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I'm such an asshole
God, I'm such a stain I just keep fucking up again and again I Don't Believe I Don't Believe That I could be so stupid and so naive I Don't Believe I Don't Believe That there is nothing, nothing left for me You crawled into my mind when you crawled into my bed Said everyhting I've ever longed to hear So perfect, so alive, once inside you sucked me dry Used me up and left me here for dead I don't believe That I could be so stupid and so naive I don't believe That there is nothing, nothing left for me I crave it desperately, a cancer eating me An addiction too intense to be denied Worthless, I'm a whore, crawling back for more It's pathertic how I feed off this abuse I don't believe That I could be so stupid and so naive I don't believe That there is nothing, nothing left for me You told me that you loved me And I believed, you loved me You swore that you loved me, and I believed Now I know it was a lie I don't believe That I could be so stupid and so naive I don't believe That there is nothing, nothing left for me I don't believe That I could be so stupid and so naive I don't believe That there is nothing, nothing left for me |
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| 2. |
| 4:54 |
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If only see myself
reflected in your eyes So all that I believe I am essentially are lies And everything I've hoped to be or ever thought I Died with your belief in me so who that hell am I? I don't know if I'm real without you What is left of me without you? I don't know whats real without you How can I exist without you? I'm wondering 'round confused Wondering why I try The more that you deny my pain The more it intensifies... I need someone to ache for me the way I ache for you... If you ignore that I'm alive I've nothing to cling to I don't know if I'm real without you What is left of me without you? I don't know whats real without you How can I exist without you? I stare in this mirror So tired of this life If only you would speak to me or care if I'm alive Once I swore I would die for you But I never meant it like this I never meant like this no i never meant like this I don't know if I'm real without you What is left of me without you? I don't know whats real without you How can I exist without you? |
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| 3. |
| 4:07 |
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you make it hard to breathe
it's as if I'm suffocating and when you're next to me I can feel your heartbeat through my skin it makes me sad to think this could all be for nothing I wish there was a way a way for you to see inside me I've never felt this way about anyone or anything Tell me! what do I have to do to make you happy? what do i have to do to make you understand? what do i have to do to make you want me? and if I can't make you want me what do i have to do? I know exactly what you're thinking but I swear this time I will not let you down I'm not as selfish as I used to be that was a part of me that never made me proud right now I think I would try anything anything at all to keep you satisfied God I hope you see what losing you would do to me all I want is one more chance, tell me what do I have to do to make you happy? what do i have to do to make you understand? what do i have to do to make you want me? and if I can't make you want me what do i have to do? what do I have to do to make you happy? what do i have to do to make you understand? what do i have to do to make you want me? and if I can't make you want me what do i have to do |
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| 4. |
| 6:08 |
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I am not here
I think I've never been here at all or ever will be I feel like a place Where no one goes anymore Why can't you see that everything's Why does it seem this life's broken? turned gray? I can't believe in anything sacred When I don't believe that I am real It seems so bizarre But none of this matters Thoughts disappear, hope has died Now I am safe, nothing can hurt me here Why can't you see my need for forgiveness? The truth and the lies confused as one I can't believe in anything sacred When I don't believe in anything I am alone Locked in my memories Why does it seem that everything's different? Why does it seem that only you are real? I don't believe in anything sacred So, why do I feel so damned alone? I need someone to break the silence That's screaming in my head And in my soul |
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| 5. |
| 3:44 |
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I feel your lips
I taste your skin I need to know I need to feel you from within As your blood burns through my skin I feel complete I breathe you in It's where you end and I begin If only I could stay here...forever So much to tell you So much to confide Now that I'm inside you We are flesh We are one So why do I feel so much guilt for what I've done? As your blood burns through my skin I feel release I breathe you in It's where you end and I begin If I could only stay here...forever So much to tell you So much to give you So much to confide Now that I'm inside you inside you |
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| 6. |
| 3:57 |
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I'm tangled and broken
Left scattered on the floor Its useless now There pieces Can never make me whole This is where it falls apart You wither You blister I watch you burn and peal It's not like you Can save me It's not like you even care This is where it falls apart I feel helpless as my everything comes Crashing down on me This is where it falls apart This is where it falls apart |
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| 7. |
| 3:21 |
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wasted thoughts of you
desperate prayers to you give me back my mind I'm empty inside And it's so wrong that I need you it's so wrong that I need abuse And it's so wrong that I need you so wrong that I'm scared I'll die alone what have I become? everything's undone a candle burns here in your honor my soul, a shrine i've built for you there's nothing left inside me nothing left inside but you And it's so wrong that I need you it's so wrong that I need abuse it's so wrong that I need you so wrong that I'm scared I'll die alone can't seem to pretend this night needs to end I can't fill this hole you are all i know And it's so wrong that I need you it's so wrong that I need abuse And it's so wrong that I need you so wrong that I'm scared I'll die alone |
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| 8. |
| 4:20 |
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I'm feeling that weight of the world and It's crushing me
I'm feeling the weight of everyday life And it's crushing me How much more will it take? How much more until it breaks me? This world...is crushing me I'm feeling the hate of the world and it's crashing me I'm feeling the hate of everyday life And it's crushing me How much more will it take? How much more until it breaks me? This world is crushing me I'm feeling the hate of the world and it's crashing me I swallow the hate, betrayed and lies Swallow it whole and shove it deep down inside of me I'm feeling the weight of the world and it's crushing me I swallow the hate, betrayed and lies Swallow it whole and shove it deep down inside of me How much more will it take? How much more until it breaks me? This world is crushing me |
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| 9. |
| 5:20 |
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She's beem here so many times
Before she can't remember When she last felt anything at all But this fear and anger She states intently at the door, Listens for his footsteps She knows exactly what's in store And the knowing makes it worse When he calls her daddy's little girl, She doesn't keep him And when he crushed her She can't feel her screems are silent Hides in the corner of her mind Where she plays contentedly She leaves this night more far behind Escapes inside her dreams Floating high above her bed Staring at her father's head Wishing one of them were dead So this hell could finally end |
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| 10. |
| 6:15 |
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I feel it slipping away
I gave it all and no one cared I feel it slipping away I got it slipping away I gave it all and no one cared I feel it slipping away I feel it slipping I feel it slipping away No more pain, no more fear I feel it slipping away I feel it slipping I feel it slipping away I just can't learn to forget Now I'm choking on the memories Choking on regret I tried but I can't find a way To untangle all the pieces After they've been thrown away I feel it slipping I feel it slipping away I will not suffer this loss Of you again and again and again I refuse to continue to live In this perpetual nightmare I decide it ends right here I feel it slipping I feel it slipping away I feel it slipping... slipping Everything is slipping away |
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