Jean Cook

Saw a car burning down on the side of the highway
Ambulance came but I couldn't tell if it got there on time
Lights all a'flashin i could see them through the rear view mirror
II watched them disappear

F you gimme a ride i can take you higher
If you gimme a ride i'll do the same for you
Some time

People come and go
But they fit just like pieces of puzzles
Pieces of troubles
Lovers come
Lovers move on
I looked for you in the rubble
But i couldn't find you
I can't seem to let you go

This is where we cross that line
This is where we lost our time
Abondon love every time
For something more

If you gimme a ride i can take you higher
If you gimme a ride i'll do the same for you
Some times

I see you in the car in the night with your lights on
All running the cold towards the dark and the trees
There's something pulling me back under your covers
But a woman who knows better sees that it's time to leave

There's nothing more that i could give to the center
Of a place that has never stood still
There's not enough room here and there's never enough poison
To kill the way that i really feel

But when i get home i find you
Begging and scratching for more
Don't force me to be cruel
Find your own way to the door

'cause you have to recognize that i am justified
And i, i can break you down

You asked for this, you don't have the guts to get over

And i'm so tired that's the price of your whys
And i don't mind telling you that you made me cry too

I was won like a prize and you don't have the guts just to tell me the truth

So i leave you in the car in the night with your lights on
All running the cold past the dark and the trees
Is this what you wanted, evidence of everything
I will plead guilty, i need this release

What you get is what you bargained for
At the store aisle in the store
I'm wondering what's in store for me
Look for the discounts, discount in everything
Everything trivial, everything unfriendly
They're all out of the good ones again

But I'm not looking for a few pennies off
Just show me something that doesn't go soft
We're all out
We're all out

Outside everything's colder
Kids get older, friends get so far apart
Just hold on, to something, anything
Convenience highlights imminence
The imminence of change
And I hold coupons in my hands
Empty demands
Standing in the aisle

Lately it's anything that sets me off
At the store aisle, back for more
I'm wondering how to start again
Because all sales are final
Finality finds me looking for discounts
Hell-bent on easy and
Nothing good ever comes that way

But I'm not looking to save a few cents
I just need something that doesn't break when it bends
But they're all out

I am standing outside
The birds are flying west
I am in the middle of a puddle
With mud on my dress
But I liked the way that I was
And I wanted to stay that way
But I took a walk last night
And now everything, everything's changed

I like to draw maps
I like to show you where I've been
This is the place where it's hotter than summer
This is where I'm called Madeline
Have you ever felt heat so deep in your blood?
Where fire meets iron and melts down the core
This is the thing that you shouldn't have done
And that's what I'm gonna make you pay for this
Now that I make this noise
I don't have to listen to you

You asked to see my compass
It's pointed toward the sky
Time is going to give up on me
I need to learn to fly
I'm going to spread my wings
And hold my only pain
And the birds will commend my island
As I swim to the top of the rain

Looking out from nowhere
Taking in a view
I see in the sideway between me and you
Nothing is forever you can spend a lifetime learning that
Gather your defenses, and we'll always leave you alone

Playing back the pictures
You can almost taste it now
Memory is so sure but it's never quite what is was
Everything's distorted when you're looking through the glass
Pictures change their color, impressions they always have

Markers all scattering light
Pulling shadows falling on your back
Falling on your eyes

We were carrying the corpse
Dropped it in a well
Tried to salvage something even though we landed in hell
You grieve so silently
In and out of memory

So take another shot before you bend to say goodbye
Take another shot before you bend to say goodbye
And after all is said
After all is said
After all is said and done

You take it right
You take it right?right
Back

After all is said, it's the only thing on your mind
After all is said, it's the only thing on my, only thing
Only

Some days are heavy and some days are mean
Some days fall somewhere in between
Today i would like to tear you apart at the seams

Taking a plane is the worst kind of day
Holding your breath in the sky
You should never write a letter that high

Speaking my mind is not what i do best
But i have to get this all off my chest
Open this window and hope that these words will fly

But hey what does it matter now
Cause turning back pages is not something time will allow
But wait i never got to say
You were digging into me and then you just got away

So how can you say that i'm wasting time
After all of the years i have spent trying to fill up the hole
That you left sitting there in my heart

And i'm taking it back
And i'm making it mine
I am still trying

Oh ohhhh oh

Some days are heavy and some days are mean
Some days fall somewhere in between, in between

Like glass shattering in a clean break
This is the art of a mistake
And we were like kids with a shotgun
Blowing up words till there were none

And maybe i'm too young

I thought that i could destroy it
Aimed shot and fired
Missed the target
But you keep coming abck
Hand me fractured words through the lens of time
And some things cant be burned
Even when they yurn to die

Sitting in the office
Sitting in your chair
The temporary positions
Friends that disappear

Call a toll-free number
Voicemail message clear
You might need some assistance
Sorry, no one's there

You said
You said
You caught me
In the middle of a bad time again

Meaning you are living
Leaving you alive
Like everybody else
In the middle of a bad time

Who's that call waiting
On the telephone line
And new friends can get fragile
Scrambling for time with you
A bad time

Bad time
In the middle of a bad time

How long I've been waiting
And collecting calls
Yeah don't you want to know
You got lots of messages from
All over town
Some of them know you
But most of them are just business as usual

You said
You said
You caught me
In the middle of a bad time

What's the point of trying
To begin again
Or even finding out
In the middle of a bad time

Who gonna help you
When the elevator door jams
When all you've got are contracts
Couldn't give a damn
About you

A bad time
Bad time
Middle of a bad time

Hold back again
Don't deny
They always want you to
Pull the ship from out of the sky

Give out some more
It's such a steal
They only want you to
Market the way that you feel

You'll never know
How much I care
I notice the way that you look at me
When you're not there

Still having fun
In for the long run
Only just begun

Do you remember
Smashing up a bottle
Trying to be rudie
In a tourist town

We were so aimless
But so filled with purpose
And I got so nervous
On your wedding day

It's great to see you now
To see your eyes
You know that they're
So clear and strong

When you look into mine
Do you still see me the same

I can still see us everywhere I look
It's time I come back to this shitty town

Get out of bed or you'll sleep the whole day away
Realize I'm so in love with you

Put up your hair and I'll put on my very best shoes
We'll walk outside and see stars light up the sky

When I'm with you I dont care wherever we go
We'll be alright no one can find us tonight

I think I'd like to go
Back home
And take it easy
There's a woman that
I'd like to get to know
Living there

Everybody seems to wonder
What it's like down here
I gotta get away
From this day-to-day
Running around
Everybody knows
This is nowhere

Everybody, everybody knows
Everybody knows

Every time I think about
Back home
It's cool and breezy
I wish that I could be there
Right now
Just passing time

Everybody seems to wonder
What it's like down here
I gotta get away
From this day-to-day
Running around
Everybody knows
This is nowhere

Everybody, everybody knows
Everybody knows

Easier to find a great pretender
Easier to lie
Thank you for your kind letter
Thank you for your kind letter

It's better just to know than find out later
It's better just to hide
Honesty always matters
Honesty always matters

Oh this fallen arrow
Never found its way to your heart
I shot it with all I had left
It was a rocket in the sky until it tumbled to the ground
It was a rocket in the sky until it fell

Wouldn't take you more than ten small paces
Wouldn't take you less
Stop by when you're feeling better
Stop by when you're feeling better

Oh this fallen arrow
Never found its way to your heart
I shot it with all I had left
It was a rocket in the sky until it tumbled to the ground
It was a rocket in the sky until it fell

It was a rocket in the sky until it tumbled to the ground
It was a rocket in the sky until it fell

The passage of time
Is flicking dimly up on the screen
I can't see the lines
I used to think I could read between
Perhaps my brains have turned to sand
Only, oh my
I think it's been an eternity
You'd be surprised
At my degree of uncertainty
How can moments go so slow
Several times
I've seen the evening slide away
Watching the signs
Taking over from the fading day
Perhaps my brains are old and scrambled
Several times
I've seen the evening slide away
Watching the signs
Taking over from the fading day
Changing water into wine
Several times
I've seen the evening slide away
Watching the signs
Taking over from the fading day
Putting grapes back on the vine

Poor dumb canary
You finally threw yourself in a glass
Treated you so badly
Gave you everything that you wanted

Poor dumb bird

You sang a song or two
You did it better than anyone else
They took it far as they could
They took it into their hands and it got to your gut

Poor dumb bird

You think you made it stop,
You think you made it good,
You think you saved your soul,
You can watch from your box as they serve up what's left of your beak

Poor dumb bird

The sun can rise if it wants,
The rain can fall if it wants,
The fire can strike where it likes
But when one good bird chooses to fly the whole sky starts to look better

Now that you've gone and lit up the sky And gone and left it burning
There's no one left to do your work Though they're already starting to try

Many sweet song that was left to come will stay on the tip of your tongue
Many sweet song that was left to come will stay on the tip of your tongue

Come to dinner with me
We'll walk down the main street
All dressed up
We'll make time for coffee
And know that caffeine makes you sad
But just this once would you do that for me
Cause up in heaven you're a shoe-in
If you open up your heart to me
To me
Let's go driving tonight
We'll take Al's Comet, he'll never know
We'll top it at 95
I know my driving makes you mad
But just once would you do that for me
Cause up in heaven you're a shoe-in
If you open up your heart to me
To me

The sun burns out his eyes
The vampire isn't suprised
He was waiting there all night
To be the first one to notice the dawn
Don't give it the weight
When you're so far out of it
You're so far out of it

I want to notice
All the changes as they come
I want the patience
Of the robber
No cleverness could make that appeal
Sail masked like a prayer
Before the words turned into air

Fixing an eye on the hopeful
In a heartless room you'll be done soon
The snow is falling down
And the whole damn town is covered with white
It's obvious that trust is the catch and the magnet
That could pull you through this braille night
Where nothing's free and you just can't see
How to sacrifice what you need to be

You can't shake this silence still
In your heart you're just not there
You're a thousand miles from here
You just want to disappear

Winter went out with a whimper
Such a lonely sound to try to get around
Imagine yourself as a little kid
In your parents arms and then it's gone
You step to the mic almost petrified
'cause everything you feel is in your eyes
You cannot hide but you're haunted
By the early frost
By the ones you've lost

Beauty shines so bright
Vanishes from sight
Wrap yourself in the night
Love with all your might

You can't shake this silence still
In your heart you're just not there
You're a thousand miles from here
You just want to disappear
You're a thousand miles away
You're a thousand miles away
You're a thousand miles away
You're a thousand miles away

On the way to California
See my sister Carolina
Looking out on South Dakota
At a field of gladiolas
Gonna sell it in the summer
Leave behind the floods and winters
Letting go of what they suffered
Let it fall away like rain across the plains
From a payphone on a corner
Making plans for our departure
I could wish we'd rush right over
Looking back over my shoulder
Cold December weather
Not keeping us together
It's New Years Eve forever
We're flying down the turnpike in the night
Looking out to the horizon
Anyone could see the swelling of your heart
All the lights that shine before you
Looks so helpless, and so far to see
Someone's always running faster
Towards the anchor that you need
You forget again and ask her
Why the light, it had to leave
An echo in a footstep, a whisper from a portrait
Shows us all the stars you see

Let's go walking tonight
I just need to get out of this place
It's been a long night
I still feel old
Even though you've been here with me
Baby, help me through this

Love is everything
There's no true autonomy that wouldn't be shattered
By the willingness to raise up your lips to someone
With no resonations at all

You wake to the sound of the night crashing down
Sucked out of dream
Face to face with your makers
And the facts of a fall
And your faith seems so small

There's an ocean of glass
And you're moving above it
Stretching out in the sky
And your body is weightless
You're an acrobat
No one can deny it
Now we have to try to do all we can
To find you

You know that he's gone with the sun through your window
Everyday is a world that you'd never choose to visit
No one wants to cry or say their goodbyes
Looking in dreams for you
Looking in dreams for you

I'm sailing on a ship so smooth
Maybe I don't have much to lose or win
From your wide open eyes again
With a willing heart and mind I will never be
Far behind

We're just haunted in our skins
By all that could've been
You hide it from your face but it still shows

There's no words for what you are
You stay while death
Is chasing the stars away
From the night sky
You run

And want what you always wanted back

Time won't ever swallow everything
Whole
If you give all your love(love)

I'll be waiting
I'll be waiting
I'll be waiting

Again
So upset
Just hold me
Don't let me forget
What's important
What's important

Take off your dress
Let's stay in bed all day
All night
I don't care
If they're out there
If they're out there

So worn out
Only love can erase
The debts
'Cause the world
Is growing colder
It's getting colder

I want
To be strong
In the face of
What's wrong
'Cause we still
Have each other
Each other

Like glass shattering in a clean break
This is the art of a mistake
And we were like kids with a shotgun
Blowing up words till there were none

And maybe i'm too young

I thought that i could destroy it
Aimed shot and fired
Missed the target
But you keep coming abck
Hand me fractured words through the lens of time
And some things cant be burned
Even when they yurn to die

Like glass shattering in a clean break
This is the art of a mistake
And we were like kids with a shotgun
Blowing up words till there were none

And maybe i'm too young

I thought that i could destroy it
Aimed shot and fired
Missed the target
But you keep coming abck
Hand me fractured words through the lens of time
And some things cant be burned
Even when they yurn to die

what is this weariness that waits for you shrug
you press your ankle against my arm
this is the pressure that i love
you always recommended it
could be the door
could be the phone
for any intent or purpose
your not home
your up against the wall
no real impression like breath on glass

ive got the apple in me too
people are bluer then they ever imagined they might be
looking through the boxes in the basement
who were you then
your restlessness is emptier
then the room we used to live in
here's wishing you the best
the rest is always better left unsaid

what is this weariness that waits for you shrug
you press your ankle against my arm
this is the pressure that i love
you always recommended it
could be the door
could be the phone
for any intent or purpose
your not home
your up against the wall
no real impression like breath on glass

ive got the apple in me too
people are bluer then they ever imagined they might be
looking through the boxes in the basement
who were you then
your restlessness is emptier
then the room we used to live in
here's wishing you the best
the rest is always better left unsaid

what is this weariness that waits for you shrug
you press your ankle against my arm
this is the pressure that i love
you always recommended it
could be the door
could be the phone
for any intent or purpose
your not home
your up against the wall
no real impression like breath on glass

ive got the apple in me too
people are bluer then they ever imagined they might be
looking through the boxes in the basement
who were you then
your restlessness is emptier
then the room we used to live in
here's wishing you the best
the rest is always better left unsaid

what is this weariness that waits for you shrug
you press your ankle against my arm
this is the pressure that i love
you always recommended it
could be the door
could be the phone
for any intent or purpose
your not home
your up against the wall
no real impression like breath on glass

ive got the apple in me too
people are bluer then they ever imagined they might be
looking through the boxes in the basement
who were you then
your restlessness is emptier
then the room we used to live in
here's wishing you the best
the rest is always better left unsaid

Don't get sad on me
Don't get sad on me
I may not have a lot of comfort to spare
But i hear you

I hear you

Put on your coat and your hat and your gloves
And go walking
Take one hand out of your glove on the street
When you're walking
Look straight ahead
Don't turn around when you're walking nothing can hurt you now
Don't turn around when you're walking away

Your love isn't gone
Its just moved on
Its inside you now
It feels so heavy

Your love isnt gone
Its just moved on
Its inside you now
You'll find it somehow

Down on your back
All of your secrets collide
You rise and shine
Lost in your world
Just killing time
Nobody knows
The gift gets so lost behind the lies
Get to the point
Before you die

Light coming down to the ground

Time doesn't hold up
It gets folded in your eyes
That's why you try
To write through the day and all the night
Crushed by the joy that seeps from this site that pulls you in
You try again

Light coming down to the ground

Don't do it again
Don't lose your head too quickly
You could pick up the phone
Don't leave me all alone

I won't look for the worst
Before i've even heard what you're trying to say
But words just get in the way

I know that it's late
We're much too tired to make sense
But i'll hold you up
Will you hold me up

Always more than I can catch inside this jar
Lighting up the night sky
Flicker in your eye
Ladybugs crawl across your hand
In plain sight, broad daylight
I don't mind

But in the dark
Invisible and beautiful
Then gone again
When you've forgotten them
They're back again
On and off
On and off
On and off

Only a fool tries to follow the light of a firefly

On slow days
Thoughts free to wander
Over to West Hurley
And down past Ashokan
The reservoir
And Georgia waving from the back of a car

She holds your hand
She holds it so tightly
She digs in her fingernails
And later that night, she whispers a name
She says it aloud for the last time

Cutting that milkweed
Bending down low in her navy blue dress
I'll never know which one I resemble the best
Oh, Georgia, you have been missed

The light from the moon
It falls on the Hudson
And your mind is back in 1907
The reservoir
And Georgia waving from the back of a car

why pick a fight or lie awake all night doubting
the worst of what you might do is half as bad as what ive done
the worst of what we might do is half as bad as what we've done

man in mind
might rob you blind
but you'll like the ride
you can hide
but im right by your side
i will try to be kind
i will try to be kind
but im taking only what i want

i want to bury my body
and i wont hurt your heart
dont build around me
cause ill only tear it down
dont build around me ill only tear it down

man in mind
might rob you blind
but you like the ride
you can hide but im right by your side
i will try to be kind
i will try to be kind
but im taking only what i want

look at me
am i still the one you wanted me to be
when we were talking
did i hear you say
that you still love me

what if we could do it all again
would you still look right through me then
what if you could make another life
would you still have me by your side

look at me
everything was clear i wanted you to see
but dont answer with a word
only with your eyes

After you gave up on the world
For the first time I understood
Your words were as good to me as gold
But it's all getting old already

I care about what you see
Even though you try to take the best of me apart
And punish me for trying

I watched you hit the ground
With the luckiest smile around
With your stupid guile and your chain
I couldn't have missed you hailing cabs in the rain

I care about what you see
Even though you try to take the best of me apart
And punish me trying

Everyday the nausea hits you
You face the mirror
Wonder if you'll ever get out of here
We'll never get past the past
Staring a hole through the bottom of a dirty shot glass
I listen well to your rage
And search your face for a spark
For something shimmering in the dark

Like glass shattering in a clean break
This is the art of a mistake
And we were like kids with a shotgun
Blowing up words till there were none

And maybe i'm too young

I thought that i could destroy it
Aimed shot and fired
Missed the target
But you keep coming abck
Hand me fractured words through the lens of time
And some things cant be burned
Even when they yurn to die

what is this weariness that waits for you shrug
you press your ankle against my arm
this is the pressure that i love
you always recommended it
could be the door
could be the phone
for any intent or purpose
your not home
your up against the wall
no real impression like breath on glass

ive got the apple in me too
people are bluer then they ever imagined they might be
looking through the boxes in the basement
who were you then
your restlessness is emptier
then the room we used to live in
here's wishing you the best
the rest is always better left unsaid

I could watch you sleep for hours
Without noticing that it's getting really late
But last night i just wanted to wake you up
Hear the city hum underneath the pink moonlight

Well i drove all night to see you
And i beat the sun, but not by very much
The radiator was hissing in the kitchen
We sat on the fire escape your hand was in mine

There's a bird on the land
There's a bird on the bay
There's a sun in the sky
But it won't go away
And the clock on the wall says remember
All that you've said
Don't think of the dangers you could have avoided
If only he'd stayed

Oh, this water is making my death
Every season stealing my man from my bed
And if this winter should carry him through to the next
All I can offer is yours to take

Keep me from cold
Keep me from foolish mistakes
Make me a woman whose love knows how to wait
As the fist on my pillow beats down in a midnight rage
Let the wind in his sails carry him back to the bay

Did we give away too much or was it right?
I just wanna go back home and hold you tight
I can't face another crowd and feel this way
Oh no, oh no

I'm falling into every little trap that I can find
Reading too much into every single sign
I can't face you with the others all around
Oh no, oh no
I need some time to breathe
I can't fix what's wrong

Well the world I see is only two lanes wide
From this midnight van to Georgia that we ride
And the toll booths become markers of the time
Oh no, oh no

We come and go so fast
Looking for what lasts

Stripped as you are you come to me
I wont deny you anything
while you need it
when you need it
i'm a faucet

when its hard to face the fear
that i wont find you
anywhere
will you find me
recognise me
stay inside me

your the velvet in my mouth
you i cannot be without
you make it so good
make it so good
love is so good
when it comes you give it back

After the first time we kissed
I drove for an hour in the wrong direction
Frozen in the winter wind
Where nothing could ever begin
I saw you
You were shining like a brand new sun
Shining starlight
For me
For you and me, my love
Pass a junkyard on the left
Time to catch my breath
Almost to the out-of-state line
Oh, it'll be better
This time, this time

Pulling back the rain is wet
We're still inside it all
And what's yours in the morning
By the night it all could be gone
You sound so good to me
And I have to say
I'm glad it wasn't me
Who had to walk away
Memory is heavy when you have to write
The pictures that are scattered
They swell up in your eyes
And how much becomes yours
What can you throw away
All this it matters on moving day
Sweeping out from under the bed
Afraid of what you'll find
Looking out windows for the last time
See past that face in front of you
And lift your head
Leave the saddest room

This doesn't have to end,
But it should.
We used to help each other out,
Now it doesn't feel good.
So go back to your room
And hide with your cellophane.

All twisted up in two
Like Caliban you've seen it all
Without language to use.

The phonecalls stopped,
The letters, too.
Maybe we passed on the street,
Pretended we never knew.
It might be worth the effort
But we don't have the time

Or the will to intrude.
Sooner or later you have to choose
Between one set of lies and another.
It's nothing new.
But like it or not,
There's part of me in you.

I don't know if I'll ever see you again
And there's one thing I'll never understand.
It's like the words that we said
Rolled over to play dead
And we kissed them goodbye
And never questioned why.

Summer snapped in half and half flippin' coffee creamers
Twenty times, that's a good sign, like a four-leaf clover
Downtown was filled with the sounds of the full and the part time losers
And when we stepped up to the bar, you asked for a cigarette and the years just melted away right then
And I saw all the ways that we've changed and the decisions that we made
And I wasn't hurt or afraid
Some skin holds night in
Some gifts go unrequited
I dreamed I was holding my breath
Go down again till I'm breathing in water and breaking like the day, getting in your way

Smile shu u u u u u u uuand maybe tommorow you will se the sun shining through for you

Take some time out to remember
What you kept and gave away
When you came into my life
Did you stop
To think twice
Little things pile up and turn into bigger things
And i want you to notice (this)
And i want you to try

Don't cut me off
Don't cut it out
Don't give away
What you can live without

Don't let it sit
Just spit it out
Don't hide yourself
Where no one can find you

Don't hesitate
Just let me know
Don't keep it all to yourself
I'll try to understand you

Don't hesitate
Just let me know
Don't keep it all to yourself
I'll try to understand
I'll try to understand

Did time takes it toll,
Did it cost too much?
Did it cost all the sweetness
That, was the best time you ever had.
It slipped so swift from the palm of your hand,
The time's when you stood tall.
Crawling with a backwards glance so strong,
That you can't believe it at all.

You thought that you lost such a solid love;
The best friend you ever had.
But the world is upside down,
Too many moments you could not keep,
The places that saw you speak,
You don't know how to see this through.

What did you miss?
In the telling of all this
And how could you guess
That it would ever be like this?

A sullen spent seven years
Scraping love from the dust that covers your fingerprints
I sit around and watch the splintering
Of a trust that I never seemed to have a hand in
Well maybe it's true I'm barely there
So easily mistaken for your favorite chair
Like a perfect and graceful fading
Well I thank you
For giving me nothing
'cause who could be a witness
Who could have the patience
You like to sit there in it
Privileged and indifferent
You never come around to see my side
So i don't get to tell you that I'm doing fine
Monday comes, and Monday goes
You're my faithful, stand-by no show
'cause who could tell the story
Sit down and read it to me
Who'd reveal their memories
Be the first to say
Yeah I do see you when you're looking down
Pages scattered on the ground
You're the one who tore them out
You're the one who tore them out
Yeah I do see you
Right through
And it feels too soon to leave you
Leave you