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| 1. |
| 3:52 | 
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As I walk along these streets
I see a man that walks alone Distant echo of peoples feet He has no place to call his own A shot rings out from a roof over head A crack head asks for change nearby An old man lies in an alleyway dead A little girl lost just stands there and cries What would you do, if it was you Would you take everything for granted like you do? A boy just 13 on the corner for sale Swallows his pride for another hit Overpopulation there's no room in jail But most of you don't give a shit That your daughters are porno stars and Your sons sell death to kids You're so lost in your little worlds Your little worlds you'll never fix What would you do, if it was you Would you take everything for granted like you do? You turn away As I walk along the streets Soaking up the cold rain Underneath the taxi cabs I hear the streets cry out in vain What would you do, if it was you Would you take everything for granted like you do? |
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| 2. |
| 3:23 |
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I just need this to be all right
I can't feel this another night I can't take this I come unglued I just need this to be alright I can't feel this another night I can't take this I come unglued I might breakdown in front of you necessary to medicate I'm not sleeping, can't stay awake Can't see through this Too much pressure Drowning in this Too much pressure If you need me I'll be here Half unconscious to escape my fear I can't take this I come unglued I might breakdown in front of you necessary to medicate I'm not sleeping, can't stay awake Can't see through this Too much pressure Drowning in this Too much pressure My head hurts this shit isn't getting me high My chest is so tight am I going to die My stomach's in knots and the room starts to spin As I wait for this valium to slowly kick in Can't see through this Too much pressure Drowning in this Too much pressure TOO MUCH PRESSURE! |
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| 3. |
| 4:03 |
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I try to breathe
Memories overtaking me I try to face them but The thought is too much to conceive I only know that I can change Everything else just stays the same So now I step out of the darkness that my life became 'cause I just needed someone to talk to You were just to busy with yourself You were never there for me To express how I felt I just stuffed it down Now I'm older and I feel like I could let some of this anger fade But it seems the surface I am scratching Is the bed that I have made So where were you? When all this I was going through You never took the time To ask me just what you could do I only know that I can change Everything else just stays the same So now I step out of the darkness that my life became 'cause I just needed someone to talk to You were just to busy with yourself You were never there for me To express how I felt I just stuffed it down Now I'm older and I feel like I could let some of this anger fade But it seems the surface I am scratching Is the bed that I have made I never meant to fade... Away I NEVER MEANT TO FADE I just needed someone to talk to You were just to busy with yourself You were never there for me To express how I felt I just stuffed it down Now I'm older and I feel like I could let some of this anger fade But it seems the surface I am scratching Is the bed that I have made I try to breathe... |
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| 4. |
| 4:25 |
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It's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high Since I first saw you Since I could stand on my own two feet again Since I could call you But everything I can't remember as fucked up as it all may seem the consequences that I've rendered I've stretched myself beyond my means It's been awhile Since I could say that I wasn't addicted Subce I could say I love myself as well Since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you But everything I can't remember as fucked up as it may seem The consequences that I've rendered, I've gone and fucked things up again. Why must I feel this way Just make this go away, Just one more peaceful day It's been awhile Since I could look at myself straight Since I said I'm sorry Since I've seen the way the candle lights your face But I can still remember just the way you taste But everything I can't remember as fucked up as it all may seem to be I know it's me I cannot blame this on my father he did the best he could for me It's been awhile Since I could hold my head up high and it's been awhile since I said I'm sorry |
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| 5. |
| 3:35 |
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If ever you had said to me before
That I would live this life that I am Living now I guess it's all so strange To feel the way I do inside but Have so much that I could feel some Pride for in my life so why is it that I feel like this How do I feel? I've been here before, I've felt this Retreat to a place, a place within me I need this. Keep it all down, bottled inside It breaks me to torment again and Torture me like it used to I try and try to break away from all the hate I'm feeling for everyone of you that's ever Done me wrong. I need to justify the reasons For the way I'm living. I guess I can't cause I don't feel like I deserve it So now the waves they have subsided And my soul is bleeding I can't take away The shame I feel, forgive me |
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| 6. |
| 2:49 |
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Respect, respect what is found
Respect should abound Respect everything that you leave I can't believe Can't believe And I, I can't believe I can't believe all the travesty Surrounding me, I, I want to flee I want to flee from everything In front of me I Can't believe Never again, trusted in you Fuck everything that you think I should be I stand, never again, never again Can't believe |
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| 7. |
| 4:19 |
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Your words to me just a whisper
Your face is so unclear I try to pay attention Your words just disappear 'Cause it's always raining in my head Forget all the things I should have said So I speak to you in riddles 'Cause my words get in my way. I smoke the whole thing to my head And feel it wash away 'Cause I can't take anymore of this, I want to come apart, or dig myself a little hole Inside your precious heart 'Cause it's always raining in my head Forget all the things I should have said I am nothing more than A little boy inside That cries out for attention, Yet I always try to hide 'Cause I talk to you like children, Though I don't know how I feel But I know I'll do the right thing If the right thing is revealed 'Cause it's always raining in my head Forget all the things I should have said |
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| 8. |
| 4:00 |
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Suffer
The more you see the more you do The television's feeding you. With what You want to hear, anger and fear, because you suffer The hate you feel won't go away you're all programmed to feel this way to live another day within a world That loves to suffer And then I come to find everything's O.K. seen this all before but that was yesterday. I try to walk right through the messes that I've made just let me enjoy the life here that I've made I've tried to give it all to you. Can't take anymore to do with this. It hurts inside. I know why I hide 'cause I suffer I tried to keep it all inside didn't leave me too much pride forced it all down inside forced myself to make me suffer And then I come to find everything's O.K. seen this all before but that was yesterday. I try to walk right through the messes that I've made just let me enjoy the life here that I've made And then I come to find |
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| 9. |
| 4:35 |
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another day inside my world
im married to you and this road this road that do not let me sleep so theres no way to escape these demons i am forced to keep then i find, you here thru your eyes everythings clear and im home inside your arms but im alone for now i mean the best with what i say it doesnt always sound that way i never learned to work things out cuz in my family all we ever seemed to do is shout then i find, you here thru your eyes everythings clear and im home inside your arms but im alone for now and when i try to sleep the drugs i take are killing me i think of you to ease my pain but youre so far and now its time to say goodbye i love you baby, please dont cry then i find, you here thru your eyes everythings clear and im home inside your arms but im alone for now |
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| 10. |
| 3:27 |
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To my mother, to my father,
It's your son or it's your daughter, Are my screams loud enough for you to hear me? Should I turn this up for you? * I sit locked inside my head Remembering everything you've said This silence gets us nowhwere! Gets us nowhere way too fast! The silence is what kills me I need someone here to help me But you don't know how to listen And let me make my decisions 'Cause I sit here locked inside my head remembering everything you've said The silence gets us nowhere! Gets us nowhere to fast! All your insults and your curses make me feel like I'm not a person And I feel like I am nothing but you made me so do something 'Cause I'm fucked up because you are Need attention, attention you couldn't give * Repeat |
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| 11. |
| 4:52 |
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And you
Bring me to my knees Again All the times That I could beg you please In vain All the times That I felt insecure For you But I leave My burdens at the door But I'm on the outside And I'm looking in I can see through you See your true colors 'Cause inside your ugly Your ugly like me I can see through you See to the real you All the times That I felt like this won't end Was for you And I taste What I could never have It's from you All the times That I've tried My intentions Full of pride But I waste More time than anyone But I'm on the outside And I'm looking in I can see through you See your true colors 'Cause inside your ugly Your ugly like me I can see through you See to the real you All the times That I've cried All this wasted It's all inside And I feel All this pain Stuffed it down It's back again And I lie Here in bed All alone I can't mend But I feel Tomorrow wil be OK But I'm on the outside And I'm looking in I can see through you See your true colors 'Cause inside your ugly Your ugly like me I can see through you See to the real you |
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| 12. |
| 3:56 |
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Your mother came up to me
She wanted answers only she should know Only she should know It wasn't easy to deal With the tears that rolled down her face I have no answers cause I didn't even know you But these words They can't replace The life you The life you waste How could you paint this picture? Was life as bad as it should seem? That there were no more options for you? I can't explain how I feel? I've been there many times before? I'm tastinthe cold steel of my life crashing down before me But these words they can't replace The life you The life you waste Did daddy not love you? Or did he love you just too much? Did he control you? Did he live through you at your cost? Did he leave no questions for you to answer on your own? Well fuck them And fuck her And fuck him And fuck you For not having the strength in your heart to pull through I've had doubts I have failed I've fucked up I've had plans Doesn't mean I should take my life with my own hands But these words They can't replace The life you The life you waste But these words They don't replace The life you The life you waste |
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| 13. |
| 3:38 |
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I feel like this won't go away
no matter how hard I try to squeeze my eyes shut so i can't see the pain in you this pain in me - in me But everything that I can say to you Won't help you - everything you need is right in front of you Just take it I know that I am really not here to represent what I am not clear About in my head sometimes I feel fucked up just like you do - like you do But everything that I can say to you Won't help you - everything you need is right in front of you Just take it Try to make it through the daily pain That you feel - maybe tomorrow won't be so bad. It know it 'cause I once felt that way Nothing I could say Made it go away I lived through this I still feel this I just live for my tomorrow Make it go away Just make it go away She'll make it go away |
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| 14. |
| 4:31 |
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And it`s been a while since I could
hold my head up high And it`s been a while since I first saw you And it`s been awhile since I could stand on my own two feet again And it`s been a while since I could call you And everything I can`t remember It`s fked up as it always seems The consequences that are rendered I`ve stretched myself beyond my means And it`s been a while since I can say that I wasn`t addicted, and, And it`s been a while since I can say I love myself as well and It`s been a while since I`ve gone and fed things up just like I always do, And it`s been a while but all that st seems to disappear when I`m with you And everything I can`t remember, It`s fked up as it always seems, The consequences that I`ve rendered, I`ve gone and fked things up again, yeah Why must I feel this way, Just make this go away, Just one more peaceful day And it`s been a while since I could look at myself straight, And it`s been a while since I said I`m sorry, And it`s been a while since I`ve seen way the candles light your face, And it`s been a while but I can still remember just the way you taste And everything I can`t remember, It`s fked up as it always seems, to be (I know it`s me) I cannot blame this on my father He did the best he could for me And it`s been a while since I could hold my head up high, And it`s been a while since I said I`m sorry |
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