손한창

my guitar my monitor my phone my stereo my glasses my beer i'm alone
your voice your smile your scent your touch your hair you're not here i'm alone

this room this season these days and these nights my lyrics your abscence

empty bottles empty minds longing hearts and longer sighs nothing to do nothing's right
and it's not familiar here

every time i clean my room i find another strand of your hair
and i don't know where it comes from cuz you haven't been here since
and every time i come back home after meeting somebody
i find myself in someplace not familiar
am i waiting or just not letting go

standing on the edge you're looking at the heads crawling between your toes
and every breath i take every step i take it just make the air thicker

i can't grab you
and nobody can break your fall
stepping outside of the door
you won't save yourself

21 years of nothing 21 years of waiting for something to happen
another year of waiting another year of waiting for someone to come by

now i'm getting older and all the younger girls are going out with the younger guys
now i'm getting older and all the older girls are going out with the guys with the money

when am i ever gonna find someone
i'm so tired of waiting all these years
nothing's gonna ever change

22 years in the same place 22 years of listening and not doing anything
and everybody's saying that they're lonely but they're not

alone
no they're not alone
why do you say you're lonely if you're not alone
you're just pissin me off

when am i ever gonna find someone
i'm so tired of waiting all these years
nothing's gonna ever change and i hate this fucking situation

nothing's gonna ever change

smile me a smile that no one in the world has ever seen
kiss me a kiss no one else has ever had before

and i'll say to you that i love you
and i'll mean it

the shoes i bought you they hurt your heels
wear them and fit your feet to them
and they'll fit themselves to you
like i'll fit myself to you

and i'll say to you that i thank you
and i'll mean it
and i'll say to you that i am happy
and will we be happy?

and i won't ask you to trust me
just let me be your solace that someone
and remember me always
never forget that we stood together for sometime

i don't need anything anymore
just smile me a smile no one in the world has ever seen

everything seems to be plagiarized
i can't do anything no energy i sleep all day without satisfaction

hate to go back to school
my brain doesn't work anymore
i'm nervous

i'm not letting go of you and i'm not talking to you too i'm just here singing a song for me
you're not looking at me now are you happy with him now was there ever anything between us before

don't ever say anything in certainty cuz you never know if it will turn out to be a lie
i wish this is the last song that i write about you but i won't say it's the last time
cuz i never know we never know

i loved you i really loved you but you're a liar a fucking liar i can't believe a single word you say
hate hate
loved hate

no words no connection
just a few looks in the eye
you cry a few tears
slowly they run down your face

don't look at me like that
i don't know what to do
but then again
i always don't know what to do about you

again i'm here saying stupid things
not knowing it sounds so dumb to you
and without a doubt you're my best girl
and without a doubt i'd probably be the worst boyfriend

don't look at me like that
i don't know what to do
but then again
i always don't know what to do about you

again i'm here singing stupid songs
again i'm here singing this stupid song to you
and without a doubt you're my best girl
and without a doubt i'd probably be the worst boyfriend

and still i wanna be

your worst boyfriend