Damien Jurado

I woke up this morning
With death at my window,
Singing.
Come out, come with me,
It's friendship that i seek,
And conversation.
I left you a widow,
A dress made of shadow,
You can't see through.
While he's out swimming,
He leaves you drowning in sorrow.
You've convinced me
He loves you
But he doesn't love you like i do.
And i'll bring you treasure,
A love you can't measure
And i live
With a hard knock
A castle
And a grave site you can't sleep in.
So while he's out swimming,
He leaves you drowning in sorrow.
While he's out swimming,
He leaves you drowning in sorrow.
Grow old with me
Grow old with me
Grow old with me

I fell in love with a girl of nineteen
A black-haired girl i called abilene
'young girl, where's your husband?'
'sadly,' she replied, 'i do not have one.'
'then it's you i'll marry with your parents' permission.'

'no, fine sir, they will not let me marry
For i am a young girl
And you are a man without money.'
'then i'll come by your window
Tonight when they both will be sleeping

Outside your window
In a carriage, i will be waiting
They'll awake, find you gone,
Rub their eyes, and think they're dreaming.'
And never did they think
That their abilene would leave them

'now, fine sir, where is it you shall take me?
Is it in the mountains high
Or is it the deep blue sea?'

First came the scream and blood on the floor
The alcohol and magazines
In my flashlight you were a star
A razor blade that cuts you clean

Smile for the camera take off that dress
Twenty dollars for a kiss
It's me who made you
It's me who will take you

I am not an evil man
I just have a habit I can't kick
It starts with an urge
And ends with picking up the phone
I ain't finished yet

I would rather hide behind you or stand in your eclipse
The sun does not move e like it used to...
Neither do you

And Greenland I am with you... I was once unwanted.
In the front seats all with strangers I too was Earth's ceiling
I lost all feeling

And now I'm in your shadow
I am motionless
I am black

I'll be a crash landing who can change the landscape talking
And when I begin to stutter the land will be shaking
God will be clapping

I have fell victim to you
Troubles I have seen, many years
From high windows I have called you
So come, save me from this fire

Forget all who hurt you, they don't know you
Come rest your tired body in my arms
From the bedroom I have called you
So come, save me from this fire

And I have bad dreams
I've done so many bad things
So come, save me from this fire

It's like I told you
You'll never be as good
And there's someone always better
To take your place

Once you were the first in line
Now you're in the back
Receiving cards and thank you letters
PS please don't come back

It's like I told you
You'll never be as fast
And there's someone always faster
To take your place

Once I told you things look brighter
And now they're turning black
In this world without a compass
And you can't find your way back

It's like I told you

Once I told you that things look brighter
And now they're turning black
In this world without a compass
And you can't find your way back

It's like I told you

Made a big decision
Think I left you out
Made a big decision
Think I left you out

Got a lot of problems
Think I'll work it out
Got a lot of problems
Think I'll work it out

Made a big decision
Think I left you out
Made a big decision
Think I left you out

Got a lot of problems
Think I'll work it out
Got a lot of problems
Think I'll work it out

Here comes that big let down
It anchors your soul
In sadness she left you
Holding your own

Where's the love that binds us?
Not this time
Where lies the true forgiveness?
Not this time

Here comes that big let down
It anchors your soul
In sadness she left you
Holding your own

Where's the love that binds us?
Not this time
Where lies the true forgiveness?
Not this time
Do you think you could forget this?
Not this time
Can you please erase this?
Not this time

Now the sun is coming out
It's better than the rain
I finally wipe away the clouds
Leave me here and

Maybe I'll be fine
As long as I have you on the right

So much easier to get out
I'm breaking from my cage
Kill the lights and burn it down
Leave the keys and

Maybe I'll be fine
As long as I have you on the right

Castles that you're building
Eventually come falling down

I will try to erase it all
From my mind, it's easy

People who you talk about
Eventually will find you out
People who you talk about
Eventually will hunt you down

I will try to erase it all
From my mind, it's easy

I would come out just see you
Dancing freely by the sunset
Like the sun you’d shine brightly

We’d spend hours by the curbside
Telling stories under streetlights
How your words would amaze me

Now those days are gone
Slowly they slip away
Now those days are gone
Slowly..
...

I still go out by the old house
Where I met you our first summer
Where are you now, you’re with another

I am sitting by the curbside
Where we’d hang out under streetlights
How those times still are with me

Now those days are gone
Slowly they slip away
Now those days are gone
Slowly..

Smoke that cigarette and down another drink
Call your other In Crowd friends instead of calling me

And it's who's got what and what can I take
Take what you got just try to make a fast break
It's who's got what and what can I take
Well I'll take what you got just try to make a fast break

Just sit down and go dancing

Smoke that cigarette and down another drink on me
Well you've got better things to be done
Than to be seen with me

Well it's who's got what and what can I take
Take what you got just try to make a fast break
It's who's got what and what can I take
Well I'll take what you got just try to make a fast break

Just sit down, there's no dancing

Winter, put on your coat
They're expecting a cold one

Plenty of ice and snow
On the North Dakota plains

December, you killed a man
Trapped in his car for hours

He couldn't call for help
'Cause all of the lines were down

I found him in his car, hands stuck to the steering wheel

Winter, I found it out
How you can be so cruel

Boy you just watch you back
'Cause one day I'll kill you too

I'll find you in your car, hands stuck to steering wheel
I'll find you in your car, hands stuck to steering wheel

She walked in with sadness in her eyes
I could tell she'd been sleeping with the stars
"Well hello I'm dawn..."
"Yes I've seen you around..."
"I just live down from here..."

She has a dad she doesn't know
Who sends her letters with no return address...
"I don't know his name..."
"He don't know my face..."
"I am better off this way..."

On the weekends I drive her into town
In a car that I borrowed from my mom
She makes hotel beds
Where the sidewalks end
And I wait for her to come home...
Please come home

The one day she finally stops coming around
My best friend said she probably moved out of town
Not a letter was sent...
Not a phone call was made
And I hope she comes back here
Someday

Tell me when tomorrow comes
I'll be the first to ride
Start the car and honk the horn
I'll be right outside

Pour a drink and open wide
I have things to tell
I have seen the brighter side
Of the roads that lead to hell

Yesterday is miles away
You'll miss it if you blink
And I've found my salvation in
The places where you drink

You can say you're on my side
And I know that's a lie
'Cause given the chance you'd stab my back
And leave me here to die

Just give me the keys tonight
I'm happy when I drive
Revenge is the perfect word
For what I have in mind

Desert lives bring deserted lives
I know from first hand
We're moved around like circus clowns
When laughter's in demand

Let's pull over ahead
Brake failure and a flat tire
No water no power and an engine fire

If I kill you can I call you collect
I don't mean to be a bother
To make you upset
50 miles of broken bones
I've got 50 miles of broken hearts
Something tells me that
How long is this ___ or maybe that way

Here's a road map let's find Nevada
We've got places to stay
Busted taillights and no water
And sunburns and an engine fire

I used to be a someone you would run to
My eyes, they were the windows you would look through
Now much to your surprise looking through these eyes
You found beauty

I used to be a someone you would talk to
My eyes, they were the windows you would look through
Now much to your surprise looking through these eyes
You saw beauty
Now much to your surprise looking through these eyes
You found it

I was born in this town
My name taken from here
3 sisters and a brother
Who all died before me

When wickedness takes you
Like a child of it's own
Nobody will befriend you
Nobody will defend you

I murdered the law here
I took on God here
So in place of your sins I bring you Judas

So mother, burn my body
For fuel
Oh, mother, burn my body
For fuel

They say I'm a story
But the legend's all wrong
I was forced out of town
But kept in this song

See it was you who made me
It is you who must take me
Love me or hate me
I'm still your son

So mother, burn my body
For fuel
Oh, mother, burn my body
For fuel

So mother, burn my body
For fuel.

I quit my job
I moved away
I kept in touch
With all my old friends

From time to time
I hear about you
Are you still married?
Are you still happy?

How about your sister
Is she still running?
I ran into her
Last year in Denton

She spoke so quiet
Like I remember
I asked about you
She gave no answer

I'd always planned
To come back for you
But we both know how
You'd never leave

This gasoline makes on fine drink
All I need is trouble
Flicker in the sunlight dawn
They'll find my dead body cold
I used to wither just like winter
And now all I am is useless

So now is the time
To say all I wished I could have said
But I can't get my tongue out
And I can't get my sword to work
I'll just talk loads of bullshit anyhow

Your mother in torn garments
Like Jesus Christ denied
Blood in all her pockets
And you inside her eyes

Let's shut it down

Let's kill the lights

I've see you walk desert highways
Come on out they're waiting for you
Mother lost her one and only
Fear the worst for dead are many

And I've seen the ghost of David
In the house of his childhood
Forget him not, still he loves you
Life is short but love's eternal

Come on out we're waiting for you
Come on out we're waiting for you

Have the potential to be great today
Everyone I know will see the change
To be greater than I have before
Drawing lines that drag me to the floor

You could be so much better

Something tells me that you're on my side
Feeding me words that one day will kill my pride
You're too much for me that's what you said
You're too much for me that's what you said

I see potential
You'll be so much better

You could be so much better

I spent the last night in your bedroom sleeping
Your head was laid upon my pillow dreaming

Is this the first time baby
Is this the last time, well maybe..x2

I’d spend the last night in your room
Kicking these wishes to the moon
to the moon..

I spent the last night in your bedroom sleeping
Your head was laid upon my shoulder dreaming

Is this the first time baby
Is this the last time, well maybe..x2

I’d spend the last night in your room
Kicking these wishes to the moon.. x2
to the moon..
...

Is this the first time baby
Is this the last time, well maybe

Is this the first time baby
Is this the last time,
maybe...

Standing with my feet deep in the ground
Was I nothing but a landslide in your mind?
Am I no one until someone calls me out?
Are you just pretending when we talk?

You should have seen me
Keeping watch at dawn

Picture now a car ride through the plains
Where east meets west and only sky remain
Were you faking death to only gain concern?
The cut out lights and signals told us wrong

You should have seen us
Carefree behind the wheel

Lover I am still here breaking chairs
Will I ever be the hero in your song
Or forever in your shadow so unseen?
Trapped between the lines that you write down?

You should have told me
Broken jaw and all
Crippled in your glory
Restless till my death

I stood alone there in the driveway
Till I saw your headlights fade
Disappear
Burn out like stars
A Chevrolet train that rolls in the night

I must have had a hundred nightmares
Of you falling asleep at the wheel
I send my prayers
Where are you now?
I am still here and going nowhere

Here is a photo of our first baby
Here is a photo of our wedding day
Nothing has changed
My love still the same
I am still here and here I remain

When you come back we'll have a party
We'll hang up the christmas lights
You'll be my bride
I'll be your groom
I miss you so much please make it home soon

Your mother said that you called this morning
"Tell him I love him, but won't be returning"

Hello dessert heat
When did you leave me undone?

A bastard son to the wind
It blows me your direction

The houses in the meadows
Have all but shed their skin
And now a boneless shadow
That lies among the lillies

How long can you keep your distance
Who shall be my witness
How long can you keep your distance
Who shall be my witness

The mountain said to his daughter
The hill shall be your husband
So leave me now volcano
To destroy all God has given

How long can you keep your distance
Who shall be my witness
How long can you keep your distance
Who shall be my witness
How long can you keep your distance
Who shall be my witness
How long can you keep your distance
Who shall be my witness

I can't get over
No, i can't get over you
Seems no matter what i do
I can't get over you

I have tried sleeping
Just to get over you
And i have tried dreaming
But all of my thoughts were of you

I can't get over
No, i can't get over you
Seems no matter what i do
I can't get over you

It seems no matter what i do
I can't get over you
No, i can't get over you

He motioned to me from across the street
His arms waving madly "Come over to me"
I saw the panic as he approached
We both ran quickly to the house
Where the windows were shot out

He lay there bleeding on the floor
My mother beside him screaming "Dear Lord...
Someone shot my boy"

I held his hand till the ambulance came
Then onto a stretcher they took him away
I followed close from the car behind
The lights and the sirens both dull in my mind
November 9

Killed by a bullet from a jealous gun
It rattled his eyelids and pierced through his lungs
The damage now done

He was seem by her lover the night before
Swearing to kill him outside her door
To her defense my brother walked out
Raising his fist and screaming "Get out...
It's me she's with now!"

Hotel hospital the tears burned my eyes
I slipped into the nighttime and deep into dying
Without even trying

I did not recognize you.
You're playing with your face
Through your eyes I do despise you
There's not a person that I hate
But you.

When I could reach you from a distance
When I could sail upon the horizon
I left behind all those who mattered
The memories gone, they're foggy to me

You'll see

I will not argue with you
There's only blackness in your heart
In the buildings that you tore down with your mind

No on told me you had feelings
They kept it secret and away from me
What would I give to have them silent
Their mouths all taken from them

When I could reach you from a distance
When I could sail upon the horizon
I left behind all those who mattered
They're all not gone, just blurry memory

You'll see

I will not argue with you
There's only blackness in your heart
In the buildings that you tore down
With your mind