Gaze

the words you left behind
when you blurted out so little
feed my insecurities and leave me wondering
exactly who you are
and in the sunny spot
everything feels fine
but do you even care
and do you ever wonder too
you torture me with
your understanding
and maybe someday
i will have the time to dwell
on the silly things you said
that bothered me so much
did i make it all shady
was it silly too
should we trace back our steps
or just forget that whole damn thing
you always treat me like i
dont have a clue
the condescension you think you hide so well
is painfully obvious
secret smiles, pats on the head
ultra-knowing nods
despite the fact i can predict
what you're gonna to say
i still have no idea what you're thinking when you do

you think you have me figured out
but you don't really know me in the least
i don't want what you want
i don't care what you think

red, orange, yellow, green, pink and blue
jelly-beans are good for you
red, orange, yellow, green, pink and blue
if you're me they're hard to chew
red, orange, yellow, green, pink and blue
sometimes it all feels so new
red, orange, yellow, green, pink and blue
do you think its true?

you think you have me figured out
but i'm sick of hearing
your theories and your musings
on what's best for me

red, orange, yellow, green, pink and blue
jelly-beans are good for you
red, orange, yellow, green, pink and blue
stick to my teeth like glue
red, orange, yellow, green, pink and blue
finally i can see through you
red, orange, yellow, green, pink and blue
do you think so too?

you think you have me figured out
but you don't and your assessment
and your evaluation of my situation
i don't need
i don't need

how are you doing?
i just wanna know if you're alive
can you tell me it's better now
give me a simple yes or no
i can't talk to you
cause i'm afraid of what i'll say
just go to sleep
we'll see another day
but i have to turn away
i can't look you in the eye
if i pretend it's all alright
it'll feel like such a lie
remember words on napkins
stored in a safe place for all to see
do you remember what they said?
do you ever have time?
can i close the shades?
shut your eyes, rest your head
just don't go, just don't go
if you will, tell me now
please

how are you doing?
is life treating you better than i did?

you said you couldn't be it
you said the time was bad
our lives shouldn't entwine
what happened, you asked
it isn't good for me
i'm not ready now
you're not gonna wait
so you'd better move on
so now i've layed you in a box
on a piece of tissue paper
all my crumpled memories
the good ones and the bad
i closed the box shut tight
tied it with a string
put it on a shelf at the back of my mind
i'll never let you out
thats not what i planned
i'll keep my eyes closed tight to miss
your smile and your heart
whenever i see you
alone or with her
pease don't be surprised if
i blink and walk away

when will you say hello
when will you say hello to her
when will you look her in the eye
cause you look the right way
and you say the right thing
sorry i can't help but stare
at those unassuming words
yeah she knows that there's a loser inside
and she can't help but wish
that your beauty was thicker than you
will you tell her your dreams
or will you tell her what you like to eat
will you tell her you could care less
cause if you could she will walk away
right now
if you do she might stick around
anyway

don't kill yourself
she doesn't like you
any more than she does
a cute face in a crowd
she sees you
do you see her?
or do you see what you want her to be?

when will you say goodbye?
cause you're looking pretty down
think its time you both went away
and time is moving pretty slowly

if that's what you said
then if that's what you really mean
then if you want me to believe you
then what do you expect from me
i don't believe in that
and i think you know that's true
what then would you rather have me do?

you can do whatever you want
whatever you wish
you can do this
because i know you're just jealous

bang my fists against the wall
and crack the bricks until they bleed
if you aren't straight with me
then neither am i going to be
make a wish upon a star
until it falls from the sky
if you never said those things
then look me in the eye

pink puffy sweaters
short short skirts
little maryjanes
knee-high socks
like cotton candy thats been out all day
you look pretty sweet but he'll throw you away
your high pitched squeals
make my ears sore
bat your eyelashes a little more

(repeat)

he used to live in a glass bubble
we thought he was untouchable
he was safe from all the world
all it took was just one girl
he'll follow you wherever you go
how do you have him at your fingers so?

(repeat)

only you know when i look back
do i believe you
you said you were scum
you were right
all those time i was watching them
thinking how sweet
you were only watching her
thinking of yourself
when you said you were living through me
living through him
i never once thought that you
wanted her to like you as much as he did
you ruined my
plans never seem to work out
shouldn't plan, never hope
should've quit before i began
when i was far behind you
playing songs on the radio but i
forgot to make sure you were listening
perking your ears to his words
charming her with your silhouette
and elegance
moments like this seem so unreal
wonder what my hope was spent on
magic's a dream that fades in the sun
she's looking at me but thinking of you

the pages are tattered and torn
turn them away from me please
he's floating through time and space
no notice of where he has been
he's floating through time and space
no need to know where he will be
falling through time and space
doesn't know where he'll be again
trapped in a place far from here
all he has are his memories
of where he's been and where he will be
falling through time and space
no need to know where he'll be
falling through time and space