Gazpacho

The holy waters of the blackened seas
A gulf that separated you and me
The shadows as they weep
A dog will chase its tail
The beauty of creation is alien
The solitude is your relief

Sunlight through the wall
Slamming of the door
The snake curled up in sleep
The rustle of the trees
You swore you would return
The hell is the others
And the heaven is a hell

It’s my own
It’s my story
All alone
It’s a defense mechanism
Fight or flight

Doesn’t matter
At least you’re not asleep
Your debts are paid in silver
And your last coin’s in the deep.
You think you want a taste of madness?
I think you know the taste of that wine…

A tower shining white
The stone within the plum
Don’t you know what they know?
The devil hates the sun
The brewer of the liars
Won’t need me for a while
The killer wears a blue suit
But I’m not wearing mine.

Fight or flight
It’s my own
It’s my story
All alone
It’s a defense mechanism

Watch them go by tired
All these beggars
Stage is soaked with sweat
And waltzing dead men
Whistling in alleys
Carpool tomorrows
Sealed and stamped with sorrow
Wasted, wounded
Now that I kissed her
Canned chatter
Burnout gold dust
Bury the dagger
Cain and Abel
Thoreau
Now that I kissed her

It’s a defense mechanism

I am the one you see
As breath upon your window
I am the voice you hear
Crows on the wire
Crows on the wire

I’m watching you
And I’m on fire

The faith is gone and love
Is gone with your disease
Dead black cherry trees
Can whisper of their sweetness

If you never come to see us
Sink into your soul
Please don’t wake me up
From dreamless sleep

I was never here

Don’t ask me again, what I’ve been doing
You know too well, you know too well
The thing that might surprise you even now is how
I’ve desensitized, I’ve specialized

What I did was make for me a special place
Of disassociated perfect peace
I find it suits my moods and needs so very well
What I became, what I became

There is no match, there’s nothing you can say
To change my mind, to change my mind

What I did was make for me a special place
You’ve lost me now, you’ve lost me now
The disassociated peace you knew so well
Is in this shell, in this shell

What I did was make for me a special place
Of disassociated perfect peace
I find it suits my moods and needs so very well
What I became, what I became

Noises
Water
The river runs into the dawn

Discarded bones
Reappear
As time to love and time to hate

Rush in my ears
Where the elements descend
Chance does not make change
So all your worries where fake

And I know just how you feel
All this indifference
In the world you made for her
Lives on

And now
Words are slow
The river runs the river knows

So now it wants
To get back to you
Dull is the sum of misery

They say give us flowers
So we roll in the mud
Every day that I burned
How to do and not be done

With the taste of ashes in a fire

And I know just how you feel
The indifference
Every time you look away
Mad and dead as nails

I never even stopped
And so it stopped for me
The touch of its hand is memory
A kiss to lead the blind
In water I hear slamming of doors
St. Christopher beneath the rocks
An empty dream of summer fields of daisies
Perfect endings
Stingless and sane
I want it now
All good is hard

Eggshell dome
With the greenest grass
Here inside
The seat of power
Can’t get out of here
As its drawing near
You can’t love a stranger

As the early warning awaits you
Transform the morning light
There’s something on the dirty red horizon
Can’t be erased

You can’t believe it
You go on
Inventing
You spit out words
Like you mean them
You’ve never believed it
You go on draining the fountain
You’ve wasted so long and
Now she’s a stain across the sky

The water is climbing
In here is only me
The road is turning
Her eyes are glazed and green

Your life was silver ribboned
And your love was like a shroud
The world is full of answers
Can you forget somehow?

It was clothes without a person inside
Just flesh and bone with a diamond ring
A machine with a set of keys
And the dome where I keep my dream
Wasn’t meant for you to ever see
So I trusted the queen of spades
And lost it all, lost it all indeed

She’s awake now
In the cold night
Life is rushing in upon her from her window

She slept with faith to invent herself
And found a corpse on awakening
Like stories from another time she hears
The broken wind chimes

A wild feast
On a cruel sea
Where the weakest link is strong
In ecstasy
It’s you and me
You love and hate me
Vera, Vera
I’ll do anything

So you tell me
Why are the low men stronger?
So you tell me
To the candlelight and silver waltz

For the want of a life
Where the knife doesn’t stab so hard
For the want of some love
For the life of a stranger
For the good in the world

You can’t touch
Its coat tails
You know that birds sing after a storm
Delight in
What remained behind

So you tell me
Does a robot feel at all
Can you tell me
If happiness is born from desire

But I was lost in the ocean
All this good in the world
Every day that we learn from
All good that we heard was there

But I ever only understood it backwards
The dizziness of freedom on the wave
Running for the shadows
Things will never change
The tyrant is opinion
The hardest thing you’ll ever do is leave

The time will come
When breathing screams to breath
The will to live
The hour when the ship comes in

All you give
As the main sails lift
And the boats are sailing for the shore
The hour when you ship comes in

In candlelight
Where being is just being
There’s a silence feasting
In light it’s floating
Through a void the whole world could never fill

You charge windmills
But the snail sits still
As the ocean beats upon the shore
Of freedom in the chaos within

In candlelight
Where being is just being
There’s a silence feasting
In light it’s floating
Through a hole the whole world could never fill

When all of the swallows pass me by
They still make summer just a memory
You’re still the road where I was led
I think you always were, I think you always were

And so you pound upon the door until you break
As if your will alone could be enough
But your will is a thousand miles away

Here on the giants shoulder
The eye of the endless wave
The light is aglow and you’re alone

I know there’s always be a stowaway
In my head is the burden like a landslide

Purple clover
Moon faced queen
Crimson’s name is legion
If the price is right

Tell me one more time
Like you used to do
Though the shadow is large
Light will show the truth
Who you used to be
When I held your hand
Why did I comply?
If I did not believe

And all it took was all I could make it

So if your memory serves you well
You may remember what you have done
You call on me to talk to them
And later question why I’m gone
Well every plan you’ve had has failed
There is nothing more to say
Your judgements made by someone else
Did their wisdom serve you well?

Absence is fire
Hearts are whitest coal
Embers ghosts that die within
The dream is exploding
Letters never read
Stuck in our night of waiting

[…]

Purple clover
Moon faced queen
Crimson’s name is legion
If the price is right

Tell it to the starfish
Tell it to the souls
Tell it to the stranger
That everybody knows
Turn this lesson of silence
Her eyes, her eyes are upon you now
Her tears will flow upon you now
So
Tell it to the starfish

You solved beauty
You saw beauty

Tell it to the starfish
Tell it to the ghosts
Tell it to the enemy
Taking your control
Her eyes, her eyes are upon you now
“You sold your name”