Life Of Agony

I used to spend my time thinking I'll be fine
Murder isn't crime, I witnessed you commit and smile
Rusty breeze, let me in your casualty
Mellow leaves, you're falling from an angry tree
An angry tree

And everybody is slipping over the edge
And everybody is
And everybody is slipping over the edge
And everybody is

Everyday that's slipping, come closer, the quicker to death
Drink up the magic potions, now you see me in your head
Rusty breeze, let me in your casualty
Mellow leaves, you're falling from an angry tree
An angry tree

Can you see the world I see?
Everybody slips including....me

Forget everything I've said before, I don't feel that way today
Forget everything I've felt before, I felt it come yesterday

I'm comfortable feeling miserable
And I never want to change

Forgive me for I know not what I've done or what I'll do
Forgive us all cause we have all begun to do as we choose

Never again will I trust a friend
Cause I know I'll always lose...

No desire to live
No desire to change
No desire to try
Cause it always stays the same
No desire

Disregard all of my words, I don't feel that way today
Disregard everything I've done, it meant nothing anyway

I'm comfortable feeling miserable
And I never want to change...

Humble prostitution
Sanitizing crush
Sesame hallways
Yourself is priceless with yourself is in
Lust

Mushy me, mushy me, mushy me, bite
Gently sentimental
Mushy me, mushy me, mushy me, bite
Gently sentimental

Found your future, felt your fight
And I found yours, and you found mine

Mockinngbird, mockingbird
Translucent sea
Mockingbird, mockingbird
Please come rescue me

Mushy me, mushy me, mushy me, bite
Gently sentimental
Mushy me, mushy me, mushy me, bite
Gently sentimental

Found your future, felt your fight
And I found yours, and you found mine

Mockingbird, mockingbird
Mockingbird, mockingbird

Gently sentimental

Found your future, felt your fight
And I found yours, and you found mine...

Mockingbird, mockingbird
Mockingbird, mockingbird

Used memories are blasphemy
Vulgar show offensively
Hemophiliac in me
Sacred blessings, blessed me

Hemophiliac in me...

Shallow persons hollow you
Here my heart is pumping glue
I'm running away, away from you

Hemophiliac in me...

Smoke tracks in my fingers
So ease the speed back...

Hemophiliac in me...

And it was never enough
And it was never enough now
That heroin stuff
Traveling through Daddy's arm now

Cuffed in that junk who knows if I would survive
Once you start shooting, forget living life
Lost in your shadows, no soul, no backbone
Sucked in, locked down, spinning breakdown, heroin whores

Everybody's talking about heroin dreams...
What the fuck you gonna do with the rest of your life?

Scream at me, back slap me, chew off my ears
And I can't stop this sickness, I've been trying for years
Deeper and deeper lies, sensational fears
They're here just to guide you as we age through the years

Everybody's talking about heroin dreams...
What the fuck you gonna do with the rest of your life?
What the fuck you gonna do with the rest of your time?

I'm lost in your shadows...

I'm feeling like I'm still in the same old situation
I'm speaking but no one's listening, it's the same old conversation
But I know there's no hope
But I know there's no hope

I'm waiting for something, something to happen
I'm hating procrastinating but I can't find the motivation
But I know there's no hope
But I know there's no hope

And you can't believe you're walking through this hell
Cause all you wish to be - wish you were someone else
And all hope's lost again

I'm seeing but not believing, is it just my imagination ?
I'm dreaming of devastationof this whole entire generation
But we know there's no hope
But we know there's no hope

You give what you get
Nothing more and nothing less
Smile when needed to
Speak when spoken to

I won't lead you astray
I won't lead you astray
Candyman...

Take what, what you need
As long as it's free
Come run away with me
We'll run far away

I won't lead you astray
I won't lead you astray
Candyman...

Let go of what's real
Show me what you feel
Don't you be afraid
I won't lead you astray
Candyman...

I won't lead you astray...

My eyes are closed
My mouth is wide
I could see her face
Her beautiful hair
I could recognize

She looks at me cold
She probably don't know
who I am
Mommy it's me
It's Keith
You had me back when

But sometimes I like to pretend
That she
But sometimes I like to pretend
That she
But sometimes I like to pretend
That she
But sometimes I like to pretend
That she holds me

I quess I can't
Because show doesn't know who I am
My mind it's dreaming
God it's so misleading
Do you think it's 'cause I've grown old
Is it true what I was told
You cried to leave me

You know I know it's not your fault
You had a husband who was selfish and cold
Believe me I know
Believe me I know
Now I hear you used to treat me cold
You dissappeared and left me all alone
I'm sure you didn't know right from wrong
'cause both of you were always getting
Were always getting
Were always getting stoned
Were always getting stoned...

I look in the mirror and guess what I see
A baby blue eyed spirit who seeks your everything
My mind is chaotic, unless I choose to be free
Sometimes I just can't help myself, sometimes I just can't help myself

My mind dangerous, that's who I'll always be
My mind dangerous, that's who I'll always be

Hideous devastations, lifeless serenity
My abstract emotions, somehow, get the best of me
Lord take away my sorrow, Lord take away my pain
Erasing life tomorrow, ain't the motive to the game

My mind dangerous, that's who I'll always be
My mind dangerous, that's who I'll always be

Erasing life tomorrow ain't the motive to the game
Erasing life tomorrow ain't the motive to the game

Sea shells raise hell to the soles of my feet
Why don't you open your minds to the sweet?
I tripped and fell down...

Falling down deeper, down deeper within
Love me and I'll love you so make love to me
I tripped and fell down...

Falling down deeper, falling down deeper, deeper
There's only one way to fall
Life's an illusion, lost in seclusion
Life can be groovy tasty to all

I tripped and fell down...

We once were one but now we just are over
We'll talk things out, perhaps I'll lend my shoulder
Now none is waht we have become, we're falling
Where nobody knows, inside the unknown, still falling

I'm shivering and shaking life a leaf within
I'm shivering and shaking like a leaf within

In this life I've naturally grown bolder
In this life, desperation's frozen
As desperate as we are they see no movement
Stagnant situations can be fuming

I'm shivering and shaking life a leaf within
I'm shivering and shaking like a leaf within...

And now we're none...

I'm shivering and shaking life a leaf within
I'm shivering and shaking like a leaf within...

And now we're none...

I got the razor at my wrist
'cause I can't resist
I've got this fever burnin' fist
That does as I wish
But when I get downtown
And see what's around
I just know there's got to be
A better place to be found

Oh, God help me

The river runs red and I think I'm dyin'

Well I know there'd come a day
When my mind would say "Hey are you afraid"
Well all I know is that I been down here tryin'
Well, I'll bleed on through the night
I suppose I'll be dead by the morning light
So don't be suprised if you mind when you find me

The river runs red and I think I'm dyin'
The river runs red and I think I'm dyin'

Oh, God help me

Funnel down straight through the clouds
Like an ever flowing stream
Like an ever flowing steam
Take a bite of the fruit of life
Cause the fruit of life is sweet
Cause the fruit of life is sweet

You're my tangerine

Let the spirits speak through me
Ecstasy and energy
Let it come your wildest dreams
A full bloom's glow melts the winter's freeze
New day, stressless without disease
Would you be my tangerine ?

You're my tangerine

I can't stop searching for more and more...

Still hung over from the night before
Cosmic hunger, I'm your fruitful whore
Soul sun searching, let your spirit soar
Still hung over from the night before

You're my tangerine...

Like an ever flowing stream
Like an ever flowing steam
Take a bite of the fruit of life
Cause the fruit of life is sweet
Cause the fruit of life is sweet

You're my tangerine

Let the spirits speak through me
Ecstasy and energy
Let it come your wildest dreams
A full bloom's glow melts the winter's freeze
New day, stressless without disease
Would you be my tangerine ?

You're my tangerine

I can't stop searching for more and more...

Still hung over from the night before
Cosmic hunger, I'm your fruitful whore
Soul sun searching, let your spirit soar
Still hung over from the night before

You're my tangerine...

I want you all to know
That I loved you all, you're beautifull
And I had myself a ball

I've wasted so much precious time
Been skating along these fine lines
Now these weeds have grown where the sun once shown
And my life has passed me by

And my life has passed me by
And I don't know why
I keep searching for something that I never found
While these weeds get deeper as I turn around
And time growns older and I've grown colder
So long has passed that I forgot to count

These weeds have grown where the sun once shown
And I can feel it

Today I cut off all the ties
Been led blind for all this time
But somewhere in between the lies
Are the hearts and minds of those who tried

And although I've heard your lies...

This space between us...

You probably heard all about it
You probably heard every word
It didn't take long for them to spread it
It didn't take long to spread the word

You can whisper if you want to
You can call me shat you will
You can cower in your corner
Or you can say it to my grill

Smiles come from the fake ones
They'll pretend to be your friend
They'll cut you down just to have fun
Then kiss your ass to make amends

And I wish I may and I wish I might...

You never know who really starts it
You never know who's talking shit
In the end it doesn't matter
Cause in the end, they're all on your list

And I wish I may and I wish I might...

Willing to start again,
Willing to give another try.
Willing to pretend but still so Dead.
Willing to Comprehend
Willing to give up all my pride
Willing to forget but still so dead
And its Starting to take its toll
And its starting to unwind
But the quicker that things unfold
The quicker that they subside
And writings on the wall
But the walls have all come down
If u cant see past the truth
I love to let you DOWN......
Willing to walk again
Willing to step back in the light,
Willing to forget but still so dead
Willing to turn my head
Willing to let my feelings slide
Willing to befriend but still so dead.
And its Starting to take its toll
And its starting to unwind
But the quicker that things unfold is
The quicker that they subside
And writings on the wall
But the walls have all come down
If u cant see past the truth
I love to let you ...
And its complicated
And its complicated
Everything that I've known
What was up is now down
And its overrated
And its over rated
Everything that I know
And I love to let you....
I love to let you ..........
And its Starting to take its toll
And its starting to unwind
But the quicker that things unfold is
The quicker that they subside
And writings on the wall
But the walls have all come down
If u cant see past the truth
I love to let you
And I'm willing to start again
To give it another try
I'm willing to Start again

> Dear son - Daddys never comin back home
He passed on - claim him as one of your own
My minds numb - Nothing has been clearer than this
They found him on the rug at the Golden Gate Inn

And I know - Poppa never intended for this
To drag me - Down into this bottomless pit
Ive been given just about - all I can chew
I think back on loves empty truth

And I feel like the day he died
I feel like the day he died

I walked in - Cops talkin standing around
I kneeled down - His body lying there on the ground
I begged please, please - Let me get a minute with him
And they said - Dont touch anything kid

It smelt like life - just exit the room
I cried to - A shell of a man I once knew
My minds been spinning way out of control
I cant believe that its been three long years ago

And I feel like the day he died
I feel like the day he died
And I feel like the day he died
I feel like the day he died

And I feel like the day he died
I feel like the day
And I feel like the day he died
I feel like the day

Dear son - Daddys never comin back home
Ive gone numb - Wish I had the strength to live on
I cant breathe - Is there any air left in here?
I cant believe - Everything I hold disappears
Has gone on - Time and time again all alone
And dear Son - Daddys never comin back home

And I feel like the day he died
And I feel like the day he died
And I feel like the day he died

You came to me with this
And now I've been wronged
I bit off my fingertips
And why'd I even get involved?

Gave all I had to give
But that wasn't good enough
But that wasn't good enough

Lift yourself off that shelf
You're not in this alone
No matter how hard you fall

Swallowed all your razor blades
So you could do no harm
Accepted all the blame
And tell me where did we go wrong
And tell me where did we go wrong

Lift yourself off that shelf
You're not in this alone
No matter how hard

You did your best and made this mess
Ignored it all alone
This broken valley's a part of us all

Lift yourself off that shelf
You're not in this alone
No matter how hard

Did your best and made this mess
Ignored it all alone
This broken valley's a part of us all

Lift yourself off that shelf
You're not in this alone
No matter how hard

Gave all I, gave all I had to give
Gave all I, gave all I had to give
Gave all I, gave all I had to give
Gave all I, gave all I had to give

Gave all I, gave all I had to give
Gave all I

Bitch, bitch such a lonely bitch, bitch sitting on my bed
More lonely than you know
Wish, wish - Wish i couldve been, been something more than this
Something i couldve shown
Missed, missed - Wish i didnt slip, slip - Wish i didnt piss-off
Everyone I know Twist, twist - Twisting off my head, head - Set it on the shelf
Gone as far as I can go

And I was lost - All along
So dont bother, so dont bother

Wrists slit - think I better sit, sit - Time to
catch my breath and
Watch the river flow
Shit, shit - think I wanna stick, stick - Dont think i wanna dismiss
All that i have known
Restless, look at all this mess, mess
Sick of all this death - Everywhere I go
Rest, rest - Think I failed the test, test Sitting on my bed - More lonely than you know

And I was lost - All along
So dont bother, so dont bother
And I was lost - All along
So dont bother, so dont bother

And take me - And take me away
And give me and give me And give me a place
Such a lonely

And I was lost - All along
So dont bother, so dont bother
And I was lost - All along
So dont bother, so dont bother

I was lost - All along
I was lost - All along
I was lost - All along
I was lost - All along

JUNK SICK
I was beating my head in, head in Against the wall
I was beating my brains dead, brains dead Against it all Junk Sick
Just here for the cure And I'd spit into his eyes, his eyes When he was out on bail Man
I've done a lot of time waiting Time waiting But you failed me Junk Sick(DEAD)
Don't get me wrong Junk Sick(DEAD) Just here for the cure Junk sick Don't get me wrong
I was beating my head in Against the wall I was beating my brains dead Against it all

If you're looking to tell it
All and save your soul, I know what you can do
You can start by letting me in
So we could begin to mend these salted wounds

You sacrifice, you sacrifice and if we bleed it's justified
And I can't look into your face, it's been harder than you've known
And I can't find a single place that these demons haven't shown
So go to sleep, I need to be alone

Don't ya, don't ya wanna tell someone
What you have done and get it off your chest?
How long can you carry this load
Until it explodes in your fucking face?

We sacrifice, we sacrifice and if we bleed it's justified
And I can't look into your face, it's been harder than you've known
And I can't find a single place that these demons haven't shown
So go to sleep, I need to be alone

We sacrifice, we sacrifice and if we bleed and justified
We sacrifice
(Lift yourself off that shelf)
We sacrifice
(Did your best and made this mess)
And justified
(Lift yourself off that shelf)
And justified
(Did your best and made this mess)

And I can't look into your face, it's been harder than you've known
And I can't find a single place that these demons haven't shown

And I can't look into your face, it's been harder than you've known
And I can't find a single place that these demons haven't shown
So go to sleep, I need to be alone

Deathbed, I bled downhearted

Don't toss me out like your last cigarette
I'm one of your own
Bled my way up from under it
Trying to fill that hole but down you go

Hold me, brother, take your finger off the trig
Let it go, oh, let it go
If you don't stop shaking
Soon you will be taking it off, taking it off
So hold me, brother, take your finger off the trigger

Deathbed, I bled downhearted

Don't feel like you need to leave because
You disappointed us all
Self-esteem has clipped your wings and now
You try and catch your fall but down you go

Hold me, brother, take your finger off the trig
Let it go, oh, let it go
If you don't stop shaking
Soon you will be taking it off, taking it off

So hold me, brother, take your finger off the trig
Let me know, oh, let me know
If you don't stop shaking
Soon you will be taking it off

So hold me, brother, take your finger off the trig
Let it go, oh, let it go
If you don't stop shaking
Soon you will be taking it off, taking it off

So hold me, brother, take your finger off the trig
Let me know, oh, let me know
If you don't stop shaking
Soon you will be taking it off

Willing to start again,
Willing to give another try.
Willing to pretend but still so Dead.
Willing to Comprehend
Willing to give up all my pride
Willing to forget but still so dead
And its Starting to take its toll
And its starting to unwind
But the quicker that things unfold
The quicker that they subside
And writings on the wall
But the walls have all come down
If u cant see past the truth
I love to let you DOWN......
Willing to walk again
Willing to step back in the light,
Willing to forget but still so dead
Willing to turn my head
Willing to let my feelings slide
Willing to befriend but still so dead.
And its Starting to take its toll
And its starting to unwind
But the quicker that things unfold is
The quicker that they subside
And writings on the wall
But the walls have all come down
If u cant see past the truth
I love to let you ...
And its complicated
And its complicated
Everything that I've known
What was up is now down
And its overrated
And its over rated
Everything that I know
And I love to let you....
I love to let you ..........
And its Starting to take its toll
And its starting to unwind
But the quicker that things unfold is
The quicker that they subside
And writings on the wall
But the walls have all come down
If u cant see past the truth
I love to let you
And I'm willing to start again
To give it another try
I'm willing to Start again

No One Survives

You cut me back down to size
Whenever you decide
Can barely stand the sight
Of your plastic grin against the light
With a forceful hand we collide
No one refrains,no one survives
No one survives justified

If you're looking to tell it all
And save your soul-
I know what you can do
You can start by letting me in-
So we can begin
To mend these salted wounds

You sacrifice-you sacrifice
And if we bleed-it's justified

And I can't look into your face
It's been harder than you know
And I can't find a single place
That these demons haven't shown

So go to sleep-I need to be alone
Don't ya, don't ya wanna tell someone
What you have done-And get it off your chest?
How long can you carry this load
Until it explodes in your f**king face

We sacrifice-we sacrifice
And if we bleed-it's justified
We sacrifice-we sacrifice
And if we bleed-it's justified

We sacrifice-lift yourself off that shelf
We sacrifice-did your best and made this mess
And it's justified-lift yourself off that shelf
And it's justified-did your best and made this mess

Strung out, strung out again
I'm looking for that second chance
I've reached out, I've reached out for friends
I think I know how the story ends

If this world has let you down then leave it
If you're lost among the crowd defeated
If you can't see past your frown and cheated
You're feeling like there must be more to life than this

Face down, face down again
Injected just below the skin
Break out, break out of this
I think I've got the itch again

If this world has let you down then leave it
If you're lost among the crowd defeated
If you can't see past your frown and cheated
You're feeling like there must be more to life than this

If I gave it all up do you
Do you think I, do you think I survive it
And if I walked right up to you should
Should I greet you or should I lay down and die?

And I came full circle with you would you take me?
Take me back in your life and I tried so hard so you'd be
Proud of me, proud of me, proud of me
Proud of me, proud all the time

Proud all the time
Proud all the time
Proud all the time

Strung out

If this world has let you down then leave it
If you're lost among the crowd defeated
If you can't see past your frown and cheated
You're feeling like there must be more to life than this

If this world has let you down then leave it
If you're lost among the crowd defeated
If you can't see past your frown and cheated
You're feeling like there must be more to life than this

Strung out again
I strung out again
Strung out again
Strung out again
Strung out again

The calm that disturbs you
You dont think Ive done a thing for you - its ok, its ok
And you drag yourself about
You creep along, along you creep anyway - its ok
And awaken the storm that breaks
Theres nothing anymore I could say - I could say

See my heart - Im on my knees
I turn to shit - I think Im broken
See my heart - Im on my knees
I turn to shit - I think Im broken

Let it go - Let it go to God
What we - What becomes of us
Let it go - Let it bleed to God
Run - Let it all, let it all run dry
What we - What becomes of us
And I need to go outside

Cold and unhappy
Kiss my falling tears, falling tears in my soul
The smell of sweat and blood
Is what I see - is crawling back in my head, in my head

See my heart - Im on my knees
I turn to shit - I think Im broken
See my heart - Im on my knees
I turn to shit - I think Im broken

Let it go, Let it go to God
What we - What becomes of us
Let it go - Let it bleed to God
Run - Let it all, let it all run dry
What we - What becomes of us
And I need to go outside

Let it go - Let it go to God
What we - What becomes of us
Let it go, If there is a God
Run - Let it all, let it all run dry
What we - What becomes of us
Let it go - Let it bleed to God

> Dear son - Daddys never comin back home
He passed on - claim him as one of your own
My minds numb - Nothing has been clearer than this
They found him on the rug at the Golden Gate Inn

And I know - Poppa never intended for this
To drag me - Down into this bottomless pit
Ive been given just about - all I can chew
I think back on loves empty truth

And I feel like the day he died
I feel like the day he died

I walked in - Cops talkin standing around
I kneeled down - His body lying there on the ground
I begged please, please - Let me get a minute with him
And they said - Dont touch anything kid

It smelt like life - just exit the room
I cried to - A shell of a man I once knew
My minds been spinning way out of control
I cant believe that its been three long years ago

And I feel like the day he died
I feel like the day he died
And I feel like the day he died
I feel like the day he died

And I feel like the day he died
I feel like the day
And I feel like the day he died
I feel like the day

Dear son - Daddys never comin back home
Ive gone numb - Wish I had the strength to live on
I cant breathe - Is there any air left in here?
I cant believe - Everything I hold disappears
Has gone on - Time and time again all alone
And dear Son - Daddys never comin back home

And I feel like the day he died
And I feel like the day he died
And I feel like the day he died

Sooner or later, I thought that a savior
Would come to save us all
It seems that he left us to fend for ourselves
Just to try to make us strong

How can I face another day
Knowing he's done me wrong

Should've known what those wolves had wanted
Neverv told, but I tried, I tried
All they stole left me brokenhearted
They left me there to die

Seein's believing, don't know what I'm feeling
Don't know who I am anymore
I tried to embrace it but fell on my face
It's been laughing at me all along

All ends are frayed and I've been betrayed
Scarred to the bone

Should've known what those wolves had wanted
Never told, but I tried, I tried
All they stole left me brokenhearted
They left me there to die, die, die, to die

Sooner or later, I thought that a savior
Would come to save us all
I'm not afraid of wicked ways
Knowing he's done me wrong

Should've known what those wolves had wanted
Never told, but I tried, I tried
All they stole left me brokenhearted
They left me there

Should've known what those wolves had wanted
Never told, but I tried, I tried
All they stole left me brokenhearted
Never told, but I tried, I tried, tried, I tried, tried, I tried

Willing to start again,
Willing to give another try.
Willing to pretend but still so Dead.
Willing to Comprehend
Willing to give up all my pride
Willing to forget but still so dead
And its Starting to take its toll
And its starting to unwind
But the quicker that things unfold
The quicker that they subside
And writings on the wall
But the walls have all come down
If u cant see past the truth
I love to let you DOWN......
Willing to walk again
Willing to step back in the light,
Willing to forget but still so dead
Willing to turn my head
Willing to let my feelings slide
Willing to befriend but still so dead.
And its Starting to take its toll
And its starting to unwind
But the quicker that things unfold is
The quicker that they subside
And writings on the wall
But the walls have all come down
If u cant see past the truth
I love to let you ...
And its complicated
And its complicated
Everything that I've known
What was up is now down
And its overrated
And its over rated
Everything that I know
And I love to let you....
I love to let you ..........
And its Starting to take its toll
And its starting to unwind
But the quicker that things unfold is
The quicker that they subside
And writings on the wall
But the walls have all come down
If u cant see past the truth
I love to let you
And I'm willing to start again
To give it another try
I'm willing to Start again

> Dear son - Daddys never comin back home
He passed on - claim him as one of your own
My minds numb - Nothing has been clearer than this
They found him on the rug at the Golden Gate Inn

And I know - Poppa never intended for this
To drag me - Down into this bottomless pit
Ive been given just about - all I can chew
I think back on loves empty truth

And I feel like the day he died
I feel like the day he died

I walked in - Cops talkin standing around
I kneeled down - His body lying there on the ground
I begged please, please - Let me get a minute with him
And they said - Dont touch anything kid

It smelt like life - just exit the room
I cried to - A shell of a man I once knew
My minds been spinning way out of control
I cant believe that its been three long years ago

And I feel like the day he died
I feel like the day he died
And I feel like the day he died
I feel like the day he died

And I feel like the day he died
I feel like the day
And I feel like the day he died
I feel like the day

Dear son - Daddys never comin back home
Ive gone numb - Wish I had the strength to live on
I cant breathe - Is there any air left in here?
I cant believe - Everything I hold disappears
Has gone on - Time and time again all alone
And dear Son - Daddys never comin back home

And I feel like the day he died
And I feel like the day he died
And I feel like the day he died

I used to spend my time thinking I'll be fine
Murder isn't crime, I witnessed you commit and smile
Rusty breeze, let me in your casualty
Mellow leaves, you're falling from an angry tree
An angry tree

And everybody is slipping over the edge
And everybody is
And everybody is slipping over the edge
And everybody is



Everyday that's slipping, come closer, the quicker to death
Drink up the magic potions, now you see me in your head
Rusty breeze, let me in your casualty
Mellow leaves, you're falling from an angry tree
An angry tree

Can you see the world I see?
Everybody slips including....me

Forget everything I've said before, I don't feel that way today
Forget everything I've felt before, I felt it come yesterday

I'm comfortable feeling miserable
And I never want to change

Forgive me for I know not what I've done or what I'll do
Forgive us all cause we have all begun to do as we choose

Never again will I trust a friend
Cause I know I'll always lose

No desire to live
No desire to change
No desire to try
Cause it always stays the same
No desire

Disregard all of my words, I don't feel that way today
Disregard everything I've done, it meant nothing anyway

I wonder how it would be if my mother was still around
The types of talk
The relationships we could have had
The three of us
Me, you and dad
My mouth went dry
My stomach felt queasy too
So empty and scared
It's all because of you
A dead body that turned out not to be dead
No one understands
Wish I really knew what happened to my mom
Because my family they told me nothing but lies
They figured if they just told me the truth
I'd break down and cry
Feel betrayed and hurt
Profoundly insecure
Want to knock ten times on heaven's door
Still suffering from old emotional wounds
I was getting worse
Can't depend on them and their lies


Why did see leave?
How did she die?
And when it gets colder outside
I'll be back next year
With that feeling to make me cry
Wanna go visit her grave
Because it's been a long, long time
Want to pick a peach rose
And rest it on it's side
Say a prayer eventhough I don't believe
And say goodbye
Don't get me wrong
I have a mind to keep me strong
But there's this feeling of not knowing what went wrong
And how she's dead and gone
Don't think anyone thinks
Of you as much as I do

In the stilness of the night my eyes are closed.
My mouth is wide.
I could see her face.
Her beautifull hair I could recognize.

She looks at me cold.
She probably don't know who I am.

Mommy it is me, it's Keith.
You had me back when...

But sometimes I like to pretend, that she knows me, that she holds me.
Sometimes I like to pretend, that she knows me, that she holds me.

I guess I can't, 'cause she doesn't know who I am.

My mind it's dreaming, God it's so misleading.

Do you thing it's 'cause I've grown old.
Is it true that what I was told?
You cried to leave me?

You know I know it's not your fault.
You had a husband who was (now you're ?) selfish and cold.
Believe me I know.

And now I hear you used to treat me cold.
You disappeared and left me all alone.
I'm sure you didn't know right from wrong.
'cause both of you were always getting stoned.

But sometimes I like to pretend.
But sometimes I like to pretend, that she knows me
Sometimes I like to pretend, that she holds me.

Sometimes I like to pretend, that she knows me.
Sometimes I like to pretend, that she holds me.

I guess I can't, 'cause she doesn't know who I am.

We've got the method of groove that grabbed your attention
Now that you're aware we're gonna give you the message
My father taught me many things
Living deaf, dumb, & blind will get you nothing
So listen up and hear what I have to say
It's never too late to learn in this day and age
We'll point you in a new direction
Passed down to this generation

If you've hread anything from me
It would be to hold on to your dreams
Learn from my mistakes
And it will take off some weight
He said "You got your whole life to live,
And so much more to give,
Never compromise and you will never live a lie"
He said "Son, remember where you came from"

We never doubted ourselves for a minute
Ah they may criticize and compromise, but we were always in it

So come on down and see what this is all about
It's in our soul, on the road, wherever we may go
So wake up, nothing can stop us,
We got the chaos so just let us
Provide the lines that make your mind spend the time
Think before you sink to the bottom

He said "Son, remember where you came from"

A little older, little wiser
With every breath I learn just a little more
And with all I've seen, I've finally made up my mind
Enough of this world
Enough blood in these eyes
So, so, so sick of this life

Chorus
It's about time I realized
Release this hate from inside
Enough blood in my eyes

Call it what you will
Call it suicide
Disregard how you feel
I'm just freeing my mind
Clench my teeth as I sleep
So, so, so sick of this life
Cannot take, cannot fake


Can't shake this blood from these eyes

Chorus

All I have and all I will be
Nevertheless I'll live for all eternity
'cause you can't erase my words, can't erase my mind
You can't wipe out my thoughts
Can't shake this blood from my eyes
So, so, so don't even try

Chorus

Just give me one good reason to live
I'll give you three to die
Let's leave this world behind

I look in the mirror and guess what I see
A baby blue eyed spirit who seeks your everything
My mind is chaotic, unless I choose to be free
Sometimes I just can't help myself, sometimes I just can't help myself

My mind dangerous, that's who I'll always be
My mind dangerous, that's who I'll always be

Hideous devastations, lifeless serenity
My abstract emotions, somehow, get the best of me
Lord take away my sorrow, Lord take away my pain
Erasing life tomorrow, ain't the motive to the game

My mind dangerous, that's who I'll always be
My mind dangerous, that's who I'll always be

Erasing life tomorrow ain't the motive to the game
Erasing life tomorrow ain't the motive to the game

There's blood on the floor
And you're not even moving
Don't really know if it's mine or yours
But you aint moving
Eyes are ide as you grin at me
You know there's a place that you'd rather be
But if you should die and I survive
How could I go on knowing that I am still alive
Here breathing
There's a beast that's living deep within me
Forcing me to feed all my needs
Yeah he's in me
And he brought us here to end our fears
To wave goodbye to all of the tears
To start a new life on the other side of the river
Well my world would be over
Hold on, hold on, I won't be long
Wait for me, man, I won't ne long
You were such in a rush to reach the other side
Look at yourself with that look in your eye
Smilimg wide and pre-occupied with that river
Well my world would be over

From day one I could not comprhend
Was it us, was it me, or was it them?
Friends will come and go as it seems
And now I have no shoulder on which to lean
Still I do not understand
You break your back for something
Well where's the fans?

Show me - respect
And I'll
Show me - Show you right back

I see the boys that I once called my friends
They'll fake a smile and then they'll shake your hand
When will this ever end?
I look around at my brothers
My only true friends

You got a lot to learn my friend
You've got a lot to learn about respect!

I got the razor at my wrist
'cause I can't resist
I've got this fever burnin' fist
That does as I wish
But when I get downtown
And see what's around
I just know there's got to be
A better place to be found

Oh, God help me

The river runs red and I think I'm dyin'

Well I know there'd come a day
When my mind would say "Hey are you afraid"
Well all I know is that I been down here tryin'
Well, I'll bleed on through the night
I suppose I'll be dead by the morning light
So don't be suprised if you mind when you find me

The river runs red and I think I'm dyin'
The river runs red and I think I'm dyin'

Oh, God help me

It disturbs me to see that you're gorwing old
It concerns me to be the one you want to hold
Too busy running on fuel
Thand God you made it through
Let's spend the times we've missed and turn these days to gold

Lost as father and son
Bring us back together as one
Seasons change and so did your son
Strife with emotions that can't be one
Too busy running on fuel
Thank God you made it through
Let's spend the times we've missed and turn these days to gold

Want to hand you a piece of my delicate heart
This song is to uplift you and not to tear you apart
Father's lost in the mountains
But no mountain I can't see
But if that mountain should crumble come crumble on top of me

When all is said and done
I'll always be your son
But all is not forgiven
Well I'm on my knees pleading
Just 'cause I'm grown you think I don't need
Much more than what you've ever given me

[Chorus]
So when we gonna get together
Seems there's no time for me
You act like you got forever
You've got time, but you ain't got time for me
You said you've got time
But you ain't got time for me

Now that you've gone and tossed
The bottle away now will ya
Start a new life with the new wife
Well she'll never be my mother
I suppose that you know you oughta
Remember the ones you left behind

[Chorus]

You're just letting it slip away now
You act like things are fine
I know you think you've been born again
But this time

You're leaving your son behind
This time
This time
This time

If tomorrow never shows
I want you all to know
That I loved you all, you're beautiful
And I had myself a ball

I've wasted so much precious time
Been skating along these fine lines
Now these weeds have grown where the sun once shown
And my life has passed me by

And my life has passed me by
And I don't know why
I keep searching for something that I never found
While these weeds get deeper as I turn around

And time grows older and I've grown colder
So long has passed that I forgot to count

These weeds have grown where the sun once shown
And I can feel it

Today I cut off all the ties
Been led blind for all this time
But somewhere in between the lies
Are the hearts and minds of those who tried

And although I've heard your lies

This space between us

The most comfortable place isn't comfortable anymore
I feel so out of place
No one knows me for sure
I have this guilty conscience
And made an effort not to be me
I feel like a certain somebody
But I know I can be me

Too many people try to put me down
Not accept me for me
I was insulted the other night
..... it's not me

...

I try to sing my songs
But I have trouble with that too

The hardest thing to imagine


Is what comes next
Don't have strength don't have courage
When you're lacking confidence

I won't let this feeling end
'cause it might not come again

... and you know it's not you

I try to sing my songs
But I have trouble with that too

The most comfortable place isn't comfortable
Did you ever feel out of place?
'cause you're not comfortable?

I won't let this feeling end
'cause it might not come again

(spoken) Hang out dick
I'm dieing
I'M trying
I'm crying 'cause i aint got nothing so
Dont bother trying to stop me
I'm drowning in my own self pity so
Stop preaching 'bout livin for a brighter day
You know as well as i do Praying never stopped the rain
I'ts still rainin on me
Im drownin
I'm drownin 'cause i aint got nothin so
Dont bother tryin to stop me
Im drownin in my own self pity so
Dont bother wiping these tears away
'Cause at the end of the rainbow it still rains
It still rains on me
I'm drowning
I'm drowning 'cause i aint go nothin so
Dont bother trying to stop me
Im drownin in my own self pity so
Dont bother wiping my tears away
'Cause at the end of the rainbow it still rains
Its still rainin on me
The hand on the clock keep pointing at me
The remote control has a mind of its own


I forgotten how long it has been
This razor blade feels closer then my own skin
Wont someone wipe these tears away
It dont matter cause nothing can stop the rain
It still rains on me
I'm drownin
I'm drowning cause i aint got nothin so
Dont bother tryin to stop me
Im drowning in my own self pity so
Dont bother wiping my tears away
Cause at the end of the rainbow it still rains
Its still raining on me
Im Drowning
Im drowning cause i aint got nothing so
Dont bother trying to stop me
Im drowning in my own self pity so
Dont bother wiping my tears away
Cause at the end of the rainbow it still rains

I know my days are numbered
I've been in and out of phase
But these days keep passing me by
Good never comes my way
Try to sit back and relax
Try and think of something good
Something else
Something pure
I can't but know I should
Things I should have said
Things that I regret
And I regret
No more waiting for something better to come along
It's much easier to change me than it is to change them all
Things I should have said and things that I regret
Need to shed all my skin and start again
Every turn I make is wrong
I haven't smiled in so long
Shed my skin and start again
The memories that I once had of the good time
We all used to have
Shed my skin and start again

If I knew what to do I'd do it.
If I knew where to go I'd get there someday.
If I knew where to fly I'd fly away, forget about life for a while.
But it never is that easy to just pick up and go and do as you're told like.
'cause life never works out that way.
If it were true the skies would be full everyday.

If I knew how to fly, I'd fly away.
If I knew how to fly, I'd fly away.
If I knew how to fly, I knew how to fly away.

Well I'm lost at 22 and I've got no fucking clue.
No I don't know if things will work out right.
I'm lost and confused.
I'm lost at 22 and I don't know if my life's gonna end up right.
'cause they keep on telling me that I'm young, dumb and naive.
But that's just what they want me to believe.

Well I'd rather be lost at sea than become part of this society.
Where the grass is always green and the air is always clean.
At least that's what they want me to believe.
At least that's what they want me to believe.

I'm lost at 22.
I'm lost at 22.
I'm lost.

Oh pirates, yes they rob us
Sold I to the merchant ships
Minutes after they took i
From the bottomless pit

But my hand was made strong
By the hand of the almighty
He fought in this generation
Triumphantly

(chorus)
Won't you help me sing
These songs of freedom
'cause all I ever had


Redemption song

Emancipate yourself from mental slavery
None but ourselves can free our minds
Have no fear for atomic energy
'cause none o' them can stop the time

How long will they kill our prophets
While we stand around and look?
Some say it's just a part of it
We got's to fulfill the book

(chorus)

Funnel down straight through the clouds
Like an ever flowing stream
Like an ever flowing steam
Take a bite of the fruit of life
Cause the fruit of life is sweet
Cause the fruit of life is sweet

You're my tangerine

Let the spirits speak through me
Ecstasy and energy
Let it come your wildest dreams
A full bloom's glow melts the winter's freeze
New day, stressless without disease
Would you be my tangerine ?



You're my tangerine

I can't stop searching for more and more...

Still hung over from the night before
Cosmic hunger, I'm your fruitful whore
Soul sun searching, let your spirit soar
Still hung over from the night before

You're my tangerine...

Why do I feel so alone in a crowd of people I know
Is it wrong to feel so insecure so unappealing?
Why walk around in disquise with a fake grin on my face?
What would it prove?
What would I gain?
I'd still feel so out of place
Damned if I do
Damned if I don't
But I won't turn out like you
Midlife crisis at age 22
Who knew?
I need some answers
Cross the street and down the avenue
I stopped for the woman
Paid five bucks and got my palm read
And she said
You shouldn't be smiling boy
This life line ays you're already dead
Just keep on moving forward never turning back
But with every step ahead I take they pull me two steps back
They pull me two steps back

Won't you come see about me?
I'll be alone, dancing you know it baby
Tell me your troubles and doubts
Giving me everything inside and out

Love's strange so real in the drak
Think of the tenfer things that we were working on
Slow change may pull us apart
When the light gets into your heart, baby

Don't You Forget About Me
Don't Don't Don't Don't
Don't You Forget About Me

Don't you try to pretend
It's my feeling we'll win in the end
I won't harm you or touch your defenses
Vanity and security

Don't you ferget aboyt me
I'll be alone dancing, you know it baby
Gong you take you apart
I'll put us back together at heart, baby

Don't You Forget About Me
Don't Don't Don't Don't
Don't You Forget About Me
Don't Don't Don't Don't
Don't You Forget About Me
Don't Don't Don't Don't
Don't You Forget About Me

Will you stand above me?
Look my way, never love me
Rain keeps falling, rain keeps falling
Down, down, down

Hey, hey, hey, hey Ohhh...

Don't You Forget About Me
Don't Don't Don't Don't
Don't You Forget About Me

But you walk on by
Will you call my name?
As you walk on by
Will you call my name?
As you walk on by

Will you walk away?
Will you walk away?
Come on, baby - call my name
Will you call my name?

I say...
La la la

They'll make you or break you
They'll swallow you whole
They'll find you and bind you
To every word that they own
But you know yhat you need them
So you continue to feed them
So I hope that you're in this
For all the right reasons
They can't make you feel something you don't believe in
But they can threaten your future
And everything in it
When you fail to remember just where you've been
When you can't tell up from down
How do you write from within?
And all I know is that they're
They're trying to squeeze me dry
They told me
They own me
And all I know is that they're
They're trying to squeeze me dry
I look in the mirror and what do I see?
A man staring back at me who used to be me
He looks so familiar
He once had big dreams
But I can't see that he's been drained of his soul and inte-
grity

No one knows what it's like
No one knows how it feels
Nothing else could compare to the fears I fear
And I've never been on my own
Struggling all alone
And all I have are these clothes on my back and this song
I never had much I never believe I could be
Someone, somehow, somebody
Said goodbye to all my childhood hopes and dreams
Time to grow up and accept real life responsibilities
Listen
Won't you listen to the things I have to say
'cause it just might affect the way that you think about
How you live from day to day
It may be easy for you
But it seems like hell to me

I wonder how it would be if my mother was still around
The types of talk
The relationships we could have had
The three of us
Me, you and dad
My mouth went dry
My stomach felt queasy too
So empty and scared
It's all because of you
A dead body that turned out not to be dead
No one understands
Wish I really knew what happened to my mom
Because my family they told me nothing but lies
They figured if they just told me the truth
I'd break down and cry
Feel betrayed and hurt
Profoundly insecure
Want to knock ten times on heaven's door
Still suffering from old emotional wounds
I was getting worse
Can't depend on them and their lies


Why did see leave?
How did she die?
And when it gets colder outside
I'll be back next year
With that feeling to make me cry
Wanna go visit her grave
Because it's been a long, long time
Want to pick a peach rose
And rest it on it's side
Say a prayer eventhough I don't believe
And say goodbye
Don't get me wrong
I have a mind to keep me strong
But there's this feeling of not knowing what went wrong
And how she's dead and gone
Don't think anyone thinks
Of you as much as I do

I know my days are numbered
I've been in and out of phase
But these days keep passing me by
Good never comes my way
Try to sit back and relax
Try and think of something good
Something else
Something pure
I can't but know I should
Things I should have said
Things that I regret
And I regret
No more waiting for something better to come along
It's much easier to change me than it is to change them all
Things I should have said and things that I regret
Need to shed all my skin and start again
Every turn I make is wrong
I haven't smiled in so long
Shed my skin and start again
The memories that I once had of the good time
We all used to have
Shed my skin and start again

In the stilness of the night my eyes are closed.
My mouth is wide.
I could see her face.
Her beautifull hair I could recognize.

She looks at me cold.
She probably don't know who I am.

Mommy it is me, it's Keith.
You had me back when...

But sometimes I like to pretend, that she knows me, that she holds me.
Sometimes I like to pretend, that she knows me, that she holds me.

I guess I can't, 'cause she doesn't know who I am.

My mind it's dreaming, God it's so misleading.

Do you thing it's 'cause I've grown old.
Is it true that what I was told?
You cried to leave me?

You know I know it's not your fault.
You had a husband who was (now you're ?) selfish and cold.
Believe me I know.

And now I hear you used to treat me cold.
You disappeared and left me all alone.
I'm sure you didn't know right from wrong.
'cause both of you were always getting stoned.

But sometimes I like to pretend.
But sometimes I like to pretend, that she knows me
Sometimes I like to pretend, that she holds me.

Sometimes I like to pretend, that she knows me.
Sometimes I like to pretend, that she holds me.

I guess I can't, 'cause she doesn't know who I am.

If I knew what to do I'd do it.
If I knew where to go I'd get there someday.
If I knew where to fly I'd fly away, forget about life for a while.
But it never is that easy to just pick up and go and do as you're told like.
'cause life never works out that way.
If it were true the skies would be full everyday.

If I knew how to fly, I'd fly away.
If I knew how to fly, I'd fly away.
If I knew how to fly, I knew how to fly away.

Well I'm lost at 22 and I've got no fucking clue.
No I don't know if things will work out right.
I'm lost and confused.
I'm lost at 22 and I don't know if my life's gonna end up right.
'cause they keep on telling me that I'm young, dumb and naive.
But that's just what they want me to believe.

Well I'd rather be lost at sea than become part of this society.
Where the grass is always green and the air is always clean.
At least that's what they want me to believe.
At least that's what they want me to believe.

I'm lost at 22.
I'm lost at 22.
I'm lost.

There's blood on the floor
And you're not even moving
Don't really know if it's mine or yours
But you aint moving
Eyes are ide as you grin at me
You know there's a place that you'd rather be
But if you should die and I survive
How could I go on knowing that I am still alive
Here breathing
There's a beast that's living deep within me
Forcing me to feed all my needs
Yeah he's in me
And he brought us here to end our fears
To wave goodbye to all of the tears
To start a new life on the other side of the river
Well my world would be over
Hold on, hold on, I won't be long
Wait for me, man, I won't ne long
You were such in a rush to reach the other side
Look at yourself with that look in your eye
Smilimg wide and pre-occupied with that river
Well my world would be over

It disturbs me to see that you're gorwing old
It concerns me to be the one you want to hold
Too busy running on fuel
Thand God you made it through
Let's spend the times we've missed and turn these days to gold

Lost as father and son
Bring us back together as one
Seasons change and so did your son
Strife with emotions that can't be one
Too busy running on fuel
Thank God you made it through
Let's spend the times we've missed and turn these days to gold

Want to hand you a piece of my delicate heart
This song is to uplift you and not to tear you apart
Father's lost in the mountains
But no mountain I can't see
But if that mountain should crumble come crumble on top of me

Have you ever woke up screaming?
Have you ever woke alone?
When the walls around you won't stop laughing
Where do you go?
Sweat seeps in your eyes at night
And you realize
That no one understands you at all
Well I was bound to have a nervous breakdown
Should've seen it coming from miles away
So I packed my bags and started running
My brains been shaking since yesterday
But there's only so far that you can run boy
There's only so far to leave your problems behind
'cause when the problem's yourself you start thinking
No matter how far
You'll never leave it behind
No one uderstands me at all
Now I'm 22 with still no clue
Of who I am or show I'm supposed to be
I know it to you it sounds funny
You've got it worked out like it's a fuckin' disease
Started asking myself do I fit in?
Where I belong
Could this really be me?
Been feeling downright ugly
Tell me is this the way it's supposed to be?
So what's the difference?
You're doing fine
The clock keeps ticking as you lose your mind
The one you need to call you
Never calls
Sweat seeps in your eyes at night
And you realize
That no one understands you at all

This cancer is killing me
As much as it's killing you
If it takes you away from me
I don't know what I would do
Just try for some peace of mind
But it's so hard to find
It's so hard to just sit and wait
And wait some more
Staring at the door
Skim through the magazines
Pretend like everything's gonna be alright
Although you know it won't be
Unstable
It's hard to be the one who's strong
Who's always got a shoulder to cry on
Who's got a shoulder for me?
When I'm about to breakdown
You're never around
But maybe it's better that way
You've got enough to worry about
You've got your hands full don't you
Don't you see?
This cancer is killing me
Like it's killing you
Mentally
Unstable
And all I really want to know is if she's going to be alright

'cause she's benn in there a long, long time
And I've been out here losing my mind
You're scared
You're frightened
You're so afraid of what he may say
But you try and be brave
For me sitting impatiently
In the lobby of emergency
You burst on through that door with this look on your face
I've never seen before
You explode into endless tears
Whisper in my ear
Baby
Baby
I've only got one more year
Unstable

Am I to blame?

If I won't speak her name, if I won't face her grave
Maybe I'm to blame, maybe I'm to blame
Since you're gone, I've never fealt the same

Well maybe I'm just a bad seed
Of the family
I'll get my sleep without tear-stained sheets
And I'll never come cryin' for sympathy

Well I need a place to run to
Yeah I need a place to hide
Yeah I need a place where I don't need a smile as my disquise

Am I to blame?
If I won't gace your grave
Am I to blame? Am I to blame?
If I cannot bear to face your grave
And mother please shine down on me
Show me that I'm not the bad seed

Maybe I'm to blame, maybe I'm to blame
Since you're gone I never felt the same

Well maybe my mind's deceiving me
But I think you took the easy way out
You left me standing there empty handed
As soon as you put that gun in your mouth
So please don't keep on asking
If theres something wrong
'cause you know damn well if I was fine
I would've never ever written this song

Am I to blame?
If I won't face your grave

(Street sounds; Door opens and closes; sounds of baby crying and television)
MOTHER: That's right! That's all you do, just sit in front of the TV!
FATHER: Hey, don't break my balls, shut up already!
MOTHER: You're not gonna help! I gotta deal with your kids and that loser son of yours...
FATHER: I work hard all day and I gotta deal with your SHIT! (Sound of glass breaking)
MOTHER: What do you fuckin' think you're doing? What are you doing?!
FATHER: How do you like that?!
MOTHER: What do you think you're doing?
FATHER: How do you like that?!
MOTHER: You fucking animal!
FATHER: I told you to shut the hell up!
MOTHER: Don't you ruin my kitchen! I'm sick of this! I want out! I want out!
FATHER: Get the fuck outta here!
MOTHER: I can't stand this! You and your lousy fucking kids!
FATHER: Hey, how do you like that you bitch? (More glass breaking)
MOTHER: Don't you destroy my kitchen!
FATHER: Hey, I'll destroy your world!
MOTHER: FUCK YOU! You PIECE OF SHIT! Now get out of here you pig!
FATHER: Yeah, get outta here...you!
MOTHER: You and your fucking loser son! (Door slams) I'm outta here! I'm
not dealing with nothing anymore! You piece of shit! I WANT OUT! I WANT OUT!

(Kid breathes heavily; turns on stereo)
MOTHER: Get outta here! Get outta here! I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE!!
(Sound of bathroom door opening and closing; bathtub water turned on)
MOTHER: I want you outta here! Right this minute! I gotta use the
bathroom! Whatta you doin' in there?! You goin' through my makeup? It's my
bathroom, I gotta use it! Don't touch my tampons! It's my bathroom, I work
hard to keep it clean, I can use it whenever I want!

(Sound of Kid slitting wrists; brief cry of pain)
MOTHER: It's my bathroom!
(Sound of blood dripping into the bathtub; door opens)
MOTHER: Oh, oh, OH MY GOD! OH JESUS CHRIST! NO! NOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!! OOOOH MYYYY GOOOOD!!!!
(Dripping continues)

We've got the method of groove that grabbed your attention
Now that you're aware we're gonna give you the message
My father taught me many things
Living deaf, dumb, & blind will get you nothing
So listen up and hear what I have to say
It's never too late to learn in this day and age
We'll point you in a new direction
Passed down to this generation

If you've hread anything from me
It would be to hold on to your dreams
Learn from my mistakes
And it will take off some weight
He said "You got your whole life to live,
And so much more to give,
Never compromise and you will never live a lie"
He said "Son, remember where you came from"

We never doubted ourselves for a minute
Ah they may criticize and compromise, but we were always in it

So come on down and see what this is all about
It's in our soul, on the road, wherever we may go
So wake up, nothing can stop us,
We got the chaos so just let us
Provide the lines that make your mind spend the time
Think before you sink to the bottom

He said "Son, remember where you came from"

(Street sounds; door opens; sound of television, crying baby and mother in
the kitchen)

[MOTHER:] Yeah, sure, now you walk in! You walk in now, four o'clock! You're
one hour late for dinner! You know, the school called me today and told me
you'd been playing hooky. Do you know that? Who do you think you are?
Don't walk away from me! Don't walk away from me!

(Door opens and closes; Mother's voice muffled; Kid takes off coat,
rewinds tape on answering machine.)

[GIRLFRIEND:] Hi. It's me. I just wanted to tell you that, I don't know if
you know this, but we haven't really been gettin' along lately. And, I
just don't feel the same anymore. And, I hope we can still be friends and
all, but I don't want to go out with you anymore. Sorry.

(Long silence; Beep)

A little older, little wiser
With every breath I learn just a little more
And with all I've seen, I've finally made up my mind
Enough of this world
Enough blood in these eyes
So, so, so sick of this life

Chorus
It's about time I realized
Release this hate from inside
Enough blood in my eyes

Call it what you will
Call it suicide
Disregard how you feel
I'm just freeing my mind
Clench my teeth as I sleep
So, so, so sick of this life
Cannot take, cannot fake


Can't shake this blood from these eyes

Chorus

All I have and all I will be
Nevertheless I'll live for all eternity
'cause you can't erase my words, can't erase my mind
You can't wipe out my thoughts
Can't shake this blood from my eyes
So, so, so don't even try

Chorus

Just give me one good reason to live
I'll give you three to die
Let's leave this world behind

From day one I could not comprhend
Was it us, was it me, or was it them?
Friends will come and go as it seems
And now I have no shoulder on which to lean
Still I do not understand
You break your back for something
Well where's the fans?

Show me - respect
And I'll
Show me - Show you right back

I see the boys that I once called my friends
They'll fake a smile and then they'll shake your hand
When will this ever end?
I look around at my brothers
My only true friends

You got a lot to learn my friend
You've got a lot to learn about respect!

I got the razor at my wrist
'cause I can't resist
I've got this fever burnin' fist
That does as I wish
But when I get downtown
And see what's around
I just know there's got to be
A better place to be found

Oh, God help me

The river runs red and I think I'm dyin'

Well I know there'd come a day
When my mind would say "Hey are you afraid"
Well all I know is that I been down here tryin'
Well, I'll bleed on through the night
I suppose I'll be dead by the morning light
So don't be suprised if you mind when you find me

The river runs red and I think I'm dyin'
The river runs red and I think I'm dyin'

Oh, God help me

Was it me? honestly
Turn away from my purity
Never look back and don't look ahead
At those lies that night or empty promises
It's the blood in your tears
The pain in your veins
The lies, the cries, only the
Only the stain remains

Everyday-i live it
Everyday-i face it
Everyday-i hate it
All I need is me and that's it

I wish I could turn back the hands of time
And maybe I would believe in a dream I cannot even see


Close your ears if you don't want to hear
Let me make myself perfectly clear
I don't believe your dream even exists
Save your prayers and solve your problems with your fist

Sometimes I don't see any point in life
Can't seem to break away
From the pain that's here to stay

All I need, set me free
All I need, set me free
All I need, set me free
All I need...is me!

When all is said and done
I'll always be your son
But all is not forgiven
Well I'm on my knees pleading
Just 'cause I'm grown you think I don't need
Much more than what you've ever given me

[Chorus]
So when we gonna get together
Seems there's no time for me
You act like you got forever
You've got time, but you ain't got time for me
You said you've got time
But you ain't got time for me

Now that you've gone and tossed
The bottle away now will ya
Start a new life with the new wife
Well she'll never be my mother
I suppose that you know you oughta
Remember the ones you left behind

[Chorus]

You're just letting it slip away now
You act like things are fine
I know you think you've been born again
But this time

You're leaving your son behind
This time
This time
This time

You got that look in your eye again
It's working overtime
Worried about where I'm gonna spend my life
But it's much too late, I said it's much too late
I said it's much too late to start picking fights
You said: Where ya been, where ya going
Where ya going to, where ya going to, where are ya going?

'Cause I'll be right here, yeah
Can it wait, can't you wait, can't you wait
Just a minute now, just a minute now, come on
I need some air to breathe
I need some space, just leave

'Cause I'm colder than ever colder than ever
I said I'm colder than ever
I'm empty
empty through and through

Someday they'll see, someday I'll be
Unwanting of somewhere to hide
But for now I'll take shelter
Deep in the back of my mind
Can it wait? Can't you wait?
Can't you wait?
'Cause I ain't ready to lay it on the line
I still shake, I still shake
I still shake
And from this chill in my spine
I've got this chill oh yeah
In the back of my spine
Baby all the time now
Chilling my bones, chilling all alone now
Find a way, find a way, I've found a way
To cope with the everyday now
Raise your hands if you understand

'Cause I'm colder than ever colder than ever
I said I'm colder than ever
I'm empty
empty through and through

Smiling's just a phrase yeah
And nothing can phrase me
Smiling's just a phrase yeah
And nothing can phrase me
Come on

[MOTHER:]
Eh, back so soon?
You know, don't you have a decent pair of pants
you can put on?
You look like a...a PIG walking in the street! Your hands,
your face-filthy! You disgust me!
I can't believe you live in this house!
You repulse me.
I want to throw up! (Phone rings) Goddamn kids!

(Door opens and closes)
[MOTHER:]
Right! Slam the door again on me!
You know, you're just like your
father! (Voice becomes muffled; sound of answering machine tape rewinding)

[BOSS:]
Yeah, I'm callin' 'em now...Hello? Hello?
Pick up the phone!
Where the fuck are you?
What's the matter, you just decided not to come to work today?
What the fuck is wrong with you?
Ya fuckin' lowlife! Hey, you know what?
Don't even bother coming in anymore.
I've had enough with you and your shit.
That's it, you're fired. You understand me?
Fired. Don't come back here, fuck you, and goodbye.
(Silence on machine; sound of cigarette lighter; beep)

[MRS. GLICKER:]
Hello, this is Mrs. Glicker. I'm calling to reach you about,
to let you know, that, uh, you, you're not graduating this year because
you are failing two subjects and I need to see you as soon as possible.
Be in my office on Monday at 8:30 a.m., promptly, and we'll discuss this
matter further. Thank you. Bye.
(Phone hangs up; silence; beep; shuts off machine)

If you don't walk with me, I will walk alone
Hard enough to believe in myself
When I know they don't believe in me
Unwilling to change for society
I'll be who I want to be
I want to tear it up, tear it out
Get my aggression out
This is what we're here for, control the dance floor
This is why we're here
I said, this is why we're here
So when will it end, when will it end
When will they comprehend, comprehend
That we will overcome this system
I said this is why we're here
They keep on kicking me down, kicking me down
Tryin' to keep me underground, underground
But did I mention we were paving the way
For the new breed of bad seed
We'll never let up until we hear every voice scream
Screamin' these words, screamin' these words
'Til every voice is heard, voice is heard
They keep on screamin' these words, screamin' these words
'Til every voice is heard...
Calling from the underground!
I can feel it in the air I breathe!
I can see we all agree
Unwilling tochange for society
We'll be who we want to be
We are the underground
We are the underground

Is there something wrong with me?

Ripping through the walls
Tearing at the doors of education
Not that it's my fault
I just can't help but sort
Through the pieces
Secluded from the whore
I focus at the board - I'm out of focus

There must be a way
There's got to be a way to overcome this

It's these words and music
That keeps me living, keeps me breathing

It may not be much
But this is all I got
And I'm smiling
It all seems so pointless
The hours seem so endless
And for what?
I'd rather be working
Breaking my back doing someting

At least I have my brothers, my band and my lover
What more could I need?

I buried my friend the other day
And I saw my life in a different way
It was a cold afternoon for a funeral
I did not shed a tear as I watched the snow fall
Is there something wrong with me?
When did I become this empty?
As I gazed down at his grave
I knew someday I'd end up
This way!