Engine

All along I never knew that it was looking for me
And it's still around even though it would never hurt me
And the monster has no fear
Even though I feel it's near

I close my eyes to this and
I feel the darkened room of you

And I know the monster wants me
I'll never know why

And I feel the tortured feelings that could never touch me
Crawling all around the ground and they are clawing for me

And the monster it draws near
Something dark is happening
Want to blend into the gray
It will all be over soon

And I know the monster wants me
I'll never know why

It's getting dark inside

I can see the star that you
Hang above your halo
I can feel your cold steel stare
I can feel your heart too
I feel you
With your heart in hand
And your nervous sigh
Are you nervous now
I am alone in this world
And you're never going to take it away
As I lay in darkness
I feel the cold around me
Feel the frozen arms of you
And the solace you bring
I feel you
With your heart in hand
And your nervous high
Are you nervous now
I am alone in this world
And you're never going to take it away
I won't follow you down
And all you say is
Hey it's okay
I've felt your heartache
I am alone in this world

Is this how it ends
With a box of photographs in the closet
Is this how it ends
To fly away right in front of me
Is this how it ends
A failing star crashes in the ocean
Is this how it ends
It falls apart right in front of me
As the fog is lifted I can see with clarity
The machine it falls apart if not put together well
Is this how it ends, like failing stars crashing in the ocean
Is this how it ends, a fading light burning with the foreign you
As December rain falls, a discovery is made
Other paths were chosen
Somehow lost we'll find our way
Is this how it ends like failing stars crashing in the ocean
Is this how it ends a fading light burning with the foreign you
And you looked away
Moving closer faster
Speed of light it hurts my eyes
Moving farther faster falling stars in the sky

I am the one I have to face
All of the things I can't erase
The past is one to always haunt tomorrow
In my defense I can't defend
The fact that I have always been
The one to take what's been given to me
As for desire I've seen the face
Of urban want and urban need
I wonder if you need an explanation
Handed all that I could taste
Faced with more than I could face
I've had a lot of insecurities
All the things I want
All the things I need
I wanted to pretend that I was wrong
But I had my own thoughts
My own desires
Handed all that I could taste
Faced with more than I could face

So I belong to fortunes gone
I'm lucky in life
I've seen the signs and felt your mind
I want to be high
HEY, I love it when you teach me how to hate you
Sweet candy smile it fades awhile
And then you give life
Have to forget there's nothing left
It's all about time
HEY, I love it when you teach me how to hate you
HEY, I love it when you teach me how to hate you
Look through your eyes and see your sky
Is darker than mine
Your charm your face
Your lovely face you've got me inside

All the years that pass me by
I still wonder why
You left it all behind
You turned away
So I found it on my own
Desire
And you never did look back
To see what I've become
One of forgotten sons
You never knew
So I found it on my own
Desire
I found it on my own
Desire
I'll bear this cross you've left behind
Wish we'd talked about it then
I still remember
Don't know what I would have said
But it's too late
I'll bear this cross you've left behind

You're staring out to sea
You wonder where you would be
If everything you are somehow
Were different in a way
Your life was not the same
A billion things led up
To this time
If you were born another time
You could travel through the rain
On a European train
Your destination ends ahead
Maybe you live on a desert plain
Waiting for the rain
You would never be the same somehow
If you were born another time
If the tree of life were broken
And you never were who you are
It's a curious mix of fate
And your destiny has its place
If you were born another time