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Silence disguised
I watch you Show me the hurt that haunts you would you despise the thrill If all you hide were mine? I can't hold on any longer These feelings keep growing stronger Echoes that deafen the mind will bury my voice in their wake Caught in a Web Removed from the world Hanging on by a thread Spinning the lies devised in my head I've seen the path the one you take shows the truth for you to make This turn of phrase we might not see is the thirst of desire found so easily Try to push me 'round the world some more And make me live in fear I bare all that I am made of now Attractive I don't care 'Cause even when I danced with life no one was there to share Does this voice the wounds of your soul? Caught in a Web Removed from the world Hanging on by a thread Spinning the lies devised in my head Tried to live the life you live and saw It doesn't work for me I bare all that I am made of now Attractive, I can't be Inside the Dance of Life is one I'll never hold to me You can't heal the wounds of my soul. Caught in a Web Removed from the world Hanging on by a thread Spinning the lies devised in my head Caught in a Web Refused by the world Hanging on by a thread Spinning a cage Denied and misread |
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| 2. |
| 5:42 | 
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| 3. |
| 6:44 |
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| 4. |
| 9:54 |
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Love just don't stare
He used to say to me every Sunday morning The spider in the window The angel in the pool The old man takes the poison Now the widow makes the rules So speak I'm right here She used to say to me not a word not a word Judas on the ceiling the Devil in my bed I guess Easter's never coming So I'll just wait inside my head Like a scream but sort of silent living off my nightmares Voices repeating me Feeling threatened We reflect your hopes and fears Voices discussing me Others steal your thoughts they're not confined within your mind Thought disorder Dream control Now they read my mind on the radio But where was the Garden of Eden I feel elated I feel depressed Sex is death Death is sex Says it right here on my Crucifix Like a scream but sort of silent living off my nightmares Voices protecting me Good behavior brings the Savior to his knees Voices rejecting me Others steal your thoughts they're not confined to your own mind I don't wanna be here 'cause of my suffering 'cause of my illness Only love is worth having only love is what matters loving every people on equal terms You've got to know who you're dealin' with because like a stranger a heh just might come in through here with a gun and then what would you do Everything is immaterial n' you know that reality is immaterial This is not reality I'm kneeling on the floor staring at the wall like the spider in the window I wish that I could speak Is there fantasy in refuge God in politicians Should I turn on my religion These demons in my head tell me to I'm lying here in bed Swear my skin is inside out Just another Sunday morning Seen my diary on the newsstand Seems we've lost the truth to quicksand It's a shame no one is praying 'Cause these voices in my head keep saying Love just don't stare Reveal the Word when you're supposed to Withdrawn and introverted Infectiously perverted 'Being laughed at and confused keeps us pleasantly amused enough to stay Maybe I'm just Cassandra fleeting Twentieth century Icon bleeding Willing to risk Salvation to escape from isolation I'm witness to redemption heard you speak but never listened Can you rid me of my secrets Deliver us from Darkness Voices repeating me Feeling threatened We reflect your hopes and fears Voices discussing me Don't expect your own Messiah This neverworld which you desire is only in your mind |
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| 5. |
| 3:48 |
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A question well served,
'Is silence like a fever?' 'A voice never heard?' 'Or a message with no receiver?' Pray they won't ask Behind the stained glass There's always one more mask Has man been a victim of his woman, of his father? if he elects not to bother, will he suffocate their faith? Desperate to fall Behind the Great Wall That separates us all When there is reason Tonight I'm Awake when there's no answer Arrive the Silent Man If there is balance tonight He's Awake If they have to suffer There lies the Silent Man Sin without deceivers A God with no believers I could sail by on the Winds of Silence And maybe they won't notice But this time I think It'd be better if I swim When there is reason Tonight I'm Awake When there's no answer Arrive the Silent Man If there is balance Tonight he's Awake But if they have to suffer There lies the Silent Man |
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| 6. |
| 6:46 |
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Temptation-
why won't you leave me alone? Lurking Every Corner, everywhere I go -Self Control- Don't turn your back on me now When I need you most Constant pressure tests my will My will or my wont My Self Control escapes from me still .... Hypocrite- How could you be so cruel and expect my faith in return? -Resistance- Is not as hard as it seems When you close the door I spent so long trusting in you I trust you forgot Just when I thought I believed in you... It's time for me to deal Becoming all too real living in fear,- Why did you lie and pretend? This has come to an end I'll never trust you again It's time you made your amends Look in the mirror my friend Let's stare the problem right in the eye It's plagued me from coast to coast Racing the clock to please everyone All but the one who matters the most Reflections of reality are slowly coming into view How in the hell could you possibly forgive me? After the hell I put you through It's time for me to deal Becoming all too real living in fear Why'd I betray my friend? Lying until the end Living life so pretend It's time to make my amends I'll never hurt you again |
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| 7. |
| 6:34 |
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Daybreak
at the bottom of lake it's a hundred degrees I can't breathe And I won't get out 'til I figure it out though I'm weak like I can't believe So you tell me "trust me" l can trust you just let me show you But I gotta work it out in a shadow of doubt 'cause I don't know if I know you Doing fine but don't waste my time tell me what it is you want to say You sin, you win, just let me in--hurry I've been out in the rain all day So you tell me "trust me" I can trust you as far as I can throw you And I'm trying to get out of a shadow of doubt 'cause I don't know if I know you Don't tell me you wanted me Don't tell me you thought of me I won't, I swear I won't {Did) I'11 try, I swear I'll try (Lie) Mother Mary quite contrary kiss the boys and make them wary things are getting just a little bit scarry It's a wonder I can still breathe Never been much of a doubting Thomas but nothing breaks like a broken promise You tell me 'bout your two more coming but once is just enough for me I had gotten used to being a soul destroyed She comes in apparently to fill the void All dogs need a leash and at least I'll forget it And she would never hurt me though she's never said it But I'm not gonna ask her today I don't wanna scare her away Your town, I'm all alone and I just can't stare at the phone I wanna talk about lifelong mistakes and you can tell your stepfather I said so |
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| 6:05 |
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He seems alone and silent
thoughts remain without an answer Afraid and uninvited he slowly drifts away Moved by desire and fear Breaking delicate wings Lifting shadows off a Dream once broken She can turn a drop of water Into an ocean As the rain is pouring down Tears of sorrow wash his mind Drifting with the current This stream of life flows on He seems alone and silent waiting on his hands and knees The chill of winter's darkness sits quietly Moved by desire and fear he takes a few steps away Lifting shadows off a Dream once broken She can turn a drop of water Into an ocean And she listens openly He pours his soul into the water reflecting the mystery She carries him away and the winds die slowly Lifting shadows off a Dream once broken She can turn a drop of water Into an ocean Lifting Shadows off a Dream |
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| 9. |
| 10:59 |
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To Rise, To Fall.
To Hurt, To Hate. To Want, To Wait. To Heal, To Save. Can't hear it. we fear it awareness won't come near it Distractive Reactive Disguised in spite of time I never bared my emotions My passion always strong I never lost my devotion but somewhere fate went wrong Can't let them rape me again Your venom's not family here won't let them fill me with fatalistic remedies What if the rest of the world was hopelessly blinded by fear? Where would my sanctity live? Suddenly nobody cares. It's never enough you're wasting your time isn't there something I could say? You don't understand You're closing me out How can we live our lives this way? You tell me I'm wrong I'm risking my life Still, I have nothing in return I show you my hands You don't see the scars Maybe you'll leave me here to burn. What if the rest of the world was hopelessly drowning in vain? Where would our self pity run? Suddenly everyone cares, Blood...Heal me Fear...Change me Belief will always save me Blood...Swearing Fear...Staring Conviction made aware Give up on misery Turn your back on dissent Leave their distrust behind Wash your hands of regret Do you feel you don't know me anymore? And do you feel I'm afraid of your love? And how come you don't want me asking? And how come my heart's not invited? You say you want everyone happy Well, we're not laughing. And how come you don't understand me? And how come I don't understand you? Thirty years say we're in this together So open your eyes. People in prayer for me everyone there for me Sometimes I feel I should face this alone My soul exposed It calms me to know that I won't Blood...Heal me Fear...Change me Belief will always save me Blood...Swearing Fear...Staring Conviction made aware Give up on misery Turn your back on dissent Leave their distrust behind Wash your hands of regret Blood...Heal me Fear...Change me Belief will always save me Blood...Swearing Fear...Staring Conviction made aware Learning from misery Staring back at dissent Leaving distrust behind I'm inspired and content |
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| 10. |
| 7:29 |
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Falling through pages
of Martens on angels Feeling my heart pull west I saw the future dressed as a stranger love in a space dye vest Love is an act of blood and I'm bleeding a pool in the shape of a heart Beauty projection in the reflection Always the wrost way to start Now that you're gone I'm trying to take it Learning to swallow the rage Found a new girl I think we can make it as long as she stays on the page This is not how I want it to end And I'll never be open again There's no one to take my blame if they wanted to Nothing to keep me sane and it's all the same to you There's nowhere to set my aim so I'm everywhere Never come near me again do you really think I need you And I'll smile and I'll learn to pretend And I'll never be open again And I'll have no more dreams to defend And I'll never be open again |
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