf
And the ships are sinking in the sea
As they sail from the shores

Don't criticize what a vicar would prize in you

And the hobbit on the rocks is crying
And the fish upon the docks are dying
And the hobbit on the rocks is crying
For the grunion in the sand entwining

Don't criticize what a vicar would prize in you
And talk to yourself if you feel you need talking to

Music by: Todd Nichols and Toad
Lyrics by: Glen Phillips and Todd Nichols

Call and anywhere
I would go
Call and anywhere
I would go

All I'll ever have
I offer
All I need is hope

Call and anywhere
I would go
Call and anywhere
I would go

All I ever am
I offer
All I need is hope

Written by Toad The Wet Sprocket

Been two weeks now
Kitchen stinks now
Finally got the guts to saunter in
And don a pair of gloves

And the janitor sleeping in a drum
Janitor I've become

Bubbles bristles
Thorns and thistles
Liquid sticks to things
That never should be seen by anyone

Like the janitor sleeping in a drum
Janitor I've become

And it amazes me how easily things go away
A chemical for every need
And someone else's problem when I leave

Is the janitor sleeping in a drum
Janitor you'll become
You'll become.

Music by: Todd Nichols, Glen Phillips, and Toad
Lyrics by: Glen Phillips

opened my eyes
the fire had come
not for the end of days
not for the faithless ones
not for vision understood
burns because it has to burn
change'll happen whether we
are still or moving
breathe in waves of doubt
bitter in your mouth
you will exhale cinnamon clouds
when it is quiet and still
i can feel older here
change what i can and pray
the hope will not disappear
when we are not denying anything
nothing is an enemy
delicately balancing
the perfect world
ride these waves of doubt
bitter in your mouth
you will exhale cinnamon clouds
little heaven
riding waves of doubt
turns me inside out
i will exhale primal shout
little heaven
i understand
the fire will come
not for the strength of will
or passion of anyone
i understand
the fire will come
not for the end of days
not for the faithless ones

Music by: Todd Nichols, Glen Phillips and Toad
Lyrics by: Glen Phillips

Soft between these sheets I shiver
I move in time
My thoughts collide and body whispers
Am I alive

This place will speak its language to me
I slip inside
A breath escapes and I fly with it
I'm so alive

I'm alive (3X)

Moving in waves
Caught in a slow landslide
Sleeping still but so alive

(break)

I'm alive (3X)

Moving in waves
Caught in a slow landslide
Sleeping still but so alive

Breathing in waves
Pulling away, rising
Running scared but so alive

(plus mystery lyrics not on the recording:)
I see you on a road I travel
I move in time
The earth forgives my trespass
And I'm alive...

to moonn6pence from shootingstar(papayeverte)





Nothing's so loud
As hearing when we lie

The truth is not kind
And you've said neither am I

But the air outside so soft
Is saying everything
Everything

All I want is to feel this way
To be this close, to feel the same

All I want is to feel this way
The evening speaks, hear it say



Nothing's so cold
As closing the heart when all we need

Is to free the soul
But we wouldn't be that brave I know

And the air outside so soft
Confessing everything
Everything

All I want is to feel this way
To be this close to feel the same

All I want is to feel this way
The evening speaks, I feel it say


And it won't matter now
Whatever happens will be

Though the air speaks of all we'll never be
It won't trouble me


All I want is to feel this way
To be this close to feel the same

All I want is to feel this way
The evening speaks, I feel it say

And it feels - so close
Let it take - me in
Let it hold - me so
I can feel - it say

*it's hard to rely on my good intentions
when my head's full of things that i can't mention
seems i usually get things right
but i can't understand what i did last night

it's hard to rely on my own good senses
when i miss so much that requires attention
have to laugh at myself sometimes
and i can see that i'm not blind

**there's little relief
give us reprieve
for all the things i've left behind
i'm positive that i'm not blind

i'm not afraid things won't get better
but it feels like this has gone on forever
you have to cry with your own blue tears
have to laugh with your own good cheer

*repeat

**repeat

i can't be hard on you
'cause you know i've been there too
learned a lot of things from you

but life gives little relief
give us reprieve
and when everyone is cold as ice
i clinch my fists and close my eyes
imagining the world outside
but i can see that i'm not blind

Are you given vision, are you second sight?
Are you older than your life?
Eighty days of sorrow, endless more in sight
Still you, child, burn bright

And you see me crying again
And you hold out your little hand
Led me shaking to his room
I thought I'd never see again

Close the door behind you, turning out the light
Press a flashlight up against the wall
You say "This is how we knew him
In a little egg
It opened up and this is daddy now."

Now you're stepping back towards me
Till the room is bathing in light
And the answer there before me
There's no ending when we die

Are you sleeping here beside me?
Are you shining bright as the sky?
Are you breathing now inside me?
There's no ending when we die

Been waiting to find
You could've been happier, given the time
If he'd make up his mind
You'd give yourself to anybody who would cross that line

And it was never a question
He was crowing for repair
You'd give him love and affection
But you couldn't keep him there

Get over regret
While you were sleeping with angels
He was under the bed
And the more skin you shed,
The more that the air in your throat will linger when you
Call him your friend

[chorus]

Staring at a cold little hand
Reading fault lines of a shell of a man
You were waiting for a word from above
Wouldn't you know it, no answer ever did come

And it was never a question
You were crowing for repair
You'd give him love and affection
But you couldn't keep him there

She said "I'm fine, I'm okay"
Cover up your trembling hands
There's indecision when you know you ain't got nothing left
When the good times never stay
And the cheap thrills always seem to fade away
When will we fall
When will we fall down

Jump back, gotta get out of here
Been too, too long this time
Jump back, gotta get out of here
When will, when will we fall down

She hates her life, she hates her skin
She even hates her friends
Tries to hold on to all the reputations she can't mend
And there's some chance we could fail
But the last time, someone's always there for bail
When will we fall
When will we fall down

Jump back, gotta get out of here
Been too, too long this time
Jump back, gotta get out of here
When will, when will we fall down
When will we, when will we fall down
When will we fall

She said "I'm fine, I'm okay"
Cover up your trembling hands
There's indecision when you know you ain't got nothing left
For the last time conscience calls
For a good friend, I was never there at all
When will we fall
When will we fall down

Jump back, gotta get out of here
Been too, too long this time
Jump back, gotta get out of here
When will, when will we fall down
When will we, when will we fall down
When will we fall

Paul is making me nervous
Paul is making me scared
Into this room he swaggers, like he's
God's own messenger
Change the name of my brother
Change the things that he said
Says that he speaks to him
But he never even knew the man
I'd give my life for him

Like water through my hands
You'd give him any ending
But if he's all you say
Would he fly from Heaven
To this world again
To this world again...

Take whatever you're needing
Take whatever you can
We're broken from within
Run to another land

Like water through my hands
Or is it just beginning
But if he's all you say
Would he fly from Heaven
To this world again
To this world again...

They took my brother
They ripped him from me
To twist his words as they did his body
Denied his family, denied his beauty
To lay him down at the feet of
Those he couldn't save
Couldn't save, couldn't save

Will it be the end?
Or is he still ascending?
But if he's all you say
Would he fly from Heaven
To this world again

Free my heart to feel again
Free my mind to understand
To run unfettered
Pull the blinders from my eyes
Let me see these endless skies
And drown here where I stand
In the beauty of the land

And all my life
It lay inside
For all my life

Tear this anger from my soul
Wash me clean and leave me whole
Leave me higher
Work my hands to make them strong
Lift my arms to carry on
That anywhere I go, to never be alone

And all my life
It lay inside
For all my life

We were always leaving
Since we started breathing
And running back, no wonder
We are torn asunder

To give me life
To give me life
To give me life

Well I wonder, do we learn?
Seems we're making the same wrong turns
Call you sacred, call you obscene
Call you faithless, call you anything

Call and you listen
Listen (x3)

I'm a liar, so it seems
My desire could justify anything
So is there nothing that lies in between
This cold silence and a scream?

Scream, listen
Listen (x3)

Caught in headlines
We are frozen and cannot hide
There's no break, no time
If you can, I might

Call and you listen
Listen (x7

I can't believe you
You bend your words like Uri Geller's spoons
Not quite safe here
When every judgement seems to smack of doom

Are you ok? I'm just fine
You take Nanci, for me Loretta's fine

A legal precedent could set us straight
But no one's brought up suit
And I'm assuming if they did,
The point would still be moot

Are you joking? No I'm just fine
You take Nanci, for me Loretta's fine
No, I've changed my mind
I'll take nanci, for you Loretta's fine

And still we walk without quite seeing things
And I'll admit there's not that much to see
I will follow through
And expect that you will follow suit

And I can't believe you
You bend your words like Uri Geller's spoons
Not quite safe here
When every judgement seems to smack of doom

Are you ok? I'm just fine
You take Nanci, for me Loretta's fine
No, I've changed my mind
I'll take Nanci, for you Loretta's fine
Loretta's fine
Loretta's fine

I thought I'd be alright today
Thought I'd be alive today
Give me your eyes, I'll show you things
You never dreamed you thought you'd see

I find myself in light I'd seen
In sleep sometimes or mescaline
And like the sun, you can't stare into
For too long without it blinding you

I thought this light would comfort me
I thought it would be easy
There's a tugging at my sleeve
And so much baggage I brought with me to leave

Something so big I can't understand
From trying to I would go mad
So I hurry back to little earth
For another life, another birth
Another life, another birth

Mother

Another day I call and never speak
And you would say nothing's changed at all
And I can't feel much hope for anything
If I won't be there to catch you if you fall

Again (oh again)
It seems we meet (meet and mend)
In the spaces (spaces safe)
In between (between intent)
We always say (say too much)
Won't be long (long been gone)
Oh, but something's always wrong

Another game of putting things aside
As if we'll come back to them sometime
A brace of hope, a pride of innocence
And you would say something has gone wrong

Oh again (again we fail)
Seems we meet (make amends)
In the spaces (wend our way)
In between (between each end)
We always say (looking back)
Won't be long (moving on)
Oh but something's always wrong

And again (again we fail)
Seems we meet (meet amends)
In the spaces (spaces safe)
In between (between each end)
We always say (say too much)
Won't be long (long been gone)
Oh, but something's always wrong
Something's always wrong
Something's always wrong

Four times he came by, I did not look
Talked about the reservoir, his thumbs were hooked
On his carpenter's belt, and he squinted in the sun
Smiled wide many times, I think I smiled back once

And it's frightening, oh,
I didn't expect that from you
It's blinding
Serious, are you seriously
I am feeling really stupid now

Last time on the fly, work had all been done
Sanding down the ceiling so it ends up in the rug
We were waiting in the bedroom till he finished up
One short hi and no goodbye
She said she knew him once

And it's frightening, oh,
I didn't expect that from you
It's blinding
Serious, are you seriously
I am feeling really stupid now
Stupid now

And it's frightening, oh,
I didn't expect that from you
It's blinding
I can't see a thing I see I see
And I am really feeling stupid
I am really feeling stupid now
I am feeling really stupid now

I spend too much time raiding windmills
We go side by side, laugh until it's right
There's something that you won't show
Waiting where the light goes

Take the darkest hour, break it open
Water to repair what we have broken
There's something that you won't show
Waiting where the light goes
Maybe any way the wind blows
It's all worth waiting for

Pull on the borders to lighten the load
Tell all the passengers we're going home

I spend too much time seeking shelter
World without end couldn't hold her
There's something that you won't show
Waiting where the light goes
Maybe any way the wind blows
It's all worth waiting for
Any way the wind blows

Say what I need I kick you down
No I'm fine, and don't you hang around
And I find myself here in another home
Where everything moves so slow
So tired

Take the longest day, throw it all away
I can't stand it but I can't do anything
Everyday's the same, nothing ever change
I can't stand it but I can't do anything

You should know by now we're all liars
Take me where you go, only higher

Take the longest day, waste it all away
I can't stand it but I can't do anything
Everyday's the same, nothing ever change
I can't stand it but I can't do anything
Can't do anything

Anything you want
Anything you want
Anything

Take the longest day, throw it all away
I can't stand it but I can't do anything
Everyday's the same, nothing ever change
I can't stand it but I can't do anything (x3)

Here in another home
Where everything moves so slow
So tired

There she goes
There she goes again
Racing thru' my brain
And I just can't contain
This feelin' that remains
There she goes
There she goes again
Pulsing through my veins
And I just can't contain
This feeling that remains
There she goes
There she goes again
She call my name
Pulls my train
No one else could heal my pain
And I just can't contain
There feeling that remains
There she goes
There she goes again
Chasing down my lane
And I just can't contain
This feeling that remains

There she goes

nothing's so loud
as hearing when we lie
the truth is not kind
and you've said neither am i
but the air outside so soft is saying everything
everything

all i want is to feel this way
to be this close, to feel the same
all i want is to feel this way
the evening speaks, i feel it say

nothing's so cold
as closing the heart when all we need
is to free the soul
but we wouldn't be that brave i know
and the air outside so soft, confessing everything
everything

all i want is to feel this way
to be this close, to feel the same
all i want is to feel this way
the evening speaks, i feel it say

and it won't matter now
whatever happens to me
though the air speaks of all we'll never be
it won't trouble me

all i want is to feel this way
to be this close, to feel the same
all i want is to feel this way
the evening speaks, i feel it say

and it feels so close
let it take me in
let it hold me so
i can feel it say

How can it happen that every time
You ask us this question the answer seems like a lie?
You know what we're saying and you know what it means
And it's always sincere, God knows
But it never gets through to where you need

Before you were born someone kicked in the door
There's no place for you here, stay back where you belong
Before you were born someone kicked in the door
You are not wanted here anymore

God damn the people who left you in pain
God damn the father, without face, without name
God damn the lovers who never showed up
And God damn the wounds that show how deep a word can cut

Before you were born someone kicked in the door
There's no place for you here, stay back where you belong
Before you were born someone kicked in the door
You are not wanted here, stay back where you belong

And how can it happen, now that you know the cause
That nothing is changing and everything's wrong?
But pain is the healing, and the tears sting like alcohol
Just keep on their breathing,
We'll help you down the long, long road back home

Before you were born someone kicked in the door
There's no place for you here, stay back where you belong
Before you were born someone kicked in the door
You are not wanted here anymore

spoken]We saw something gigantic floating on the water
I asked my dad what it was
But he wouldn't tell me anything

In time I will collect the world
The eggs (I love) and wings (the wings)
Of butterflies

A man drove up in an ugly car
And he flashed his lights at everything he saw
And his eyes were red and his stereo was
So loud you couldn't hear the engine's roar
He yelled at everybody in the road
And did not notice all the moths he'd massacred
Spread across the open road

[spoken]His skin flashed open, and all of a sudden there it was,
And I still couldn't tell
And you know when you get so close to something that big
You can't see anything at all

In time I will collect the world You who fall on calvary
The eggs (I give) and wings (my children) Had you wings of
Butterflies

A moth had settled upon his arm and he looked at it with a lazy eye
And he lifted up a gigantic hand and he
Spread his fingers towards the sky
He nudged the moth to make it fly away
But moths are fragile things and
He just wiped its body (x3)
Down across his shoulder blade

He's a wonder, he's a little black-wing boy
Oh, my daughters, he'll fill you with joy

In time I will collect the world You who soar o'er calvary
The hearts (Oh father) and limbs (I offer) of Had you wings of
Butterflies

Take her arms and hold her down, hold her down, hold her down, hold her down
Until she stops moving
Take her arms and hold her down, hold her down, hold her down, hold her down
Until she stops kicking

And they don't know her but what the fuck
They've got nothing else they can do
And they've no reason but still they come
And I'd have a hard time facing you
This crime, I've seen what a man can do

Take her arms and hold her down, hold her down, hold her down, hold her down
Until she stops screaming
Take her arms and hold her down, hold her down, hold her down, hold her down
Until she stops breathing

And they don't know her but what the fuck
They've got nothing else they can do
And they've no reason but still they come
And I'd have a hard time facing you
This crime, the shame of what a man can do
I would've died from all the hell that you've been through

Take the night back, all they've stolen
All we took from you

One part of me just wants to tell you everything
One part just needs the quiet
And if I'm lonely here, I'm lonely here
And on the telephone, you offer reassurance

I will not take these things for granted
I will not take these things...

How can I hold the part of me that only you can carry?
It needs a strength I haven't found
But if it's frightening, I'll bear the cold
And on the telephone, you offer warm asylum

I'm listening, flowers in the garden
Laughter in the hall, children in the park

I will not take these things for granted (x3)
I will not take these things...anymore

To crawl inside the wire and feel something near me
To feel this accepting
That it is lonely here, but not alone
And on the telephone, you offer visions dancing

I'm listening, music in the bedroom
Laughter in the hall, dive into the ocean
Singing by the fire, running through the forest
Standing in the wind, the rolling canyons

I will not take these things for granted (x3)
I will not take these things...anymore

Didn't know they were a part of it, I can't tell
It would seem there's a lot that I don't know
But here I am and I'm
Standing with a perfect view,
I could not go far enough away from you
I've seen it all before and I know it's only words

Hello, I can't hear it's in my ear
Hello, hello

Never meant half of the things I said to you
So you know there's a half that might be true
And here I am and I'm
Standing with a perfect view
I could not go far enough away from you
I've seen it all before and I know it's only words

Hello, have you heard a single word
Hello, hello