American Head Charge

Lead me around
Nurse my broken wing
With all the promises
You can never honor
I just dont care enough
To react to vain attempts
Sent only to perpetuate
One's selfish little world
You wont see what ive become
Youll wait and watch and still
Youre only let down
A violent reaction
Struggling only to keep myself alive
Now here I stand
For nothing no one at all
I lead you down
Begging to touch you in the cold
You give me a reason
I will not be the one
Through all the nonsense
There is a constant
You wont see what ive become
Youll wait and watch and still
Youre only let down
Cause this feeling
Has dawned the face of you
A violent reaction
Struggling only to keep myself alive
You wont see what ive become
Cause this feeling
Has dawned the face of you
A violent reaction
Struggling only to keep myself alive

An overwhelming understanding
Of chaos brings you to your knees
Impurities make me the way that I am
The dirt in my veins
The games on my thoughts
The stains on your face
They break it apart
Motherfucking
Pushing the envelope
Life sets me off
Pushing the envelope
Hate gets me off
Motherfucking
Pushing the envelope
Gets me off
Pushing the envelope
Your face it sets me off
Im curled up inside myself so
I wont imagine the pictures
If I had prosthetic eyes I still
Think that Id see the same
Satisfy retribution inside
Subsequent afternoons turning out seared
Bothered by fallacies everyones scared

Motherfucking
Pushing the envelope
Life sets me off
Pushing the envelope
Hate gets me off
Motherfucking
Pushing the envelope
Gets me off
Pushing the envelope
Your face it sets me off {2x}

Killing myself like a tool in wrong
Disquieting changes in direction
Just keep on pushing
Motherfucker

I can still watch those eyes
crawling over her dress until
I could show you everything
but I dont have to hear the words
cause I already feel your thoughts
so it comes as no surprise
that all the intent is real
all the suspects are right
if we stop
it all falls down
cover my eyes
obey my ignorance
to purify you
Ill only watch you rot
without malicious intent
your doubt resembles someone else
stick the needles in me
stick the needles in [3x]
if we watch
it all come down
breathe and let it go
dropped and winding
fuck your confession
fuck your confusion
dissolve my insides
make it hide
crawling on diginity
that which you do to me
hold on forever
the fair day we
weather

follow me now and I will drown you
fill you full of reason
no windows Ill take you
to the dirty place that I love
slipping on messes
you made when I hit you
makes me more exicitable
Ill never get caught [2x]
pull it tight Ill see right through it
Ill never get caught
cradle the difference in front of your fist
force it down to bring it back up
make them listen one more time
wrapping you up in an american flag
I fuck you for the glory
no complaints from my friends
they keep their fucking mouths shut
I couldnt care less
about the way that you see me
soothing I will never be
Ill always get shit [2x]
for acknowledging pervisity
Ill never get caught
cradle the difference in front of your fist
force it down to bring it back up
make them listen one more time
never get caught

No sense of self
To balance it off

Preconceived notions of something
That everyones gone

Will I show up
With all that I have to give
Would you consider it a gift

But that
Doesnt matter anyway
It doesnt matter anyway
It doesnt matter anyway you
Liar
You're such a
Liar

On your hands and knees
Picking up the broken pieces
Liar
You're such a
Liar

On your hands and knees

Afraid to turn my head
For fear of whats behind me
Only one resourse left
So dont frown on my surprise
Is this all you have?
Is that all you know?
I swear Ive seen you before
But that
Doesn't matter anyway
It doesn't matter anyway
It doesn't matter anyway
It doesn't matter anyway you
Liar
You're such a
Liar
On your hands and knees
Picking up the broken pieces

Liar
You're such a
Liar
On your hands and knees

Pleasingly (falling apart)

Pleasingly (oblivious)

Pleasingly (falling apart)

Pleasingly (oblivious)

You've left with more of the same
I cant win
You've left with more of the same
I cant win
You've left with more of the same
I cant win
You've left with more of the same
I cant win

You're such a
Liar
Liar
Liar
Liar
You're such a
Liar
Liar
Liar
Liar

the surface is so cold and worthless
all the things that I have still come from there
so paint the windows in front of my face
when you know damn well there's
no one behind them
I wish your body was not so warm to me
just so you know
and all it was was something beautiful
when tides and dreams don't seem so tall at all
it's me against the world still I'm losing ground
and I'd kill to taste what it must be like
cause it's everyone of my empty parts
that you fill, now.
I wish your body was not so warm to me
just so you know
and all it was was something beautiful
when tides and dreams don't seem so tall at all
pause silence
another moment dropped off
left behind and
hanging still
you won't see me
I can't see you
and all it was was something beautiful
when tides and dreams don't seem so tall at all

stink filled spasms
deep in a colostomy bag
I like being trapped inside
the plastics wearing out
red and perfect her legs
spread out in front of me
theyre so open they make me sweat
its my lubrication
recent findings say
circumcise the abstinent
make it hard for them to breathe
I like to make you lie
dropped and so ill
steeped in my mysogeny
my shaking hands are in the skin
Ive gone too far too soon
you look so seamless now
she stared at me
thinking I was sweet to it
her legs tied apart for me
it feels so good inside
now Im thinking
whos this that lies under me
needs a piece of my respect
you make me so sick Im
crawling broken my face is
cringing to see
figures drawn inside of me
succumb [3x]
sickness fittings
procured this fascist medium
but know Im laughing in your face
you lie [3x]
you look so seamless now
take me
take my life

burn the bed
consummated
rest the head
it just holds us back now
still she keeps on looking
of course [2x]
nows theres nothing I hate as much
wet the lips
shut your pretty mouth
use the kiss
tommorrow fails to exist
still she keeps on looking
of course [2x]
now theres nothing I
it all surfaces in this light
words under my breath
taking my time
breaking your smile
feed the wish
let it flourish


head for shore
let me haunt you
still she keeps on looking
now theres nothing I hate as much [2x]
I will sleep
(It all surfaces in this light)
throughout the infection
fast asleep
where nothing can find me
words under my breath
taking my time
breaking your smile
everyone goes away
I cant even try
I watched you slip away

walk with an impure mind
revelations unkind
abject dental of the flesh I feel
endure and make my mind
its never time to start
believing everything will all work out
bloody knuckles
empty cavity
swift disposal
empty cavity
weve blinded ourselves sick
to create room for it
never arriving when its needed most
anticipation burns
unquenchable we learn
left holding nothing but the will to live
bloody knuckles
empty cavity
swift disposal
empty cavity
why? [4x]
negative takes its toll
constant release and hold
beware the trust that you
instill in me
beware the trust that you [2x]
beware the trust I instill in me
bloody knuckles
empty cavity
swift disposal
empty cavity
choke it up
choke it back
choke it down
choke it away

the trait that is still
left on the killing floor for you
that smile as he still
itches for killing more of you
the taste as he still
catches me lasting to it
the recoil they still
dream of that lasting spit
are you
shutdown in it
shut my eyes only once
brought me back up for nothing
yet it always seems like
I live in the shit
I make it bleed
I wont ever quit
I cause the need
lying in my bed
telling me your scared
of me when Im god
of me when Im dead
the temptation still
passses me lying for it only
false reminders still
drown myself trying for it only
reaching upwards still
squashes me under it
its only god still
seizing my final breath
are you
shutdown in it
shut my eyes only once
brought me back up for nothing
yet it always seems like
Im drawn into it
I cant belong
such a perfect fit
I wont be wrong
holding on in vein
telling me your scared
of me when Im god
of me when Im dead
I live in the shit
I make it bleed
I wont ever quit
I cause the need
lying in my bed
telling me your scared
of me when Im god
of me when Im dead
love me when Im god
love me when Im dead
dead
I dont want to be shutdown

I know this much
I cant stand me
when I become him
I know this much
I dont feel free
when Im repentant
tell him this much
you dont want him
due to extra skin
tell him this much
you forsake him
due to pretension
now we have everything we need
to come up to where youre pristine
we believe
tell him this much
you cant withstand
taking it upright
tell him this much
you felt dirty
because it was tight
I know this much
that old feeling
Im done hanging on
I know this much
stop pretending
what was had is gone
now we have everything we need
to come up to where you are seen
we believe

My throat is dry when I
(stain it)
keep the hate alive
(abuse it)
your lips are tight when I
(to keep it from)
cover them with mine
(running you)
this is a sickness
(need it)
you cannot conceive
(mistreat it)
it takes the quiet
(its all thats left)
to not exceed
(breathe in, bleed out)
where is your comfort now
its on the way out
where are your reasons now
theyre all worn out
My throat is tight when I
(pull it)
keep the hate alive
(push it)
your lips are dry when I
(tie it up in)
cover them with mine
(knots and)
Its an affliction
(lose it)
nothing comes to mind
(let go of it)
Its unstrategic
(all to keep it soft and cold)
nothing comes to mind
(breathe in,bleed out)
where is your comfort now
its on the way out
where are your reasons now
theyre all worn out

pathetic sympathies
left for the bloody at heart
everything fades to shit
evertyhing tears me apart
caustic insecurities
surface above the witheld
every time I need
everything I want
aesthetic disguises
underlying doubts
my direction dies
everythings right up in your face
everythings right up in front
push me against the wall
but still you cant make me
fall
you cant make me
fall
seperate your mouth
scrape away
prosthetic misery
idiosyncratic
pushing me to never
hold my breath
everythings right up in your face
everythings right up in front
push me against the wall
but still you cant make me
fall
you cant make me
fall
seperate your mouth
scrape away
I dont like you at all!

Ive seen it turn from white to red
Ive heard you talk about how
you bleed and it doesnt mean shit
until I see some action a hint of
rose and a mountain of garbage
leaves me for dead and nothing drags me from
breaking myself
breaking myself to try to keep everyone
from walking over me
smell the burning wreckage of even you
all of your perfection lets get inside
the bag turn it 180 degrees
forget we even met cause it all comes
down to this the good ones always
leave in the end
breaking myself
breaking myself to try to keep everyone
from walking over me
I see the world and it all looks blue
I kiss the world and it all tastes true
The blurry eyes make me appealing
In a normal fashion another 2 or 3
you will become very friendly
your liquidation is a siren song
you swim I follow Im feeling my head sink
so as to reach and touch what hurts me
still I try to reach and touch what hurts me

And now with the following collection of...

Im above everything else
Saved the ones who shouldn't be
Hold on to them all so youll
Find yourself away from me

Our lost faith strung out on a line
My most empathetic dreams of you
The sorry excuses on which we dine
When all my fears tell me it's true

Borrowed dreams of some imagined future
All wrapped up inside this borrowed hope

Don't manipulate the most
Beautiful thing youll ever know
To the extent of saving your
Ragged torn out sickly show
Holding my head above the fold
Can't decide which side I want
I buried everything so deep in the cold
Now I stop inside of the lies I flaunt

Borrowed dreams of some imagined future
All wrapped up inside this borrowed hope

Pull it all away from me
Show me all the things I can
Never be allowed to see
It's all so far away

If you must have faith in someone
Trust that Ill push you away
If you must have faith in someone
Trust that Ill push you away

WHAT AM I IF?
The flies all stick to me.

WHAT AM I IF?
The maggots live in me.

WHAT AM I IF?
I'm closet to the stink.

WHAT AM I IF?
You're all thats real to me.

WHAT AM I?

Teach me just. show me
Break everything. flush it away
Teach me just show me
The starts already over
Break everything and

FLUSH IT AWAY!

freedom is everything
resolve impossible
you prayed for rain
ignoring the flood
you took me with you
to heaven
back again
bleed to remember
that everything ends
blind and looking forward
I can see the shapes
but cant make out the faces
still they come in close
excuse this ugly shell my
gaping holes drip pride
a systematic shutdown
of diminishing returns
NOTHING GETS EASIER GETS! [2X]
I held you down
on the day of the lord
31 marks like the day
I was born
I called you beautiful
before I knew you
watch me destroy it
set myself free
still so dead and frozen
we all survive it
restraints brought
back for color
the most insulting guilt
such sweet attractive layers
let me remove them all
NOTHING GETS EASIER GETS! [2X]
bring me home
let me down
send me back
collecting the phases
the less I give
its easier
the more we give
its nothing
NOTHING GETS NOTHING! [repeat]