From Autumn To Ashes

I'm not wishing anymore
I'm not writing songs for you
I sleep better in the dark
I'm not doing this for you
This is because of you I don't believe
Tongue tied an institute of my relief
You're my, my reason to shame (my reason to shame)
I'm not wishing anymore
I'm not writing songs for you
I sleep better in the dark
I'm not doing this for you
This is because of you I don't believe
Tongue tied an institute of my relief
One wish that this is over
You are all I waste today
Discarded, worthless, throw it away
Will it tear you apart?
Will it?
Will it tear you apart?
When I turn and walk away
Abandoned and not worth the effort
When stalling means
Too fucking scared to create abandoned and not worth the effort
When stalling and too scared
One wish that this is over
You are all I waste today
Discarded, worthless, throw it away
Will it tear you apart?
Will it?
Will it tear you apart?
Will I turn and walk away
I'm not holding onto this
I'm not wasting words on you
I sleep alone in spite of it
I'll do anything for you
This is because of you I feel relief
Tongue tied to instigate what I believe
You're my, my reason to blame (my reason to blame)
I'm not holding onto this
I'm not wasting words on you
I sleep alone in spite of it
I'll do anything for you
This is because of you I feel relief
Tongue tied to instigate what I believe
You're my, (you're my) my reason to blame (my reason to blame)

to moonn6pence from shootingstar(papayeverte)



In you I see further.
Can it last forever?
Identify your patients, XY configurations
Words are lost in your eyes.
One thought inside my heart.
Drop addicts in the mixture, falcons have blown the fixture
Think of me as days pass us by.
Shards of glass
Skin of gold
Steal my breath
Blood runs cold
Violet waves
Oceans blue
All my love
Lost in you
In you I see further.
Can it last forever?
Sinkhole that we would frequent,
White heels safe from extinction
Words are lost in your eyes.
One thought inside my heart.
I said that I don't need you, but I'm a liar, I swear I do, I do
Strip away
Vanity
I do
Just as you
Consume me
I do
Broken smile
Starless sky
I do
Save it all
Say goodbye
You're out in left field, and lacking interest
You fight the boredom but it makes no difference
Your mental health kid, that's what's in question
Keep acting obscure, we'll keep them guessing
The moment ideas are conceived,
They'll be out of touch, obsolete,
They're faking champions hand picked,
And all the fights have been fixed,
You wake to suffer through the day,
Trade a dream for the pay,
Well here's the fact I hope it sticks,
You're just alive out of habit
Shards of glass
Skies of gold
Steal my breath
Blood runs cold
Violet waves
Oceans blue
All my love
Lost in you
Strip away
Part of me
Just as you consume me
Broken smile
Starless sky
End it all
Say good-bye.
Think of me as I say good-bye.

Oh why can't I be what you need?
A new improved version of me
But I'm nothing so good
No, I'm nothing
Just bones, a lonely ghost burning down songs
Of violence of love and of sorrow
I beg for just one more tomorrow
Where you hold me down, fold me in
Deep, deep, deep in the heart of your sins

I break in two over you, oh
I break in two
And each piece of me dies
And only you can give the breath of life
But you don't see me, you don't

Here I'm pinned between darkness and light
Bleached and blinded by these nights
Where I'm tossing and tortured 'til dawn
By you, visions of you then you're gone.
The shock bleeds the red from my face
When I hear someone's taken my place.
How could love be so thoughtless, so cruel?
When all, all that I did was for you

I break in two over you, oh
I break in two
And each piece of me dies
And only you can give the breath of life
But you don't see me, you don't
(x2)


I break in two over you, oh
I break in two over you, over you
I break in two
I would break in two for you
Now you see me
Now you don't
Now you need me
Now you don't

I thought about the end today
The final chapter
The last take.
Ending what is here and what is now
And all there is to come.
No hope for tomorrow, for today.
Through all this talk, on how numb.
There's one just out of reach.
On how numb, and you bet it shows, you bet it shows
Shake downs like these get old,
So now I take my heart in hand,
Bleach out the shades of detriment,
Branded with names that I resent,
Worship on your knees again
Wear it upon my sleeve the end
Ending what is here and what is now
And all there is to come.
No hope for tomorrow, for today
Through all this talk, on how numb.
There's one just out of reach.
On how numb, and you bet it shows, you bet it shows
Shake downs like these get old,
And you bet it shows, you bet it shows
In your eyes I can see
Tomorrow out of reach.
This is detachment
In your eyes I can see
Tomorrow beyond me

All my hopes and all of my dreams
Everything falling in between
Seems to me that the memories
(They) mean more to you than they do to me.
Through the sky and into your eyes.

And I see everything falling in between
Sew the lips right into your smile.

I'm OK with faking this,
I'll fake everything just to slip your kiss.

If I'm a writer, and I'm a poet, I might love you,
But never show it
You should forget me, this is a long tour,
And I'll be back but, not in time for...

If all we speak is rational thought
Everyday I pray for the sadness.
(My) eyes are black, my throat full of sickness

And I'll be listening, but not for long
Everyday I pray for the sadness.
(My) eyes are black, my throat full of sickness

The words I write, are cheap and trite,
But they're drawn on the back of your door
Surrounded by, numbers that,
Remind of the ones before

All my hopes and all of my dreams
Everything falling in between
Seems to me that the memories
(They) mean more to you than they do to me.
Through the sky and into your eyes.

And I see everything falling in between
Sew the lips right into your smile.

I'm OK with faking this,
I'll fake everything just to slip your kiss.

The words I write, are cheap and trite,
But they're drawn on the back of your door
Surrounded by, numbers that,
Remind of the ones before

The words I write, are cheap and trite,
But they're drawn on the back of your door
Surrounded by, numbers that,
Remind of the ones before

My lips are cold.
The truth is told.

M 4 V T C N H
Might need to provide this number at the gate
Steady pilot cause I'm half afraid
can't believe you’d ask me that, course I don't believe in fate
Would you be depressed?
If I attend that wedding
But only as a guest
Such an unfaithful bride
Draped in a dress
threads of mine
Sing it loud to drown out the feeling
When you're feeling much more odd than
And half as true as dishonored seamen
We’ll breathe Pacific and fight our demons

Would you be depressed?
If i attend that wedding
But only as a guest
Such an unfaithful bride
Draped in a dress
friends of mine

So arch your back
And flip your hair
Make eye contact so you know I care(x2)

You know I care.

But only as a guest
Such an unfaithful bride
Draped in dress
threads of my

Let Go
Let Go

Begin, present, fade out,
Judgement please don't fail me now,
This time, this time
A lesson learned is a picture burned,
You're a memory to me,
Upon ignition come bear witness to the greatest therapy,
So begin, present, fade out,
Judgement please don't fail me now,
That was the day I put your picture aside.(This time)
And Swallowed the fact that our dream had died. (This Time)
Every time you close your eyes,(This Time)
You should be seeing me.(Time)
This Time
Every time you close your eyes
Every time you close your eyes
You should be seeing me.
As you lay in bed at night, I'll be there in your dreams.
So so sorrows in, in that what you heard?
That you can cash in, on what we wrote,
Helpless isn't the right word but it's the first that comes to mind,
There's worse things than being unknown,
I think in time I'll get by
That was the day I put your picture aside.
Swallowed the fact that our dream had died.(get by)
Every time you close your mind,(get by)
You should be seeing me.(get by)
Begin, present, fade out,
Judgement please don't fail me now
(You're to die for.
Life means more.
Out of sight.
With no light.) 4x

The sound of my breath flutters past your ear
Tearing down fear
Grasp your heart strings by their frayed ends to choke down the feeling left inside
The sands of time slide down your cheek in the form of liquefied dreams
Each one stands for more than the next
You give yourself to all but you
To take all you had and give all thats left
How could you have been so blind?
The shallow waters that you come upon, show how empty your life truly is
You look into the vast nothingness to see something that is not there
You try to discern where to go from here
You try to make sense of this confusion that you have inside (your heart)
And how you can get there.


[this van is on a one way trip we'll rock it straight to hell,
our Crue is Motley and our theatres filled with pain,
across the creek and into your home,
be there by eight because she doesn't want you any other way]
But by a force unknown (held back)
Deep inside you, your veins tied in knots
Bind your blistering hands
To keep you in this world forsaken
As you leave your wilting soul behind.

Creation imperfect
Do you defy this?

Could you and
your swollen
ego fit
into my
master plan
for failure?

I take the shame to heart
and lock it away in a place thats sees not the
light of day

I will use it when i see your face again

your head in your hands and this is my cue,
if three words could heal you i would only speak two,
your eyelids grow heavy and this is my cue,
If three words could heal you i'd only speak two

How
could you think
after all you put me through


and all you put on my shoulders
that i
would answer your
cries for help?

How
could you think
after all you put me through
and all you put on my shoulders
that i
would answer your
cries for help?

Unleash the rage built up (in my throat)
Show you how you hurt me and
hopefully you see
you have the power
to
destroy
my will to live

This is the end result of so many meetings at late night dinners with no one eating,
we sit in corners and sip burnt coffee,
count the tiles up on the ceiling,
lets skip the pretense and cut straight to dying,
just dont beg me to keep your eyes from crying,
you said so much without even parting your lips,
its past 3am and i'm still far from sleep,
and this is a habit i cant break,
you're my only company,
i'm skipping stones down a suburban street,
street lights flicker like this match in my hand,
it was begging to strike,
I keep repeating but this payphone tele stopped receiving,


flat out of change now and i'm sure you won't accept the charges,
its all the same because by morning i'll be halfway to colarado,
or someplace like that,
she keeps on asking "do you think it hurts much to die?"
its hurting so much more to stay alive now,
shes gonna find out how much it hurts to die
she laced her perfume up with death,
i feel it in my lungs,
so i'll pull in the deepest breath and drop my head

In a world of despair, our lives will end
Some without warning, while others die by design
Under watchful eyes, we tread on evil ground,
With jaded eyes around us each step is scrutinized
(in the pouring rain, we speed this car, i try so hard,
Wish i was more prepared for this time, you shouldn't have passed before me)
In this life we lead, a choice will be made
Where we go from here, when our time is done
At the gates of heavan, angels stare at us
May they lead you home to where you'll live in peace?
You take without warning
(i'll shut myself up and black out the windows)
As we sit and wait
(its best to consider me dead as well)
Breath in take a life
(i'm hoping in time i'll get over)
Breath out, cleanse your soul
(i might be fine when i get older..no way)


You took her life
I gave you mine, to ease the pain of my soul, to show you how much shes meant to me
I will fight for our lives and take them to our graves
In a world of despair, our lives will end
Some with out warning, while others die by design
Under watchful eyes we tread on evil ground,
With jaded eyes around us, each step is scrutinized
I will defy you
The evil from above
Open my mind
Let you in
I will not forgive the sins you made
You took her life from me.

I felt you slip away
Far away from me
Further from me
You seem to drift far away
I caught myself wishing you back, as i fight to catch you
Anger wells inside me
I see me, frowning, in your eyes
(I see the fear in you where no one should ever be,
I find myself striving to catch you from
This will hurt me less and less every time until i feel nothing)
I see my reflection and the pain scripted across my face, set in stone
Anger wells inside of me
I see me, frowning in your eyes
Far away from me
Further from me
You seem to drift far away
I caught myself wishing you back as i strive for you
(She said "its not that i don't love you anymore,
But it would be much more accurate to say that i never loved you in the first place)
I put the fear in you where no one should ever be
Nothing to me
Everything to you
Nothing to me
Everything to you.

Here you stand seething with guilt.
Silence only justifies this act of cowardice.
The look stapled on your face cries out for forgiveness,
the one thing that I cannot give.

(Did you ever see that one person
and the way they do these things
and it hurts you so much it's like choking...choking)

I can give you freedom from your guilt,
with a flick of my wrist onto yours.
I can give you peace of mind with a forced smile.

I can give you death with the look upon my face.

This is your freedom in a life of fallacy,
with no last kiss & no regrets;
you don't deserve good bye.
This is your freedom in a life of fallacy,
with no last kiss & no good bye.

Here you stand seething with guilt.
Silence only justifies this act of cowardice.
With a short story, the one you add to daily, you are the tragic loss.
No story book ending for this fairy tale of you.
Just the one composed with blood taken from your pen that you hold in your lifeless hand.
Cry for you. Shed tears. Mourn. Wish the end.
Cry for you. Shed tears. Mourn. Wish the end.
Mourn, wish the end
Mourn, wish the end
Mourn, wish the end

Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person,
and the subtle way that they do these things and it hurts so much?
So much like choking down the embers of a great blaze.
It's that moment when your eyes seem to spread aspersions
and to scream confessions at the insipid sky parting clouds.
You let this one person come down in the most perfect moment.
And it breaks my heart to know the only reason you are here now is a reminder of what I'll never have...
I'll never have... I'll never...
Standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in...
standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in...
But this table for one has become bearable.
I now take comfort in this, and for this, I cherish you.
Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person
and the subtle way that they do these things and it hurts so much?
So much like choking down the embers of a great blaze.
It's that moment when your eyes seem to spread aspersions
and to scream confessions at the insipid sky parting clouds.
And you let this one person come down...come down...I cherish you...I cherish you.
Just say that you would do the same for me...
just say you would do the same for me...
just say you would do the same...
just say you would do the same, for me
For as much as I love Autumn,
I'm giving myself to Ashes.

You break my heart into a thousand pieces, and you say it's becuase I deserve better?
You break my heart
You break my heart
You break my heart
You break my heart into a thousand pieces, and you say it's becuase I deserve better?

Emotionless grey skies bleed somber dreams of sorrow
Blackened unseen heart tears a virgins godlike innocence from its pristine palace
Paint sarcastic smiles upon new wounds
Tears of misery stain scar filled minds
Hatred new like tomorrow flows from bitter memories
Purity now embraced by sinful ideals why
Lifeless tomb rests weary with prowling peering eyes
Silence falls upon deaf ears covered by night
Alone in thought, shaking
Biting tongues of lead at unfit moments
Screaming disbelief with no faith in site



[and her disgust has no borders, no limits to strive for,
she bends and breaks to the rules set by the weak]

She's finally seen she's a beautiful girl with a smile so grand she could stop the world
Stolen her skin he sews her mouth shut, means nothing to him, her screams just die out
As she cries out here voice dies out
As she cries out her voice dies out
Love once inside her heart, lay in my hands
Was it asked for?
Was it implied?
What could have been done?
Inside her mind dies.

Darkness chokes my emotions
Your breath numbs my soul
Stand with me, by my side
Take my hand and lead the way
Out from the shadows and into the real world
Show me how to live a life owned by regret
My blood runs cold, lifeless in shame
Now is the time, to right the wrong
Inside my veins, poison words lie
Within a mind as guilty as yours
take what is left inside of me
I've no use for it
Stained with thoughts uncaring, open and let me in
[it spun my head when i thought you were talking to me,
i guess i'm just a fool for thinking your thinking of me,
and now, I press my fist to the pillows wishing it was your teeth]
Show your world, deceit
Let me live as you, Need not to feel


Emotions rain down
Drowned by innocence, thoughts escape me
Harsh words spit blindly and open paths of life
Take all that is me, a lifeless somber soul
Curse the day you wake as solace sets in
Darkness chokes my emotions
Your breath numbs my soul
Stand with me, by my side
Take my hand, and lead the way
Out from the shadows and into my world
[My soul is not for you to own]
I will not live life to see your face anymore.

The sound of my breath flutters past your ear
Tearing down fear
Grasp your heart strings by their frayed ends to choke down the feeling left inside
The sands of time slide down your cheek in the form of liquefied dreams
Each one stands for more than the next
You give yourself to all but you
To take all you had and give all thats left
How could you have been so blind?
The shallow waters that you come upon, show how empty your life truly is
You look into the vast nothingness to see something that is not there
You try to discern where to go from here
You try to make sense of this confusion that you have inside (your heart)
And how you can get there.


[this van is on a one way trip we'll rock it straight to hell,
our Crue is Motley and our theatres filled with pain,
across the creek and into your home,
be there by eight because she doesn't want you any other way]
But by a force unknown (held back)
Deep inside you, your veins tied in knots
Bind your blistering hands
To keep you in this world forsaken
As you leave your wilting soul behind.

Creation imperfect
Do you defy this?

Could you and
your swollen
ego fit
into my
master plan
for failure?

I take the shame to heart
and lock it away in a place thats sees not the
light of day

I will use it when i see your face again

your head in your hands and this is my cue,
if three words could heal you i would only speak two,
your eyelids grow heavy and this is my cue,
If three words could heal you i'd only speak two

How
could you think
after all you put me through


and all you put on my shoulders
that i
would answer your
cries for help?

How
could you think
after all you put me through
and all you put on my shoulders
that i
would answer your
cries for help?

Unleash the rage built up (in my throat)
Show you how you hurt me and
hopefully you see
you have the power
to
destroy
my will to live

In a world of despair, our lives will end
Some without warning, while others die by design
Under watchful eyes, we tread on evil ground,
With jaded eyes around us each step is scrutinized
(in the pouring rain, we speed this car, i try so hard,
Wish i was more prepared for this time, you shouldn't have passed before me)
In this life we lead, a choice will be made
Where we go from here, when our time is done
At the gates of heavan, angels stare at us
May they lead you home to where you'll live in peace?
You take without warning
(i'll shut myself up and black out the windows)
As we sit and wait
(its best to consider me dead as well)
Breath in take a life
(i'm hoping in time i'll get over)
Breath out, cleanse your soul
(i might be fine when i get older..no way)


You took her life
I gave you mine, to ease the pain of my soul, to show you how much shes meant to me
I will fight for our lives and take them to our graves
In a world of despair, our lives will end
Some with out warning, while others die by design
Under watchful eyes we tread on evil ground,
With jaded eyes around us, each step is scrutinized
I will defy you
The evil from above
Open my mind
Let you in
I will not forgive the sins you made
You took her life from me.

I felt you slip away
Far away from me
Further from me
You seem to drift far away
I caught myself wishing you back, as i fight to catch you
Anger wells inside me
I see me, frowning, in your eyes
(I see the fear in you where no one should ever be,
I find myself striving to catch you from
This will hurt me less and less every time until i feel nothing)
I see my reflection and the pain scripted across my face, set in stone
Anger wells inside of me
I see me, frowning in your eyes
Far away from me
Further from me
You seem to drift far away
I caught myself wishing you back as i strive for you
(She said "its not that i don't love you anymore,
But it would be much more accurate to say that i never loved you in the first place)
I put the fear in you where no one should ever be
Nothing to me
Everything to you
Nothing to me
Everything to you.

Here you stand seething with guilt.
Silence only justifies this act of cowardice.
The look stapled on your face cries out for forgiveness,
the one thing that I cannot give.

(Did you ever see that one person
and the way they do these things
and it hurts you so much it's like choking...choking)

I can give you freedom from your guilt,
with a flick of my wrist onto yours.
I can give you peace of mind with a forced smile.

I can give you death with the look upon my face.

This is your freedom in a life of fallacy,
with no last kiss & no regrets;
you don't deserve good bye.
This is your freedom in a life of fallacy,
with no last kiss & no good bye.

Here you stand seething with guilt.
Silence only justifies this act of cowardice.
With a short story, the one you add to daily, you are the tragic loss.
No story book ending for this fairy tale of you.
Just the one composed with blood taken from your pen that you hold in your lifeless hand.
Cry for you. Shed tears. Mourn. Wish the end.
Cry for you. Shed tears. Mourn. Wish the end.
Mourn, wish the end
Mourn, wish the end
Mourn, wish the end

Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person,
and the subtle way that they do these things and it hurts so much?
So much like choking down the embers of a great blaze.
It's that moment when your eyes seem to spread aspersions
and to scream confessions at the insipid sky parting clouds.
You let this one person come down in the most perfect moment.
And it breaks my heart to know the only reason you are here now is a reminder of what I'll never have...
I'll never have... I'll never...
Standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in...
standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in...
But this table for one has become bearable.
I now take comfort in this, and for this, I cherish you.
Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person
and the subtle way that they do these things and it hurts so much?
So much like choking down the embers of a great blaze.
It's that moment when your eyes seem to spread aspersions
and to scream confessions at the insipid sky parting clouds.
And you let this one person come down...come down...I cherish you...I cherish you.
Just say that you would do the same for me...
just say you would do the same for me...
just say you would do the same...
just say you would do the same, for me
For as much as I love Autumn,
I'm giving myself to Ashes.

You break my heart into a thousand pieces, and you say it's becuase I deserve better?
You break my heart
You break my heart
You break my heart
You break my heart into a thousand pieces, and you say it's becuase I deserve better?

Emotionless grey skies bleed somber dreams of sorrow
Blackened unseen heart tears a virgins godlike innocence from its pristine palace
Paint sarcastic smiles upon new wounds
Tears of misery stain scar filled minds
Hatred new like tomorrow flows from bitter memories
Purity now embraced by sinful ideals why
Lifeless tomb rests weary with prowling peering eyes
Silence falls upon deaf ears covered by night
Alone in thought, shaking
Biting tongues of lead at unfit moments
Screaming disbelief with no faith in site



[and her disgust has no borders, no limits to strive for,
she bends and breaks to the rules set by the weak]

She's finally seen she's a beautiful girl with a smile so grand she could stop the world
Stolen her skin he sews her mouth shut, means nothing to him, her screams just die out
As she cries out here voice dies out
As she cries out her voice dies out
Love once inside her heart, lay in my hands
Was it asked for?
Was it implied?
What could have been done?
Inside her mind dies.

Darkness chokes my emotions
Your breath numbs my soul
Stand with me, by my side
Take my hand and lead the way
Out from the shadows and into the real world
Show me how to live a life owned by regret
My blood runs cold, lifeless in shame
Now is the time, to right the wrong
Inside my veins, poison words lie
Within a mind as guilty as yours
take what is left inside of me
I've no use for it
Stained with thoughts uncaring, open and let me in
[it spun my head when i thought you were talking to me,
i guess i'm just a fool for thinking your thinking of me,
and now, I press my fist to the pillows wishing it was your teeth]
Show your world, deceit
Let me live as you, Need not to feel


Emotions rain down
Drowned by innocence, thoughts escape me
Harsh words spit blindly and open paths of life
Take all that is me, a lifeless somber soul
Curse the day you wake as solace sets in
Darkness chokes my emotions
Your breath numbs my soul
Stand with me, by my side
Take my hand, and lead the way
Out from the shadows and into my world
[My soul is not for you to own]
I will not live life to see your face anymore.