I struggled with this pain inside, but it was too strong you looked so catatonic, you knew it was wrong destructive, tainted, heated words scraped off your tongue singing wholly sinful song
if you feel the way I feel and you want to go to heaven for the first time one more time
you wanna know why I am the way I am you wanna hear the truth the love the way that only I can tell you wanna hear a song that moves and hangs inside of you you wanna feel and see the magic that only I can sell
I'm gonna plug it in, turn it up, settle in and turn the self-indulgent matrons over belly up I'm gonna find a way to touch you and blow away the hate for you to hear this fallen angel's song
(chorus)
my dear friends out there, standing atop the mountain did you find your faith in God when you found that you were buried at the bottom
Stuck inside A world inside my head A place where I think too much A place where no one can touch My God forsaken fear And though I don't pray enough I want to
<i>[chorus]</i> I want to thank you for the tears I've cried And hope you gave to me I want to show you what I've kept inside That takes control of me
Thought somtimes I was left behind Alone here all by myself Forced to look at myself I never will believe Things they say to me
Line up the bottles to complete the grief I've held on to for so long An angry soul I reap unto the people that have ever tried to do me wrong
I hope that you're ok I left in a hurry As soon as they told me So I prayed for you Hang on till tomorrow Just don't leave me here today I'm coming home to you
(Should've been there) Should've been there I wanted to (Should've been there) Should've been there right next to you (Should've been there) Should've been there to comfort you (should've been there) Should've been there to sing to you (should've been there) Should've been there to hold your hand (should've been there) Should've been there to be with you After all that we've been through Yes, it's hard to say goodbye And what I wish right now is to somehow turn back time With all of the love And respect That I hold right here for you Hang on till tomorrow Just don't leave me here today I'm coming home to you
Hollow Seem the stars in the sky Where my dreams They seem to follow Shadows In the walls of my mind And these thoughts That seem so shallow
I can't make sense of all this delivered to confusion from bliss Suffered so long that I miss feeling alive
No I'm not scared to say goodbye I've had enough of your sick and twisted lies And your cold and heartless words When you're slowly coming to no I wont be with you do you feel the way I feel do you feel me moving on
Again I find I'm searching for a place to run and hide somewhere to rest my mind A moment to feel myself again and never say
I can't make sense of all this delivered to confusion from bliss Suffered so long that I miss feeling alive
No I'm not scared to say goodbye I've had enough of your sick and twisted lies and your cold and heartless words When you're slowly coming to no I wont be with you do you feel the way I feel do you feel me moving on
I'm ok now without you time to finally turn the page so hurt and I won't forget what you did to me I can hardly breathe
No I'm not scared to say goodbye I've had enough of your sick and twisted lies and your cold and heartless words When you're slowly coming to no I wont be with you do you feel the way I feel do you feel me moving on
As I poner my Thoughts and fears in life I stand tempted to throw it all away So I sit and I Slowly loose my mind Look for signs of you Just to feel it again
<i>[chorus]</i> Need to find my way back hom again A place where I can feel myself again Leave the world behind and start again Again
As I gather myself I know that I Still stand tempted to throw it all away So I sit and I Watch the world pass by Look for signs of you Just to feel it again
Another lonely day As the sunlight turns to haze I'm calling you to say I miss you I'm ok
It's hard for me to say I feel so far away Soon one of these days I'll be back home to stay
Now I need to find a way to get this strain off of my back Sometimes we need to lock the door And throw away the key Sometimes we need to learn to let be
It's nice to feel the sun
So I awake to find that I'm in no danger I finally found the strength I need still spinning on my back And now I feel the sun Shining down on me Sometimes we have to live and be free
For days now I've waited for the light to shine Shine down on me
I Wonder what the day will bring tomorrow when I wake Why Do I decide to dwell upon mistakes I haven't made Maybe I'm afraid So I try (I try to find the words to explain)
<i>[chorus]</i> Why I feel so down
Don't ask why I could care less of the world outside One more time I'll come out of the dark of my mind Who knows what I find Still I try (I try to find the words to explain)
So I look for a dark place to hide Must be a reason I do Why do I Seem unsatisfied? (I try to find the words to explain)
And if you could make up For every single time you lied I'd probably whisper this Hello, goodbye And so it begins again Harder each and every time I start to reminisce I never seem to ever find
<i>[chorus]</i> Someone I can trust Someone I believe Someone who will never try To bring me to my knees Someday I will find again Someone just like me Someone who will take the time In understanding me
And if I could make up For every single tear you cried I'd probably never miss Your hand in mine I never could understand Mistakes I repeat again I've been through this so many times I never seem to ever find
And I've stopped searching To take my time And to really clear my head And I believe it was meant to be And I feel it's time to go
And if you could make up For every single time you lied I'd probably whisper this I never seem to ever find
So you finally found the way To lessen all your pain What you’d give to feel again For even just a day And as you search to find the words For someone to relate You realize all your faults Will never mend the mistakes And everything starts to fall apart Covered in ink to hide these scars And everything ends the way it starts I just want to feel like I belong Could this be the one last time That brings about the change The moments in your life Well did you know it has to change Another waste of time Another dream in flames And once you feel the fire You’ll never be the same And everything starts to fall apart Covered in ink to hide these scars And everything ends the way it starts I just want to feel like I belong I belong (x’s 3) All my life, I’ve done nothing but hide from myself Over and over All my life, I’ve done nothing but lie to myself Over and over again And everything starts to fall apart Covered in ink to hide these scars And everything ends the way it starts I just want to feel like I belong
Something's wrong Trying to conquer these fears I thought were gone And it's been so long I'm dying to live in a world, I don't belong I can't wait for someone to hear me And wait for someone to touch me And wait forever to be dull and forever alone I can't wait for someone to feel me And wait for someone to heal me And wait forever to be dull and forever alone On my own I've show myself what it means to be alone And the tears I've cried, haved washed away All the scars of my disguise I can't wait for someone to hear me And wait for someone to touch me And wait forever to be dull and forever alone I can't wait for someone to feel me And wait for someone to heal me And wait forever to be dull and forever alone I'm forever alone I'm forever alone I'm forever alone I, I'm not waiting here this time I can't wait for someone to hear me And wait for someone to touch me And wait forever to be dull and forever alone I can't wait for someone to feel me And wait for someone to heal me And wait forever to be told I'm forever alone I'm forever alone
Strapped down and heavy, tied up and bound This weight I carry, this weight I've found So, let me be the one to say I've really had enough
Downfallen on (Yes, you meant the world to me) My sweet love So headstrong (Are you?) Strong
One time too many You've let me down Won't think what could be Can' feel much now
Downfallen on (Yes, you meant the world to me) My sweet love So headstrong (Are you?) Strong
Does it realy meant that much to you, To hide your fear, to test the way I feel
Watch me fall Watch me break Watch me crawl Watch me throw it all away
I can't believe the things you say, so wrong for how I eel this way I'm sleeping to relieve this strain so... Calmly, slowly, softly, just let it all just drift away
I wanna be sure I wanna make clear I want you to know I love you my dear me, I'm so dirty, covered in spite maybe you'll come back cuz you want me, maybe you won't
But you were so young don't you feel dumb? you're not the only unfortunate one
Held in your head the things that they said and all of the lies and bad things they did me, I'm unworthy, callous and cold maybe you need me cuz you're lonely, maybe you don't and we all live and make mistakes and build up walls that make us safe spitting on all that make us sick
I can't stay forever and you're too insulting to me (darling) I can't live forever and be who they want me to be and...
I I cannot pretend I will not surrender these dreams in my head I I will not disguise they cannot cover the stars in my eyes asleep I lie
Fall, like I do will this be the first time for you? walk on me, I walk on you stuck on me, stuck on you [chorus] All the things they're telling me make me wanna up and leave but I'm not sure that now's the time and I'm not sure of anything but even if I crossed the line at least I'm being true to life It's me out with the stars tonight [repeat] [chorus]
I never cared much for this world (I just want to be someone like you) but I never said I wouldn't reach deep down to blow them all away
I can feel it but I don't know where my life's supposed to go I can see it but I'm covered by the fear of the unknown I could hear it but my head's too sick to listen on my own wanna do it my way
I never had much of my own (I just wanna feel the sun like you) but I never said I wouldn't spread these wings to rise and fly away [chorus] Will I be here for you? of course I will just remember when you're by yourself... I've faced trying times, and I've seen pain I've been through many different walks of life and just because I haven't seen them all doesn't really matter cuz I'm floating [chorus]
Fall to my knees just to be close to God and I fall to the floor from your love I am weakened by your tenderness and touched by your innocence I search just to find that you're enough I'm here, call on me everything, you and me every moment I think of you is...(every thought that shatters)
All this time just to break up I'm bored and so alone wake up I'm bored and so alone wake up
I will be your protector guided by the light from heaven I will stand and never be undone like a flame with a million hours keeping warm this enchantment all that goes inside this grace is yours I'm here, call on me everything, you and me every moment I think of you is...(every thought that shatters) [chorus] Love me, love me before you tell me all the reasons why you wouldn't have me everything's so fucked up in my head I don't know for sure that's what she said tell me, tell me please won't you let me tell you how inside I feel so empty nothing left just thoughts of better times letting heal this broken heart and mind I can't find your will to be saved waking all this fear inside me I can't find your will to be saved wake up find yourself inside me
Sometimes I feel like I'm losing it all abused and beat down and thrown to the wall how can they do this to someone at all? something so awful woke up this morning I hoped and I prayed nothing can stop me I'm well on my way if I can have anything that I want why does this happen?
We gain, we lose, we fall and we stand right up again we gain, we lose and we fall and we stand right up again I can be anything I want to be losing myself in a world that can't be coming together and falling apart we stand....we fall....
I can see clearly the crack in your soul looking for something to patch up the hole if you need someone to reach for, console, just call my name... you have been searching for so long inside a meaningful calling your heart can't deny I try so hard just to stand on my own how can this happen? (again) [chorus] I can finally see the light no more darkness I feel so much more alive
Wait, there is too much on my mind are we here just to simply pass the time? all these questions awake inside my head all these questions awake inside me...[repeat]
Now, what I would give what I would try... to be with just an ordinary girl what I would give again, only if I... could be with just an ordinary girl
Stop, I'm not happy anymore you bring heartache and anger to the core I have nothing to give inside me now I have nothing to give inside me...[repeat] [chorus] Doesn't really matter, I'm alone now thrown out to the world do you feel the same? cuz we all feel the same...sometimes
Don't leave me alone I'm feeling so numb I need you to be here, I need you to call and everything's wrong a beautiful shame everything's ugly, hazy, and gray doesn't it hurt? trick and control you deceive and destroy you doesn't it hurt? forget and move on I'm here and I'm strong I've got you to blame when it's finally done
I'm not afraid of these feelings here inside I'm sure someday I'll let go of all this hate for you... I'll let go of all this hate
Does it make you feel inside what you've never felt before does it promise you a life, but that left you all alone doesn't it hurt? trick and control you deceive and destroy you doesn't it hurt? forget and move on I'm here and I'm strong I've got you to blame when it's finally done [chorus]