The Honorary Title

Is this the sound of our demise
Or just the opposite?
I love you and I miss you
What else is there to say?
It takes a hell of a lot more to complete this

Far more, far more to recreate
Far more, far more, far more, far more
Far more, far more than we can take

When you decide how much time
Do you let, do you let, do you let, do you let
Pass before
These false starts, these small meals
They're for my, for my starving hands
Just treading, just treading shallow waters
Avoiding the drop, the drop in the ocean floor

Far more, far more, far more, far more
Far more, far more than we possess
How much, how much, how much
How much longer, girl
How much longer do we need to wait?

For a moment when the blare of the tv subsides
And then song fills the air, playing every night
A change in the key feels like a change in the season


I pretend almost every, every other night
That this body and its entirety belongs to me, every breath
It comes and goes
It comes and goes
All night

Well, you can't dictate the way, the way I'm gonna feel
No matter what, no matter what I'm forced to see
I'll be the one free of jealousy

Well, you can't dictate the way, the way I'm gonna feel
No matter what, no matter what I'm forced to see
I'll be the one free of jealousy

Far more, far more, far more, far more
Far more, far more than we can take
So well, so well, so well rehearsed
I coordinate this kind of mess

I'll do it like, do it like, do it like
Do it like, do it like, do it like
Do it like, do it like, do it like we used to
Like we used to do

I love you and I miss you
What else is there to say?

Doesn't seem that selfish
No, not in the least.
What's so self righteous about this curiosity,
This want for a meager exchange?
So much time has passed, but still, it remains.
This need for you is a recurring theme in my life

Don't you think I'm lonely
Eager to complete the story
Confused and still haunted with why you'd start over
Oh, and ignore me

It takes time to realize the other side of you
That's controlled and blinding on sight of our lives
Even if you left me and my brother
Even if you left us and our mother.

I want nothing more than to catch your eye
Would you be impressed with how far I've climbed
Without your assistance?
With you nowhere in sight?

Don't you think I'm lonely
Eager to complete the story
Confused and still haunted
With why you'd start over
Oh, and ignore us

It takes time to realize the other side of you
That's controlled and blinding on sight of our lives
Even if you left me and my brother
Even if you left us and our mother

She's had her share
More than we'll know
My brother won't, he just won't let go.

They say you're sick and there's a name and a phrase
To apply and help explain
Still having trouble trying to separate
How you started a new family

Even after you left me and my brother
Even after you left us and our mother.

I'm lacking any discipline
Pulling strings
Tapping up your skin with porcelain
Stop listening
No longer need, oh the sunlight
That night we had it will suffice
Infatuation is the perfect camouflage
Or the temporary place to go

I'm lacking any confidence
Second-guessing
Separate for perspective
Is there nothing at all?
Now I'll see you for weeks and weeks
Judge hastily, no patience

I've seen you under every, every sort of light
From ideal perfection to the darker side
You always were
You always were so good to me

I need a stimulant
something to help reinvent
I need a stimulant
something to help reinvent

Well, I have only one request
Wait until I'm gone
Wait until I'm gone
Wait until I'm gone
Wait until I'm gone

Is there nothing left?
Is there nothing left?
Is there nothing at all?
Is there nothing left?
Is there nothing left?
Is there nothing at all?

well I need a stimulant
something to help reinvent
I need, I need, I need
I need, I need, I need

Well I have only one request

You always were
You always were so good to me

Have your lips graced another's yet
Or am I the only one?
Everytime I try to speak to you
Those are the thoughts that run
Say something else, girl
I don't want to have to leave
Our communication is hardly what it used to be

When can I claim you to be my own, so selfishly?
When can I claim you to be my own, my only?

Want nothing more than our futures to collide
Can tell this is going to be one of many disappointing nights
Traces of you are so minimal
A black and white ?? photobook with us

When can I claim you to be my own, so selfishly?
When can I claim you to be my own, my only?

And I have only one week to make you mine
And I may never see you again
It's not only for me, it's not only me


There's a little bit, a little bit here for you
But I'm willing to wait
I'm willing to wait

Day time is no longer the hours spent
Lit by sunlight rather the hours to obsess
And the night is far worse
'Cause I know you're alone with her
And thoughts of, of us have been deserted
It'll never be the same
I'll never be the same again
I'll never be the same again

I have only one week to make you mine
And I may never see you again
Time is few and far between
There is someone else who needs
There is someone else who needs your attention
But I'm willing to wait
I'm willing to wait
I'm willing to wait
I'm willing to wait

Na na na na na na na na na na na na na na na na

Crawling through the dense green carpeting
Untamed and Seventeen,
tiny fingers couldn't pry their way through that, they cannot unravel

Relapse, fall backwards and slide
Are you suggesting that I repress,
Repress and disguise

na na na na na na na na na na na na na na na na (x2)

Surge of static electricity
brought on by the fear of being seen
creeping up in silence on the battle scene
slow and slithering
we stand still on fourth of july
numb to explosions that
scream and light, light up the sky


na na na na na na na na na na na na na na na na (x2)

The solution its been tested in mind
I will never persevere
When swimming in serotonin even
The city's summer smells like perfume

So rub your wrists together, take a swig
and you'll feel better once you close your eyes.
We tend to sleep for hours and hours

na na na na na na na na na na na na na na na na (x2)

Through the kitchen then up the column of my spine,
all of this hatred and echoing despise (x2)

Just hold on, hold on
Just hold on, hold on

Yesterday's dinner's haunting me today
Blades in my stomach spinning
I awake with a fear of ??
Hiding by the stress of your love
I won't return your calls until it lets up
Oh, just one more season, you will be good

Tonight, oh
Don't even, don't even try, oh

'Cause when I'm concentratin'
on makin' statements
I will fool you into thinkin' we're fine
Yeah, I'll fool you, fool you, fool you, into thinkin' we're fine
Until you start to feel something outside
Yeah, well, you alone can visualise

Not worth the misery
A sordid history
The years of revelry
We converse endlessly
Those powdered lips that say you cry
You start to feel something outside

Tonight, oh
Don't even, don't even try

It's not me that was mistaken
For an earnest, heartfelt evening


For a moon-induced hallucination
Couldn't help but notice
Your eyes are losing focus
Such magnetism, now you're opposed
But if you're not begging for it
Then it's not yours
Once dependent, now no signs of withdrawal

Not worth the misery
A sordid history
The years of revelry
We converse endlessly
Those powdered lips that say you cry
Well, you start to feel something outside

Tonight, oh
Don't even, don't even, don't

Please talk softly now
No need to scream
The raise in decibels seems obsence
Please talk softly now
No need to scream
The raise in decibels seems obsence

Tonight, well, tonight
You sold everything you've been told
I apologise

Resurrect the evening, brought it back as it filled in
Filled in something missing
Something never there to begin
You were so distraught
Had never been in love
Guess you learned your lesson
Don't starve a poor boy

You could not help yourself from crying
The entire night
It's painful when you realise your lives are intertwined
It's helped me somewhat

Well, I'll be yours forever
Just tell me when to start
There are just a few place
That I'll need to stop
Some along the way, some in the midst of
In the midst of our eternal love



And you could not help yourself from crying
The entire night
It's painful when you realise your lives are intertwined
It's helped me somewhat
It's helped me somewhat

Why lie?
The truth's easy to find in time
Forgive me of this crime
It's alright
I swear I'll never, swear I'll never
Swear I'll never do this again

Why lie?
The truth's easy to find in time
Forgive me of this crime
It's good night
I don't even, I don't even
I don't even know her name

Between this urban territory satellites
Our children could be so much better off sacrificed than lost
Just 200 miles out east
Smothered in the sun's evening glare
dispersing the colours as i stare
the rays that will spread and spray
from ??
only in between in my hands
only in between

radiate radiate radiate not only for
radiate radiate radiate not only for you
not only for you

If I could be as strong as my father was with us then
There's no reason to doubt resentment is out,
Absolutely out of the question
Smothered in the sun's evening glare
dispersing the colours as I stare


The rays that will spread and spray
from ??
only in between in my hands
only in between

Radiate, radiate, radiate, not only for
Radiate, radiate, radiate, not only

This life we have chosen's eating you up from the inside
I'm not asking
I am begging
Why won't you realise?
say it in your own way
I know you wish we had stayed
say it in your own way
I know you wish we had stayed

Radiate, radiate, radiate, not only for
Radiate, radiate, radiate, not only for you

Everything I
You were, everything I
once had

The bar on 1st Avenue, we went there solely for you
So you can flirt with my best friend
Kiss a girl, tell me why you're laughing

I won't hold on
I can't hold on
to this

There's a hole in the trust that we
mapped out in my bed for six long months
There's a hole in the trust that we
mapped out in my bed
for six long months
for six long months
Well I won't hold on,
to this

February, Valentines Day
Did my best to avoid the red cliches
So you dumped me on the subway
On my way to work at 9 in the morning
Everybody else is holding bouquets
Now I'm holding my face in the basement
Scratching away for any trace
Of affection you will leave
Falling victim to the publics prey

Well I won't hold on
No, I can't hold on
I won't hold on
to this

There's a hole in the trust that we
mapped out in my bed for six long months
There's a hole in the trust that we
mapped out in my bed...

There's a hole in the trust that we
mapped out in my bed
Oh, I won't hold on to this.


Anyone is suitable for,
for you I guess tonight
Anyone is suitable for you I guess.
You were a phase
It's over with
You my beautiful
You were a phase
It's over with you
You my beautiful
With your beautiful blue and white
Your beautiful blue and white

Running in and out of breath
Stained skin and teeth too red
Incessant slamming in the tongue
God forbid I spend one night alone
Out to the parking lot
Stumbling towards my apartment
Pressed you close against the screen door,
close enough to feel underneath your clothes

You overcompensate for your own inexperience,
Don't underestimate, oh my fear of getting caught

So many words, so many words
So many you can't believe
So many words, so many words
So many stuck at sea

On the second story of your suburban home
Mom's asleep just two doors down
Funny how when stuck at sea
Things are never the way the seem
Clouds take the shape of gloves
Reaching over the flames at dusk
Missing clips in your consciousness
Just act as if I don't exist

You overcompensate for your own inexperience,


Don't underestimate, oh my fear of getting caught.

So many words, so many words
So many you can't believe
So many words, so many words
So many stuck at sea

Felt the repetition of my way
The lack of apprehension
That one day

So many words, so many words
So many you can't believe
So many words, so many words
So many you can't believe

I'll keep burning my fingers
In attempt to rekindle the flame
The match is too flimsy
And the wind just annuls her name
So I pull out the garments that will press between us
On the dream this evening you refer to in disgust.

So many words, so many words
So many you can't believe
So many words, so many words
So many stuck at sea (x3)

Maybe it's time to hold onto one side, one decision
Let go of the hand that holds me high above that great divide

And beauty is the ease required for you to understand
That single frame of animation

I think you know
I think you know
I realise when you wake up that sometimes
I appear unfamiliar but these prints can't lie
I realize when you wake up that sometimes
I appear unfamiliar but these prints can't lie
These prints can't lie

Possessing all the features I've predetermined to objectify
Effortless and rubenesque, yet so perfectly-ly aligned

And beauty is the ease required for you to understand
That single frame of animation

I think you know
I think you know
I realise when you wake up that sometimes
I appear unfamiliar but these prints can't lie
I realize when you wake up that sometimes
I appear unfamiliar but these prints can't lie

Nine or ten songs I had let pass before
I had broke that first thought progression
And there we were, in the same restaurant grazing legs underneath the table

And I will always, always
I will watch over you
I will always, always
I will watch over you
Over you, over you

I realise when you wake up that sometimes
I appear unfamiliar but these prints can't lie
I realize when you wake up that sometimes
I appear unfamiliar but these prints can't lie
These prints can't lie

I want you back
This means untouched and intact
(you always were so critical)
I want you back
This means untouched and intact
(you always were so critical)
I want you back
This means untouched and intact
(you always were so critical)
I want you back
This means untouched and intact

Are you not the slightest bit confused?
Just the truth
The speed at which we move blends so well
It's too soon

Separate yourself from what compels you to relinquish us
Push your way on to me entirely
Stay away from me, stay away from me now
Unless you gonna see, unless you gonna see me out

No, I can't dance unless it's slow or sad
To a song that's far less obvious
You're using me, do it slowly
Make it last until I have to go

Trust me when I say just a few more weeks
Don't move
Resist temptation or do as you see fit?
Just choose

Separate yourself from what compels you to relinquish us
Push your way on to me entirely
Stay away from me and stay away from me now
Unless you gonna see, unless you gonna see me out

No, I can't dance unless it's slow or sad
To a song that's far less obvious
You're using me, do it slowly
Make it last until I have to go

No, I can't dance unless it's slow or sad
To a song that's far less obvious
You're using me, do it slowly
Make it last until I have to go

No, I can't dance unless it's slow or sad
To a song that's far less obvious
If you're using me do it slowly
Make it last until I have to go

Stay away from, stay away from
Stay away from me
Stay away from, stay away from
Stay away from me
Stay away from, stay away from me

Through a thin layer of rubber and a thick rusted armor of drunken lust
I think when our clothes were on we had a different image of
What this was supposed to be
My buzz allowed me to slip into you more comfortably

Here's what I intended, and here is the truth(x2)

The soundtrack to our meeting fills the awkward spaces between our strained breathing
And the only thing between, between the two of us, is your blood and our sweat
I can taste the cigarettes on your tongue while exchanging spit

Here's what I intended, and here is the truth(x2)
Here is the truth (x6)

Now disguise this whining with melody, and I hope that it leaves, leaves you intrigued
And I hope you feel, you feel what I did at the time that this was conceived
Well, the silence is pleasing, between our strained breathing, now it's over with
This is not what I intended

I knew something was wrong just in the way you said 'I'm so sorry'
The story read and I pleaded for you to continue

With you in my presence the pictures reassemble themselves
Return to the cracked frame on top the television (x2)

I'm sorry but I can't see past what other people are thinking (x2)
What other people are thinking, other people are thinking

Your voice cracked, almost begged for forgiveness
Before you even told me, told me

With you in my presence the pictures reassemble themselves
Return to the cracked frame on top the television (x2)

I'm sorry but I can't see past what other people are thinking (x2)
What other people are thinking, other people are thinking

With you in my presence the pictures reassemble themselves
Return to the cracked frame on top the television (x2)

Those that are tore to shreds in the moment you were in two dimensions (x2)
Just two dimensions

I'm filling in the empty spaces where you left your mark
You left your mark

Dilute

The islands small and desolate the highway stretch towards nothingness
Weeds infest our front lawn, the picket fence impales the sun that silhouettes on our houses dressed up in luminesce
And the softest part of your flesh helps my body ingest sleep in the dead of the summer

I will pretend that you won't be gone
Distance dilutes it rewrites and rewrites
And I will pretend that you wont be gone
Distance dilutes it rewrites and rewrites this song

The islands small and desolate the highway stretch towards nothingness
Weeds infest our front lawn, the picket fence impales the sun that silhouettes on our houses dressed up in luminesce
And the softest part of your flesh helps my body ingest sleep in the dead of the summer

I will pretend that you won't be gone
Distance dilutes it rewrites and rewrites
And I will pretend that you won't be gone
Distance dilutes and rewrites this song

But I keep asking you to tell me what is wrong,
And you, you just tell me that it's nothing at all
But in your helplessness I can see, you know I can see

The softest part of your flesh helps my body ingest sleep in the dead of the summer
I will pretend that you won't be gone
That distance dilutes it rewrites and rewrites
And I will pretend that you won't be gone
That distance dilutes it rewrites and rewrites
And I will pretend that you won't be gone

Days bunch up in weeks, collaborate months against me.
The sheets are stained with evidence that our remains are now, drifting away.

I share with complete strangers my most personal of pleasures.
I scribble tidbits of useless mind info- trash, treasure.
Spend hours, at my leisure, like sharpened precise tweezers.

Shifting through in the frame by frame
I walk the same path
I'll say the same lines
I do this every time
Do this every time

Dodging armpit stench aromatic
Wrapped up in my own self-induced stress panic
I think I am the only one in this shifting through

They'll collaborate in months against me.